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The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
It was always you.

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Yay (: Day out with Khairul Hakim was great! POPEYES was brilliant! I'm so going back there for more! HAHA, we walked around AIMLESSLY okay and spent A WHOLE HOUR looking at books in suntec XD

School was alright. Our healthpsych was a little shaky but I'm glad its over. Next up is stats and speechcomm and also studying for exams -.- Oh right, CYA was pretty awesome too! Met Father Alex and a few SP peeps and discussed about stuff and then dinner with Dot, Annabelle and John. Running across the road screaming! And making loads of noise and being shushed by PRE-TEENS. Tsk.

Then we finished eating and ended the day with Wan (: Who looked fabulous in her newest outfit aye! Sat at the mrt area like some crazy delinquents and talked and did NOT wanna go back home at all. Ended up going home and sleeping. LOL.

Anyway, today we witnessed something really really brilliant and funny all at the same time. We were sitting at somearea when this group of guys walked past and then suddenly just stopped and turned around to look at the girl sitting behind us. Then one guy walked back and sat down with her and started talking to her while his friends stared from afar. WTH! So we were waiting for the guy to get rejected but in the end the girl gave him her number and the dude was smiling away! LOL. Darn funny please.

And yesterday apparently something happened at the bus stop. LOL. Too bad I didnt see. I'm sorry but anyway, I'm trying as much not "put my business in the streets" so called so quit being so sensitive about things okay.

Ah, one last thing. How do you know when you're ready to know someone, you used to love, all over again without falling for them?

& to be or not to be; that is the question.

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A day off school. Self declared holiday thanks to my swollen left eye :D

Walked down to see a doctor only to find freaking long queues of humans so I gave up (: Went home and studied (OMG! MARIANNE STUDIES!) and then started going crazy about The Killers all over again! XD

So yes, anyway I've been making this big ass card for Eng Chuan's 21st birthday. Tsk, I dont know what to do okay. Seriously ): Why cant he be a girl? LOL.

Anyway, next 2 weeks are gonna be busy. Have to meet alot of people while coping with studying, presentations and making birthday card. But its a MUST to actually do something for him I guess. Cos his presents for me are like 0.0 horribly NICE. So yeah, time to step up to the plate.

So yes, back to school tomorrow. I believe school does brighten up my days :D

& go faster (:

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Back, and no it isn't about to get serious on this side (:

I'm happy to be back after some serious blogging. It helps get things out of my system. Anyways, just a hint of what life's been like:

Amazing, The Killers, Jason Mraz, The Do, Queen, Soko, Daniel Merriweather, Wan, projects, projects, projects, projects, happy, joyful, blissful, sad, happy happy, amazed, so amazed, pissed, happy happy happy HAPPY!

Yup (: Life is good :D

So yes, I'm back on blogger and probably back to my old way of blogging. You know, "Today was a great day! We did this this this....."

HAHA, and those who dont know, JAMES TAN YONG HUI HAS BEEN ENLISTED INTO THE ARMY. I'm nice, I wished him all the best but I didnt bother to try to make conversation. HOPELESS. Anyways, still hope army treats him well :D

& the bridge is broken.

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So I have stopped blogging here for the time being. I'm doing a series of serious blogging so all blog posts will be posted to

http://facades-sayso.livejournal.com/

This blog is gonna be pretty dead for a while (:

Marianne's serious side is a-calling.

She's been a joker for way too long.

See you on the other side.

& its my all consuming love affair with solitude and dreams.

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Yes, so what if this another tribute to Michael Jackson?

This man has played such a huge role in all our lives. Especially people who love music.

Watching the tribute on Channel 5 last night struck me. I didn't feel sad when I heard of Michael Jackson's death, even though I am a pretty big fan of his. But watching the tribute last night made me realise that we as a whole civilisation has lost one of the biggest icons on earth. It made me realise that I will miss having Michael Jackson in the world. It made me realise that I am saddened by his death, more than I thought.

When I think about it, I grew up on his songs. Thriller was the very first song I heard from him. The first MTV of his I ever saw. I remembered telling my mom I love the song and the video. What with werewolves and zombies dancing around. It made an impact. Over the years I grew to love many more of his songs. Impactful lyrics and catchy tunes. Sadly, over the years I forgot about MJ because I found Jason Mraz and he became the sole inspiration for almost everything I did. Still, Jason's biggest influences also had Michael's name in it. Face it, we can never run from MJ. He is THAT huge.

I realised last night I picked my confirmation name to be a name starting with the letter 'J' on purpose. I wanted it to be a flip of JM so Marianne Joy (MJ), yup. Michael Jackson's initials.

So what I wanna say is that why do people still wonder why he bleached his skin from black to white. Why do people remember him as that screwed up celebrity. Instead, I'd like to remember Michael Jackson as an icon that has impacted the whole world. A person who touched the hearts of many through his songs, his lyrics and his moves. I'd like to remember him as this amazing talent who started singing and dancing so amazingly since he was 7 years old. I choose to remember the good things that made Michael Jackson who he is. The successes he's had, the talents and the way his songs managed to build bridges over so many difficult pathways. His gift of presenting songs will always amaze me. I will always tap my feet when I hear the familiar beat of Billie Jean. MJ is universal. So stop. Stop speculating and stop talking about him like he is some sort of freak. I'd like to remember him as the bright star he was. Him, being human like all of us are, but yet so talented.

Without a doubt, King of Pop.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the ChildhoodI've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates and adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?
People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
For the Childhood I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
The dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood....

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