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{ Dreamer }
Definition:

1. a person who dreams.

2. a person who lives in a world of fantasy; one who is impractical and unrealistic.

3. a person whose ideas or projects are considered audacious or highly speculative; visionary.
{ Marianne }

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
It was always you.

{ Past. }

January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 July 2012 October 2012 January 2013 March 2013 July 2013 August 2013 January 2014 September 2014 January 2015 July 2015

{ Sunday, November 30, 2008 }

Hello people (: I've been a good host today hopefully.

My uncle came over and he's soooo funny! XD

Anyways, I'm talking to WAN online now and dude, I miss talking to you man. HAHA, ah well.

Uh huh her's newest vid! Many people dont like it cos its too straight. I still think its artistically expressive (:

I so love it (: I have my dates all planned out with multiple girls' nights out! LOVE IT (: So yipeee! Life is made good with my girls by my side :D

& that's all you're hearing from me for today ;D



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{ Saturday, November 29, 2008 }

YIPEEEEE (:

I'm feeling happy (: I read my OB textbook today and I happen to be feeling smart again. Then I played my guitar and then I did soe drawing! :D

I realised that art is my personal heroine (: I'm addicted to it and it takes my troubles far far away. So athough it was considered school work I still didnt mind doing it (: Love my team members for giving me this job XD


TADAAAH! MY MASTERPIECE (:

Heart to heart





I like these lions (:

An apple a day keeps A doctor away so 2 apples, keeps 2 doctors away?

Mehmeh's trademark #1


FINALE! I think these are the nicest (: Mehmeh's trademark #2 :D


Grand uncle Jerry and Grand auntie Geraldine are in Singapore! (: HAHA, so is uncle Leigh-san who happens to be 2 years older than me! LOL. So we're onna be their entertainment tomorrow. Bring them to church then to lunch and all :D Since they gave us food and lodging in Australia! Happy times we had there HAHA. Anyone wants an aussie boyfriend? My uncle happens to be horribly good looking XD

Okay, so that's life for now. I feel like I achieved something I guess. After so long of procastinating everything. I'm gonna do badly for this sem but hopefully not too badly. Oh wells.

OH OH, ANYONE WANTS TO WATCH TWILIGHT?!?! I'M DYING TO WATCH IT!

And Khairul Hakim called me to ask if I wanna eat dinner with him but I already had dinner ): Saaaaaad luh. We MUST celebrate our 1++ years of friendship! :D Our prata date!!! MR PRATA! HAHAHAHA!

& Playgirl, why are you dancing when you could be alone? Hey playgirl, I'm back (:



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{ Friday, November 28, 2008 }

URGH.
I dont like this. I shouldnt be doing this.
I shouldn't be thinking back and wanting things to be like it was before. Shouldn't be wishing we could go back to whereit all went wrong. Shouldn't be wishing I could talk to you and crack dumb jokes. I miss you I do but no, its over and we both know it. Marianne, move on because life goes on.


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THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!

School's a terrifying place to be. Its work, work and MORE work. Well, had CATS presentation today. She said our video was good! (: At least my efforts are paid off. If she'd said it sucked I'd have rebelled.

Was really hesitant about going for s&w because of so many reasons. Woman scolded me but I guess she's right. Still, I didnt want to go. There's been so much going on that I the last thing I wanna do is climb some wall. So I didnt climb, didnt belay. Just spotted. Took 154 with woman all the way back to her house and then took 985. I practically slept on the bus all the way home so it didnt feel like such a long ride. Dreamt about stuff and didnt wanna go home but dad called to say that my brother is having HIGH fever.

So I rushed home to check if he's doing okay and then played guitar while he slept. Guitar rocks. And once I learn how to sing decode, I shall play the chords!

OH YES, I met KHAIRUL HAKIM with a hug today!! He made my day (: HAHA, seriously. He's such a good good friend I'm really glad I've found a friend like him! I still owe him JASON MRAZ concert tix XD Anyways, dude, its been more than a year that we've known each other!!! We had better hang out soon and jam yoooo! :D

I also met VIVIANA with a hug (: Such a cute girl HAHA, love her loads too! She makes me happy with her honey starrrrs (:

OH OH and woman made me really angry but its good because I think she's the only one who can talk some sense into me since I ruined my own e learning so thanks woman! (:

I'm happy the weekend is here. I'll get some time to myself and stuff. Time to study and get back on track. Refocus once more. After all, sort of died for my first half of the semester already which sucks big time but oh well. It happens.

All of a sudden I feel like meeting all my old friends. Friends who I have not met up with for like FOREVER. People like Shawny, Aamir, Timmo, Eddy, Jiro, Bin Bin, Pamela and all of S28. I miss all these people! And of course definitely MUST meet KHAIRUL HAKIM, WAN AND HII SIEWYI!!!! (: Tuesday babe! :D

I guess sometimes I wish I wasn't like this. Sometimes wish I did things in a logical way. That way perhaps pople would understand me better. But yea, God made me this way for a reason and so I'm livig with it.

So of course, for those who know I'm sort of a vampire fan and TWILIGHT is coming out!!! (: Or has come out? I dont know but I WANNA WATCH IT!!!! HAHA, and and the theme song is sung by PARAMORE and it rocks and its been stuk in my head since last night when Khairul sent me the acoustic version! XD It's kick ass, seriously!


Paramore - Decode
How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides?
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.Not this time.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.

I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.

& my thoughts you cant decode.

Why dont they understand? Its not that I no longer love but there's no way it'll work. And you have no idea how much your words hurt so stop it; please. I'm not the bad guy; neither are you.


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{ Thursday, November 27, 2008 }

Hello world (:

Another day has passed. I guess it wasn't that bad a day today.

Yesterday was woman's birthday (: And the class decided to surprise her with a cake before debates (: AND debates was really funny! I'm glad we ended it all with a BANG!

WOMAN'S CAKES! (:

TIMOTHY CHOONG JIA YUN!

PROPOSITION!

OPPOSITION!!

NISHA!(:

TIMMAY!!XD
Guess who's orange socks hmmmmm? LOL


Anyway, to my dearest SIEWYI darling, HAPPY ONE WHOLE YEAR OF FRIENDSHIP!! (: It's been crazy ass days since I knew you! We've had so much to go through together with so much retarded fun and intense sad times!! Till now, you've been such an important human being in my life! I so so so love you babe! :D Miss you MADLY and see you soooon!

Kor kor Michael's in hospital cos he just had his operation today for cancer of the kidney. I'm glad he's doing fine now (:









& decode; the everyday facades

OH, and I'd like to thank darling siewyi, woman, nehneh!, lanze, nicholasand KHAIRUL HAKIM!! for helping me in one way or another through everything (: You people rock! ;D I know I can always count on you people!! :D

I have nothing left to say, and I wont blog about it anymore. Blame me if you want to but I now I made the right decision and it wont change. Furthermore, I believe you've insulted me enough last night alread so this is it.



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{ Wednesday, November 26, 2008 }

I'm sick and tired of this.

Stop judging me and accusing me of things that I never did. If you're so unhappy with things why do you keep wanting to salvage things? Just go on and hate me or do whatever you want but dont you freaking accuse me. Damn it. What's more if you really feel so f-ed up then come talk to me. I'm on msn and you're on msn. You can call me. Stop what you're doing cos whatever. You're nt the only person on this freaking earth who's hurting. Why do you wanna make it such a bitter thing? What the hell is your problem?

Stop it cos it hurts okay. It hurts more than you think it does.


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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CINDY TAN WOMAN!!!! :D LOL.
p.s., she's beside me now :D


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{ Tuesday, November 25, 2008 }

Hello world. I'm finally feeling at peace although thursday is a scaaaary thought.

I have so much so much work to do! BUT I'm here because I'm feeling happy. I'm talking to my woman and my darling online (: WOOHOO

OH, guess what we caught today during Simon's lecture?







A SLEEPING TIMOTHY, AGAIN! XD

Okay, I really feel liberated. I can do what I want now. I dont have to lie to my parents and find myself stuck between things!

And I'm glad woman got her stuff resolved (:

Its time to get my life back :D My happy go lucky one.

OHHH yes, tomorrow marks a very SPECIAL day! For two reasons! Number one because it is woman's birthday!! :D Number two is because it marks a year of superb friendship with my dearest darling HII SIEWYI!!!!!

On the 26th November 2007, 8.45am I entered Maybank with wide eyes. This girl sitting opposite me stood up and said "Hi, my name is MAY" HAHAHAH! And she sat down. So I stared at her and according to her gave her BAO QING TIAN face! XD That's how the friendship sort of started! (: I so love this girrrrl (: NEXT TUESDAYYY!

And so it is that my life as an independent person is good and happy :D

& hey playgirl :D

WAN! We still on for PRIDE & PLAY? ;D Welcome me back to your world dude! LOL. I want my Jason back and you want my UH HUH HER badly (: Meet up soon!



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Such a hard day today. So many things going on and so many things left undone.

There's no point in thinking about it anymore I guess. I just wanna be alone for a while so thank god there's an e learning week again next week. I promise to start studying AND I will go down to church one day. Just to pray and all!

Oh well. I'm tired so goodbye people. I'm tired because I fear.

'The important thing is to allow fate to intervene in our lives and to decide what is best for everyone.' - Paulo Coelho : The Witch of Portobello

& there's never a right time to say goodbye, but I gotta make the first move. 'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me. I kinda gotta figure out what I need. And I know it's hard but I gotta do it, and it's killing me.

Dont assume that I dont hurt.


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{ Monday, November 24, 2008 }

Life's a joke, it really is.

Today it ends and it sucks to say but I made it end. I wont explain anymore. I'll disappear from your life. Just like that. I know what I say now wouldn't make a difference, but still I'll say I'm sorry.

I have work to do, I know I have work to do. Its no just work, it's overdue work. Work that I should have done million years ago but I just delayed. How do I work now?

I thought I found purpose in life but I didnt.

I should have stuck to that gut feeling I had but no use regretting now.

I'm at a lost I guess. I want to focus but I dont know what on. I want to runaway from home and roam the streets all night. I want to forget about school and just stay home all day. I want to write and draw and play my freaking guitar.

I'm tired but I know there's more to come. The questioning, the judgements but dont judge me. I'm sick of being judged.

Drinks anyone? It's been so long since I've drank. So yes, let's go for a drink. Let's visit pubs nd hang out. Let's go out an keep busy so I wont have to think. So I wont have to feel guilt. I feel selfish. I feel assholic. I feel like shit.

I have to do my work. But Ireally dont see how I'm gonna do it.

Courage makes a fool out of all of us.

Time to be independent, to rely on myself once again. I'm an outlier. I'm not alone, I'm just on my own.

SIEWYI! WEDNESDAY PLEASE!!

And thanks woman for being there and talking to me and listening to me rant about stuff.

And nehneh! who always keeps a listening ear near.

& you for the times we shared

Moon and sun, what's done is done.


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{ Sunday, November 23, 2008 }

Hello world.

What I do when I'm bored (:

MOMMY! (:

TSK, ugly face XD

This is from yesterday; Genn's ebi rice burger!

Okay, how ugly can I get huh?

STARE (:

He's learing to cam whore too! XD

EPIC SMILE!

I love my expressions! XD

Dont ask.

He was ignoring me ):


He has to work on the expressions XD

Sugarcane and happy daddy

Mommy and her super hands XD



HOOOOOOOODEEEEEEEE! (:


WOOHOO! (: Yeah, that's my newest purchase. And I got new shoes too! But they're all white.
I turned off my phone and turned it on like 123456789 times! TSK, but I'm really glad we're okay now :D Thanks baby (: Guaranteed no more okay! ;D
& new zealand I am sooooo coming soon (:
My tour guide says 'Fry in a hairycopter (helicopter)'! I'm so gonna laugh my ass off XD


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{ Saturday, November 22, 2008 }

URGH, I KEEP MESSING THINGS UP!! ):

Woman, I hope you're feeling okay (:

To you, I really hope you dont feel bad anymore. No one's at fault.

Okay, today has been great! (:

Went to get my haircut and the rushed off to church with MARCUS FISH, GENN SEAH, JUSTIN TWIN, DORVILLEs, KAT & THE KOH SISTERS! (: Happy! Haven't felt this bond for so long (:

After church, me marcus fish and genn went of to WESTMALL toeat MOS BURGER!! (: Had an amazing talk with them (: Laughed like MAAAAAD!
'I wanted so bad to bea tree but I end up being a girl'
'Why do you wana become a tree?'
'Yea, you dont even look like a tree!'
'Which person who acts as a tree looks like a tree?'
'ERM, a tree?'
LOL, how retarded are we? (: Had loads of fun luh!!! MORE OF SUCH DINNERS PLEASE!




Oh, on the way home while waiting for 300 there were this 2 aunties who were discussing about this couple who happened to be a lesbian couple and they said if their daugters ended up like that they would faint. TSK. Let them love who they wanna love! Seriously. Love should be fluid shouldn't it?

& sometimes I really wonder if telling the truth works to my advantage; dont play the facades game with me cos I play it better



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{ Friday, November 21, 2008 }

Oh dear. Marianne, why do you always do things on impulse? I'm sorry, I'm sure it all started with me so I'm really sorry!
& what a beautiful mess this is; its like picking up trash in dresses ):


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My day started out with being wayyy too early for school. So I decided to take 985 then 61. Managed to read my book! (:

Anyways, reached and had a nice talk with Germaise :D Then we started work. First batch was damn funny cos there was that St Gabriel's dude who was high and fun and all XD Second batch was more interactive I guess? LOL. I managed to convince ONE dude that PCS is DA right choice for him (: WOOTS.

Then there was that girl wh came up to me and stared at me and said 'You're ice's friend right?' LOL. I stared back for a while because I couldn't remember who she was. HAHA, then I realised it was one of ice's church friends. OOOH. HA, small freaking world.

Anyways, I think the magic tricks were cooolios yoo! And the NP muppets show is super cute too! Then we sat them down for lunch and me and Germaise went back to get the thing and WOMAN! HER SENSE OF DIRECTION IS AS HORRIBLE AS YOU! XD

So I went off to class with my lunch and shared my pizza with woman and gave my garlic bread to Shen Lynn (: So nice right? The chicken drumsticks were AMAZINGLY YUMMAYLICIOUS YOOO! :D

Jason is freaking funny! So restless and brainless -.-

Then off we went to sports climbing. I get to play mah SWING todayy! (: Anyways, we climbed today. We all climbed to the highest part! COOOOOLIOSSS!

OH, and my jc class peeps are such darrrrlings! (: They've booked a chalet so I'm gonna goooo! ;D HAPPY. Damn nice of them to still take me as part of the class even though I'm gone! XD Thanks darlings! (:

Sat on 151 with woman today! I have headache now XD Took to her house area, then I took 985 home and I slept on the bloody bus! LOL. Oh oh, and Nisha's curse has finally come true! When coming down from the upper deck of 151, I fell ): On the stairs. So embarrassing ): Nisha, go curse someone else next time! HAHA.

OH YES, alost forgot. I dreamt another weird dream today. Its this scene where me and baby were in the same class and guess which class that is? CHINESE CLASS!! HAHA. Baby was being punished so he had to stand at the front of the class and I went to throw something so I was beside him when he volunteered to be a chinese rep! And then erm erm erm he started laughing at this class called 'hell's traffic' that I'm taking and its taught by Heidi! HAHA, so random. Hell's traffic? HUH. Oh man, since there's chinese in it does it mean its a nightmare for me? LOL.

WOOOOMAN, dont worry! (:

Darling SIEWYI!, we're always stuck on the same lame boat together! AHAHA, meet up soon love (:

& swing swing from the tangles of all our hearts.


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{ Thursday, November 20, 2008 }

Okay, yesterday was a shitty day. I thought it through and I know what I have to do now (: Thanks to woman, siewyi and nehneh! (: You three are DA LOVE! Oh and Hann Kenn too! ;D HAHA.

Anyways, smsed baby this morning to apologise to him for yesterday. I know I treated you damn badly luh. Dont deny it. We missed the chance to watch quantam of solace. Ah well.

Then off I went to malaysia! :D Got myself new clothes! Now I need new bag and shoes. XD

Okay, pictures (:











HAHA, yeah. That was dinner alone. (: Did some superbly dumb stuff. WOOTSSSS!

Tomorrow's gonna be a pretty busy day? (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TIMOTHY CHOONG ALTHOUGH ITS ALMOST OVER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEE HANN KENN WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS COMING AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT! (:

I'm feeling so much better today (: Let's see how sunday goes ;D

& decide my fate; I leave it in your hands. The ball's in your court now.



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