They say that desire can cause heart attacks. Today, I know what it means.
Haha, blame it on my stubborn mouth. That I dont always dont say what I really want to say. So I type it out here but it's a bit too late. I really wanted you to come. I dont like being alone in the house. Its empty and so quiet. Well, let's try saying what I want to say. I need you. I want you. I dont mind. And I wont regret cos I know you're worth it. I love you. But all this couldn't come out. Recently I've been having urges. I dont want to be near you because I'm afraid I'll lose control. I've never had anyone hug me to sleep. I've never had anyone lie their heads on my shoulder and sleep. Not until you came along.
I really wanted you to be by my side. Cos an empty room can be so deafening. We dont even have to stay at home. We could go to the park or watch tv or stay in bed. We could take the day off tomorrow and just be together. HAHA. Fantasies. Darling, I want you. It's a craving. AND it's embarrassing. But I love you and I cant keep it in anymore so I'm letting it out. I'm not getting enough. LOL. I'm not satisfied.
So solemnity passes and this arrives. Burn my bridges one by one. Another lonely night. I love you and I miss you. All of you.