{ Dreamer }

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
It was always you.

January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 July 2012 October 2012 January 2013 March 2013 July 2013 August 2013 January 2014 September 2014 January 2015 July 2015

1) Bugis with HM was fun the other day. I went without my wallet and I had no money so I had to borrow money from HM LOL. Damn funny but guess what? I got my shoeeeee :D JETSETTERS!

2) My first day of work started with a scary encounter with a teenage cockroach that almost climbed onto me on 172 ): Scare the shit out of me.

3) Work was kinda boring but at least I'm getting paid (: HAHA.

4) I'm not going for 4E3's gathering. Wan's not going and there's no one else I'd wanna be there with but her so no point.

5) I'm meeting Wan on friday :D :D :D

6) Marianne wants to meet more girls. LOL Dont ask why (:

7) Carol reminds me of Pei Ying so much. Loud, smokes, caring, funny, funny laughter and superbly spontaneous.

I've read stuff that made me understand things so much better and love the decision I made. I've always been there if you'd only realise but nope. You never notice and you dont bother so guess what? I'll still be here for you if you ever need me but I dont need such a friendship. I'm there if you need me, but dont expect me to ask about you because I only do that to a few exceptional people and you used to be one of them but not anymore I guess.

Owl City - Strawberry Avalanche
This is a world of dreams and reverie
Where I felt the stars explode around me.
A grasp light flashed with a gleam as it slashed open a moon beam
And I stared back breathlessly as mountains of fruit tumbled out;
I barely had the chance to shout.
A strawberry avalanche crashed over me.

Staying awake that night was rather hard
Deep in a sleeping bag in your backyard.
When we woke up buried alive beneath the fruity landslide we both laughed hysterically.
It could've been just another dream, but I swear I heard you scream.
A strawberry avalanche crashed over me.

Always a citrus constellation in the galaxy, scratched on the back
Of both my eye lids that I've been dying to see.
If you were a beautiful sound and the echo's all around,
Then I'd be your harmony and we'd sing along with the crowds
Beneath the candy coated clouds of strawberry avalanche, jeez, crashed over me.

See the world of dreams and reverie where I felt the stars explode around me.

& spasms or the world unite.

{ fin }

Work in about 8.5 hours. I'm looking forward to it and I wont be able to sleep today ):

Owl City - Tidal Wave
I wish I could cross my arms and cross your mind
Cause I believe you'd unfold your paper heart and wear it on your sleeve
All my life I wish I broke mirrors instead of promises
Cause all I see is a shattered conscience staring right back at me
I wish I had covered all my tracks completely
Cause I'm so afraid, is that the light at the far end of the tunnel or just the train
Lift your arms, only heaven knows where the danger grows
And it's safe to say there's a bright light up ahead and help is on the way

I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity
Cause it came down like a tidal wave and sorrow swept over me

Depression please cut to the chase and cut a long story short
Oh please be done, how much longer can this drama afford to run
Fate looks sharp, severs all my ties and breaks whatever doesn't bend
But sadly then, all my heavy hopes just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave, I just recall insecurity
Cause it came down like a tidal wave and sorrow swept over me
Then I was given grace and love
I was blind but now I can see
Cause I've found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

It hurts just to wake up whenever you're wearing thin
Alone on the outside
So tired of looking in
The end is uncertain
And I've never been so afraid
But I don't need a telescope to see that there's hope
And that makes me feel brave

Just something I was thinking, because I've been recalling stuff unexpectedly. HAHA, oh I started talking to Petrina. Kind of-ish anyways. LOL. Yes, I think I'm ready for someone new to come along and sweep me off my feet and I know just which sort of a person I'd like it to be. So I'll be on the lookout. Like not look out kind of look out but my heart's open (:

& I've always believed in girl power anyway (:

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Okay, short one because I'm really so darn tired ):

After school rushed to SP and met up with Twin, Ranson and Andrew! On the mrt, talk nonsense. Then went for mass at SPP and then went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Isaac, Dot and Sharon who were screaming their asses off playing L4D. LOL. Went to Carl's Junior for lunch where the singing started and it never stopped OMG.

OH, met Petrina at grand cathay and then met Kenn at CJ HAHA.

Dot and Sharon went home after that, and Isaac and Ranson too. So left with me Andrew and twin and we walked walked walked to orchard XD Oh so we sat at Dunkin Donuts, sang some more and the headed home and sang MORE on the mrt -.- LOL. I bet the people wanted to kick us out ): HAHAHAHA! But yeah, it was fun :D

Whoopee. I feel freeeeeeeeeee :D HAHAH, exams are so over. Time to make some monaaaayyyyeee.

Wheeeee! Fireflies (: Oh, I did the whole dance spasm thing LOL. I did it ALL NIGHT LONG TODAY XD Okay, more shopping tomorrow XD With HM :D

& I'd like to make myself believe; that planet earth turns slowly (:

{ fin }

Hello world, Marianne's a happy girl. Why you might ask.

Because.

HAHA, EXAMS ARE OVER TOMORROW! XD In a few hours, marianne shall be let loose.

Anyways, that's not the only reason. I've had a pretty hectic day. Surely everyone would think I'd be burying myself in books at home today but nope. LOL. I didnt get the chance to even if I wanted to! I got a call this morning from recruit express. They have a job for next week. Data entry $6 per hour. Sounds good to me (: HAHA, yes, I know people my age wanna work at bars and clubs but nahhh. I'd prefer office hours sitting in front of a desk and getting paid to play with the computer. HAHA. But yeah, so I went down to Orchard and met up with the agent only to find that I haven't got the job yet ): It was just an interview and my resume was already sent to the company. So I just went down to orchard to fill in like 6 blanks? LOL. Then I went off and was on the mrt approaching Somerset when the agent called me and told me I got the job so whoopee I had to go back and sign contract. LOL.

So eventful. By the time I got home it was like what 5pm? Studied then HERE I AM! hahaha. Oh wait. I fell asleep while studying LOL.

I went to Singapore Poly for lunch today. With my parents. Met EDDY WONG MUN FEI! XD Wanted to visit Mr Vampire Andrew but didnt in the end cos it was raining so horribly ):

OH! I met Yanie (from Maybank) on the mrt. LOL. She still looks so young and pretty and she remembers me! XD Well, it was surprising because its like a repeat of Maybank just not as happening. HAHA. But yeah, it was like a progression. I had the new in my hands and I was talking to someone from the old. How cool is that huh?! HAHA.

Yes, so Marianne is going to make $240 next week.

I'm also excited because tomorrow I'll be a-hanging with Big bro Isaac, Dot, Sharon and Andrew! And twin I think (: WHOOPEEE. Saturday is shopping with HM and then wednesday is what I'm kinda interested in seeing how things turn out because its 4E3 gathering and only 6 people confirmed that they're coming! XD Damn funny but wth luh. Whoever comes, comes. :D

So, Facebook be prepared to be spammed with Marianne's face very very soon (:

Anyways, here's a band that's really good cos I saw them on MTV and I dont really pick out stuff from mtv most of the time but they're really good and I was left wanting more so I ended up youtubing and then getting the album (: WHOOHOO. They're really good! They are OWL CITY (: Check out the dancing in the vid XD

& if my heart was a house; you'd be home (:

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Okay, I completely teared after watching Edward Scissorhands! Its such a beautiful show. Shows how superficial human relationships can be and how complex it can be as well. Spectrums ya'll. Love it. I'd marry Johnny Depp anytime :D

Anyways, tomorrow's exams and Derek's birthday lol. Wish me luck!

I had a dream last night. of Ice again. Weird huh how people pop into my dreams at weird timings. No, it didnt really make me feel anything. It was just kind of a weird timing. Ice popped into my dreams in a velvety royal purple silky kind of long sleeve buttoned top. I forgot what was going on but yeah. LOL. Damn funny.

Anyways! I realise today that I'm not a very expressive person in terms of emotions. I dont cry easily but music is something that makes me cry like shit so yeah. Music's the one and only thing that's been able to really move me to tears. HAHA! How interesting. Love it though. Who'd have thought music would be such a huge part of my life now.

4E3 gathering is in the process of failing I feel. But everyone's just so bloody draggy about the whole thing I decided to just go ahead with it. XD Who cares, I'm free. If only 2 people turn up then let it be!

I cant wait for friday (: Oh, and its nice to know that people are thinking of you at random times of the day. Haha!

Exams, tomorrow. Marianne does not like exams because the stress gives her pimples. I have 3 ugly pimples that must go away by thursday! :D

3 pimples and a cat (: Twinkle Boy, my everyday boyfriend.

& where there is balance in the universe

{ fin }

I feel like life's back in balance now. After the many long and emo posts XD

Have to thank nehneh! and siewyi love for being there (: HANG IN THERE! BOTH OF YOU :D

Was talking to nehneh about my previous post and I said something I personally liked alot. LOL. I said "There's only so much a giver can give and when the taker doesn't even want to take, its even more pointless to give." So takers & givers. Givers, remember to give because that's what we're made to do. Takers, remember to take because that's what you all are made to do.

Talked to Siewyi about my previous previous post. About not being able to love again. I believe I've found out what it is. I dont have an empty heart, no. Its not empty, it's just not full or ready to be filled just as yet.

Anyway, I've sorted out my thoughts about someone. I dont think its because I cant love again but more of like I dont want a relationship screwing up my mental bliss at the moment and my whole get-my-life-back-together stunt. So, no falling for anyone :D We can hang as friends.

I know this are kind of serious emotiona to feel just before exams but I think its helped me focus rather than dwelling on the unknown. I know who has been there for me and who's tried to make it harder for me. Plus point, EDWARD SCISSORHANDS IS IN MY POSSESSION (: So after exams, there's gonna be some movie marathoning. :D

Oh, and friday is going to be AWESOME :D

So yes, I feel like life's back in balance.

I'm gonna give myself more time.
Time to put me first in my life.
Time to love myself a little more.
Time to let my old wounds heal completely.
Time to start giving myself more credit.
Time to give myself a little bit more praise and applause.

Because I think everyone needs to learn it at some point. Learn how to for once, not put others as more important than themselves. For a while, let the world revolve around Marianne. At least, let Marianne's world revolve around Marianne (:

& I'm unbreakable (:

{ fin }

I wonder why I bothered. I guess it wouldn't hurt that much if I didn't already fight so hard and put so much into it.

But I'm done. For good this time.

I'm not gonna waste another minute trying to make myself so tied up about someone who doesn't give a shit about me. You know the whole insignificance thing? I felt it for one second. But no, I wont try anymore. I've tried too hard and you've never once tried to meet me halfway so no. It ends here because you never noticed how it hurt me. You never bothered trying. You never bothered. Never once have you even tried accepting me as the person I am. So here's what it is. I'm done.

I'm sick of cleaning up your dirt. Sick of clearing you shit after you. Tired of being the one to suffer under your wrath. Tired of apologising for your mistakes. Sick at myself to even believe for one second I should change cos you asked me to. Seriously, f off.

I kind of regret meeting you. As in, I regret making you the first person in my life for so long. I regret even making you a part of my life cos all you bring is misery. I regret holding on for so long when it was right in front of my face. No, I wont be fooled any longer.

& take your bloody mind games and shooooo away (:

{ fin }

It dawned on me today. I seriously cannot comprehend how one person can love another person that much anymore. I mean I used to be able to understand it fully but now, not anymore. I dont believe in love anymore.

I'm not saying I blame the person who took that faith in love from me but who else can I blame?

I mean after that one person, I never felt ecstatic about any other person. Not as much. I've never felt that surge of happiness. That feeling of wanting to see the person everyday, wanting to talk to the person everyday, wanting to feel that person everyday. I no longer feel all that after feeling it with that one person. I believe in love among friends. I swear I do. But passionate love between 2 beings? Not anymore. Somehow. I've lost it. The only thing that defined me as a proper person. Its gone.

I dont think many people know what I'm talking about. Its not happened to many I guess. I used to believe in so so much. I believed in love at first sight, I believed that one person can love another whole heartedly without boundaries. I believed in the romance.

Then I experienced something so strong I just cannot shake it off.

I felt so much. I felt electrified at each touch. I felt ecstatic spending every single minute with this person even when I was treated badly, I didnt care because I believed it was worth it. I felt a surge of happiness at the sound of that one particular voice. I felt my heart race so fast I thought I was going to die. I felt my heart beating strongly and furiously in my chest at the sight of one particular person. I felt so much that can hardly be described in words. Euphoric bliss would be an understatement.

Then this person left, and I never felt it again.

Never felt my heart beat strongly in my chest at the sight of someone. Never felt a surge of happiness at the sound of any voice. Never felt ecstatic spending time with anyone anymore. Never felt electrified at the touch of anyone. Not anymore. It was like I felt all that and when it was taken from me I could never feel again.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm still human. If I can still feel any positive feelings. If I can ever get pass this barrier.

I thought I felt something recently but it seems I've psyched myself out of it already and I've labelled him as FRIEND. And I honestly was so close to feeling all that but now, I dont even want to feel that anymore. Can anyone ever move me anymore? Can anyone say anything more to lift this dullness I'm feeling? Can anyone ever make my heart race that fast again? I really dont know. I tell others that love still happens, that they should fight for love. Yet here I am, giving up the opportunity.

I didn't know I had lost such a big part of myself by losing one relationship. Someone, anyone, move my heart.

Pixie Lott - Without you
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to say
Anymore cus its all been said before
And I don't know where you are
All I know is your far
And your not coming back
If this is how it goes
I tried but I dont know

I don't know if I like it
Without you, without you, without you,
Tell me how im supposed to make it
Without you, without you, without you
You got me crying tonight
Is this what its gonna be like
I try and act like im fine but I will never be right
Without you, without you, without you
Without you I don't know

Im not sure how to feel
Im not sure what is real
Anymore cus I never felt like this
Sometimes it hurts me so bad
Its the worst kind of sad
And I cant live like that
I don't wanna be alone
I tried but I don't know

I don't know if I like it
Without you, without you, without you,
Tell me how im supposed to make it
Witout you, without you, without you
You got me crying tonight
Is this what its gonna be like
I try and act like im fine but I will never be right
Without you, without you, without you
Without you I don't know

The one thing I do know
That I'm so sure of
Cus with you gone I'm lost
And I'm so confused I cant deal with it no more
Without you I cant see it, take this pain from me
So I can make room for you,
Cus you've been gone from me for too long
I don't know

I don't know if I like it
Without you, without you, without you,
Tell me how im supposed to make it
Witout you, without you, without you
You got me crying tonight
Is this what its gonna be like
I try and act like im fine but I will never be right
Without you, without you, without you
Without you I dont know

Without you I can't be without you.

& I dont know what to say; cos its all been said before.

{ fin }

Okay, seriously Marianne the nerd girl is back. Who studies THREE freaking chapters in a day?! XD Whatever happened to a chapter a day huh.

Anyway, I studied Jung today and completely fell in love again. Jung's like such a philosophical dude. I would have married him and we can analyse each other (: I bet he's a introvert! Or he's self-realised. WHOOO!

Anyways, for people who dont really know how to let out their studying frustrations and stress, one SPECIFIC COPING METHOD is to make noise. Example: CONVERSATION BETWEEN NEHNEH AND MEHMEH IN DA MIDDLE OF DA NIGHT.

GAH
NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNONWONWONWONWONWOWNOW
KA BOM
LOL
CHEEEKA BOOM
WALLA WALLA BING BANG
BOOM.
BOOM CHEEKA BOOM
BOOM CHEEKA LAKA CHEEKA LAKA CHEEKA BOOM
YES
I'M FASTER
BOOM CHEEKA WALLA CHEEKA WALLA CHEEKA BOOM
LOL
lol
okay SLEEP!
LOL
BANGBANBANG
I'M GONNA BLOG ABOUT THIS CONVO TMR
WATCH OUT./
HAHAHAHAA
WEAOOWWWW WEAOOOOOWWWW
BIANGBIANG
ZAIJIANZAIJIAN!
PEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW
BAABOOM
JEEEEEEDOING
LOL
PREEEEENG PRRRAAAAAANG PROOOOONNNGGG
TIU TIU TIU TIU
BOOOOOOFFF
BZZZZZT
BIONG BIONG PPPPFFFTTT
CHEEETOINK
peeeeeeeeeeeeeeKA
EH PFFFFFFFFT IS NICE
CHUUUUUUUUUUWWWWW
ARHHHHHCHEWWWWWW
AHEMAHEM
ROAR
OOOOOOOOOCHHHHEWWWWWW
LOL
MEOW
WOOF
WOOF WOOF
QUACK QUACK
POKPOK KEHHHH
COCK COCK
KAY!
HAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHA
CHIRP CHIRP
TWEET TWEET
BIRD BIRD
pokpok
TWEETY BIRD
PORKY PIG
LOL.
nehneh!
oink
NEHNEHPOK!
POK
NEHNEHPOKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzZz
NEHNEHPORKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ (:
EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
DUSBIN
DUSTBIN
RUBBISH BIN
THE GROUCH
rubbish chute
grinch
HAHAHAH RUBBISH DUMP
DUMO
DOMO!
rubbish mountain
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
PILE OF RUBBISH
/ahh
/HJ (picture domo with flailing hands XD)
its HJ
LOL
YESAH
omg.
bang bang bang POK
GO AND SLP

LOL. And so you see, this is what studying does to people's brains. TSK, basically after studying, people have NO MORE BRAINS. ):

Oh, I found a really nice african group called Freshly Ground. Now I understand why Nelson Mandela said that African music uplifts even as it tells a sad tale. Its a sad song but still so upbeat, while still preserving a sad feel to it. Dont know how they do it but AWESOME!

Anyway, another conversation cos my conversations last night were HILARIOUS.
CONVERSATION BETWEEN ANDREW DICOM AND MARIANNE CHAN

Eh ask u
OKAY ASK AWAY
Is anneliese a nice name?? :P
mmm, YES! very unique and sounds like avery graceful person!
Good :P then that shall be the official name of my gf :D
Mwahahahahahaaaaa
HAHAHAHAHA! WHAT!
so you're gonna like find a girl witht hat name?!
or are you gonna name your gf that
LOL
Yesss she's withh me right now
I'll name my gf anneliese

Turns out his gf is his iPHONE XD How to not laugh? ): There's more actually but yeah. I'm LAZY :D

SO TO ALL MY DEAREST 2B01 PEEPS WHO ARE READING THIS, WHY ARE YOU NOT STUDYING?!
OKAY, NO. STUDY HARD! LET'S FINISH THIS LAST LAP THEN WE GO CRAAAAAAAAAAAAZY :D

Okay, enough words. Time for MUSIC.

Pixie Lott. She makes me wanna paint my nails some bright cute colour, dont ask me why. She's got a good voice, plus she's hot. So, why not right? (:

Oh, I took pictures of my Personality Notes XD

Theorists Marianne must know if she wants to pass her exams.

Mr Pervy Freud

Mr Optimistic Adler

Mr Marianne's husband Jung

& I try and act like I'm fine but I will never be right.

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Had a funny conversation with Isaac over sms. So today's title of the entry is dedicated to Isaac who warned me of someone who might be trying to woo me. LOL. Sorry no space.

Anyway, like I said. I want tall, dark, big eyes, dimples, nice personality, can sing and most importantly, HUMOROUS. Whoo, someone pops in my mind but yea. NAHHH.

I think studying has fried my brain. Seriously. I have a sore throat and I'm high on nothing. I swear I'm not even listening to Jason or Eric.

I want shoes.

You know the thing where you think you like someone then realise you dont and then go on to see the many flaws and then you go "THANK GOD I DIDNT GET WITH HIM/HER". Yeah, I'm having one of those moments because now I see how shallow you are, now I see how superficial you are and now I see how different you and I are. How you dont bother to put in any effort at all. I thought you're a giver too but guess what? You're a taker too. So goodbye taker. No more giving to you.

As for everything else, I feel like doing art and craft. Making something. And I feel like working. And I want my shoes.

Oh did I mention studying fried my brain? Do you see how random this post is? Anyway, I played alot of guitar today ): Which means I didnt study much but I did a recap on personality. So yes, not too bad I guess. Still on track. Now Carl Gustav Jung is staring at me. HAHA. HELLO SEXY.

I'm tired and all my talking buddies aren't online ): Like like ANDREW and and ADAM and and WAAAAN. Oh I slept really late again last night. Couldnt sleep so I just tossed and turned. Now I have a sore throat. Did I mention I wrote a song last night? Well, I did. Its about love. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! I gave it a go. Since all the other songs were sad and like love-less. RAH.

I am ranting. I want shoes. I want flare skirts. I want black stockings. I want dresses. I want shorts. I want long hair. I want acoustic guitar. I want Jason. I want Edward Scissorhands. I want shoes.

& dont upset the rhythm; no.

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Last night I was kinda freaking out because I was in a weird situation.

Remember the dude called James Tan Yong Hui who I gave up talking to? Well, we were conversing like normal human beings once more on facebook LOL. I think its something about seeing each other face to face. We can NEVER talk to each other face to face somehow.

Anyway, in between the talking to James I wished Ice happy birthday and we kinda sms-ed a little after like 123456789876543210 years of not speaking XD

Yes so speaking to these 2 people at one go was CRAZY please. It just felt weird cos both were people who I didnt really talk much to.

Oh, I predicted I'd be awake till 3am waiting for my phone to vibrate when it wont and I was kinda right. I wasn;t expecting a reply anyway so I was surprised.

So today's been a day FILLED with books, studying, notes. HAHA, I'm kinda happy with myself. I better do well this time since I'm sacrificing a HUGE load of my internet time XD Yes, study study study (:

Oooh, so public enemies kinda rekindled my tiny love for Johnny Depp. I think he's really charming (not handsome) and a really good actor. So I'm actually getting Edward Scissorhands and Finding Neverland :D YAY. Entertainment for holidays. Oh, and talking of holidays, I'm probably gonna work at my mom's office or some doctor's place. But I think my mom's office is better if they have space. Better pay :D

I STILL WANT MY SHOES. ANYONE WANNA BUY FOR ME? $35 LOL.

NICE RIGHT? OMG. http://strayedsprees.livejournal.com/720.html GO BUY FOR ME.

Anyways, I'm glad I went for the whole exam mass the other time (: I made new friends and there's this one person who makes me laugh all the time! And I tell you, we click like INSTANTLY lol. His name's Andrew XD He is hilarious please. Food people! He's like the next Khairul Hakim LOL. Oh wait. ANOTHER Khairul Hakim HAHA! Eh, talking about Khairul Hakim. TSK, I miss that dude ): Meet up for jamming sooooon yo!

Bushwalla - Psycho Killer
I can’t seem to face up to the facts.
I’m tense and nervous and I... can’t relax.
I can’t sleep, cause my bed’s on fire.
Don’t touch me I’m a real live wire.

Psycho Killer
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run run away
OH OH OH

Psycho Killer
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run run away
OH OH OH
AY AY AY AY AY WOO

You start a conversation you can't even finish it.
You're talking a lot, but you're not saying anything.
When I have nothing to say, my lips are sealed.
Say something once, why say it again?

Psycho Killer,
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run away
OH OH OH

Psycho Killer
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run away
OH OH OH OH
AY AY AY AY

Ce que j'ai fait, ce soir-là [What I did that night]
Ce qu'elle a dit, ce soir-là [What she said that night]
Réalisant mon espoir [Making my hope come true]
Je me lance vers la gloire ... okay [I hurl myself toward glory]
YA YA YA YA YA YA YA YA YA YA YA
We are vain and we are blind
I hate people when they're not polite

Psycho Killer,
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run away
OH OH OH

Psycho Killer,
Qu'est-ce que c'est? [What is it?]
fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa better
Run run run run run run run away
OH OH OH OH
AY AY AY AY OOOH

Hey hey hey ha

Damn hilarious song. Originally by Talking Heads. OMG, its HILARIOUS.

& does a kaleidoscope make a sound? Sure, in my heart. (:

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Monday, tell me if I should or not. I cant believe I'm still stuck here but yeah. Anyways, move it. I'm not saying I'm stuck for good but it still gets to me each time. You forgot; completely.

& seriously; this song is growing on me.

{ fin }

Today's the last day of school. So few people in class ): But ah well. Expected!

Anyways, Mr Tan's class made me feel a little sad. It just feels like our time together is shortened by so much already. I've really grown to love the darn class ):

Ah well. Oh, and I keep hoping to see the SP people around in school (NP)! What's wrong with me! HAHA, like HELLO THEY'RE CALLED SP PEOPLE FOR A REASON!

Okay, more photos!

Sexy much? (:

Sarali! My go home buddy!

Cam whoring in the toilet -.-

LOL. me and Nisha :D

Oh, Marianne has studied 3 chapters of PERSID and 1 chapter of HEALTHPSYCH. She will NOT be online before 10pm from tomorrow onwards. MUGGING FTW! I need it anyway.

Oh yes, I saw SOMEONE today! :D But too bad I aint got the balls to talk to SOMEONE. TSK.

& how can I stand here with you; and not be moved by you?

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So I decide, take a break. And talk about the AWESOMENESS i felt yesterday (:

Yesterday started off not so good. I was unsure of whether or not I should go meet Isaac for the movie thing because it was so early and I was so tired. So I dragged myself out of bed, to the toilet then out of the house onto the train. Met Isaac and went off to buy tickets. We were too late to watch G. I. Joe but we ended up watching public enemy. JOHNNY DEPP HELLO! Cannot go wrong (: He's considered one of the sexiest men alive I believe. To me anyways. 2nd to Jason XD Okay, so we watched then bussed to Singapore poly where I met the first new person ANDREW DIMCOM. Lol. Anyway so he's this really funny guy who gave me and dot a fan he bought from KL I think. Funny. Then we went to their club house where I meet MORE new people. Ranson, Daryl, Janessa (?) Nicholas and Pat (I think that's her name). So we discuss and I'm in charge of FOOD yay! Together with Andrew and Janessa :D

Then as the day went on more people came like Mark who freaked me out at first cos I was being nice and I said "Hi, what's your name?" and he took one step back and gave me some look ): HHAHA, but we're cool now. Ass. Anyway, Dot and Sharon came and another Nicholas aka guitar boy. IT WAS CRAAAAZY KICK ASS SHIT I TELL YOU. So many people! Oh, then I was sent to fetch people from the mrt. So I went to fetch people and so we had this whole group of us and we went back for EXAM MASS (: It already started so we were kinda late but oh wells.

DOT CAN SING MAN! HAHAHA TOGETHER WITH GUITAR BOY PLAYING THE GUITAR XD

Anyway, after mass we had snacks and photo taking, number exchanging time. It was damn fun I mean, meeting new people always always makes me happy :D So yes, many new friends!

Oh we then went for dinner cos this lecturer told us "Let's go to the staff lounge to eat. I have card so have 30%." So we're like okay okay anyway Father Alex eating also. But you know what! SHE LEFT BEFORE US. So we didnt get 30% off, the food wasn't great and there was 10% gst charge. WTF. ahahah, but nevermind luh.

Mrt-ed home with Sharon, Dot, Twin, Gabe, Mark and Annabelle. We were damn noisy we're sorry. My voice is just LOUD cannot help it. Together with Dot's HAHAHAHAHHA.

Reached home and was tired as hell but I had to go online because I was still so hyped up. So went online and was talking to like 7 people at one go XD All damn high (: HAHA, and went to sleep at 1am. Sweet.

PHOTO TIME! (:

Bruno's ass (:

The SP peeps.

The NP peeps.

Me, Isaac, Matt and Viv :D Close to family!

SHARON!

THE FOOD PEOPLE! MARIANNE & ANDREW (:

CYA! :D Awesome people!

Pic of the Week :D

Oh and mark has photos too. He was like paparrazi. So yeah (: MORE PICS! We also realised the difference between SP and NP people. SP people are serious while NP people are HIGH ALL THE TIME. So together we're like DA BOMB. (:

& love like this.

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I think I'm pretty lucky I always get the best classes (:

In JJC I had 07S28 who were brilliant and in poly I have 2B01, a completely dysfunctional class but still so very fantastic.

I felt proud of our whole class today. We did ourselves proud by seeing what we can achieve if we really want to. As a class. So heart warming. Anyway, I had alot of nicer words but I'm kinda sleepy at the moment. HAHA. Yes, sleepy because we went to school really early to practice. I was shaking like shit because I screwed up the only practice I had. However, huge thanks to Caryn who gave a bit of feedback and Lanze who was smiling at me while I spoke in the final presentation, I thought I did really well compared to the practice one that 04 actually saw. TSK.

Anyway, I'm going to spam this space today with JASON MRAZ. I have concluded that there's a reason why he's number ONE and Eric's number TWO. I watched both of them on youtube today. But there was only ONE where I watched and laughed out loud and felt this outburst of awesomeness and pride for the singer. That person is JASON (DUH.) No doubt, Eric is funny when he disses his audiences. However, he reuses his jokes and I guess that's one small flaw of his. Jason's fresh. He makes an old joke fresh. He is fresh. So here's a few reasons why I love Jason. Watch and understand.

& how to not love? You tell me.

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HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!

Anyways, I was digging around for a certain necklace since I remembered I had it with me still but couldn't find it. BUT I found evidence that I got uglier over the years. HOW SAD, I KNOW.

Okay, this point on is seriously something you'll see only ONCE in a lifetime. Marianne Chan's processive ugliness.

7th August 1990 I was CUTE. Then I learnt to walk; even cuter.I learnt to perform (:2 years old :D 3 years old :D 4 years old (:5 yrs old with my first ever best friend/love interest XD 6 Years old; kinda got uglier already ): WARNING: UGLY PROCESS STARTS NOW!
Secondary ONE.Secondary 2 Secondary 3 (OMG, DAMN UGLY.)
Secondary four (Okay, I think its a bell curve now.
Right about...NOW.

And there you have it. The ugly process of AGING. Literally ugly.

Anyways, so I thank all for the pressies and stuff :D

Best present would have to go to my dad though. Who bought me this new stereo thingy! :D HAHA, now I can listen to eric and jason while I sleeeeep (:

Big thanks to daddy. Got a cupcake from twin today (: The note reads "Justin Chan's cupcake! please do not eat!" HAHA. Meeting Marcus for lunch tomorrow morning and probably EC at night. And then WEDNESDAY!!!! With matt, dot and big bro isaac :D

SEE THE MOON AND THE STARS; SEE HOW FAR WE'VE COME. WHATEVER ELECTRICO; SERIOUSLY. HAHA, I'm tired of it already.

& she invites me over; outside villanova (:

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WARNING: LONG POST BECAUSE THE BIRTHDAY GIRL FEELS NAGGY (:

Let's start with last night. Meeting my dearest Seiwyi is always pure bliss. We spent like 2.5hours in Timbre waiting for the live band and ended up leaving before they started singing XD But at least we still got to hear them. PS, I love that girl to bits. She makes me happy like craaaazy and spending time with her is so so comfortable (:

EPIC! (:

My dearest Siewyi's pressie for me :D

Picture of the day!

Kilkenny & Charlie and the chocolate factory (:

Erm, no access.

Cookies from bro & pouch from Siewyi :D

Anyways, today was started with my favourite grandma fried rice! DELICIOUS PLEASE. Went to school and did what I had to do. And then went for class which was pretty amusing cos everyone seemed so restless today and it was so noisy Mr Tan almost flipped. LOL. Oh, then I was wished ONE BY ONE. LOL. "OH YEAH! MARIANNE! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" -.- Sweet though (: And then it was so so lovely of my class to actually buy small donuts for me! And they sang me the birthday song and gave me this kick ass shades :D AWESOME PLEASE. Thanks loads guys! Oh yes, not forgetting woman's nicely wrapped present! XD I truly felt LOVED. We then ate donuts and sang national day songs. WHAT DO YOU SEE? We decided the phrase "Our faces shining brightly in the sun" means we're all sweating and our faces are shiny with face oil.

Rachel's epic face!

Man , Meh, Neh.

Hj's face, Rach's hand. Nice photo!

Woman's chocolates (:

Awesome shades that I was forced to wear (:

Printed stats at last and then went off to the bus stop where I waited for HALF AN HOUR for bloody 61 to come. I was this close to taking a cab home. Came home and did nothing but binge on BA KWA and sent out an sms that was oh so important (:

Dined with my family at Fajar. CURRY FISH HEAD YOOO. Love it. We were walking at the pasar malam area and I saw this Astro Boy soft toy. LOL. So rare luh.

That's the end of my birthday then I guess :D

OH, one huge surprise I guess was Derek who actually wished me at like 12plus and said he's okay with things already. Feels good to know I guess so thanks (:

So this year's pretty surprising cos the people who usually were the first few to wish me ended up either not wishing or like the last few to wish. I think facebook is the sole contributor to the many wishes I got on facebook from random people, some of whom I dont even talk to! XD But yeah, sweet :D

So yes, I feel blessed and guess what? I'm officially labelling this as my BEST birthday so far (: Not because of the quantity of wishes but the quality of it. As cheesy as it sounds. HAHA. Really appreciate it! (:

& hearts, hugs and kisses to all because meh's a happy girl (:

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Drop it; cos I'm so done.

Anyways, CYA is the love. Its the only reason why I still believe in love. Love among friends of course.

I've found someone new. His name is Eric (: HAHA. OMG, like he's my bf. No, he's Eric Hutchinson who was recommended on Jason's blog. OMG like he's my best friend. No, Jason's my soul mate. But yeah. He's pretty awesome! :D

& and if you came here to tell me that you're sorry for the pain you couldn't cause; then save your breath and use it just to regain what you have lost and look at the cost.

I wont let it affect me; I will not be moved.

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I feel blessed.

Here's what I noticed during fun fair. I realised i am very well looked after. I had people who walked past my ticket counter and asked if I needed anything to eat or drink. Who offered to get me food and drinks. Who offered me water and drinks. I didnt need to get out of the seat at all. Everything was given to me, literally.

Anyway, today once again was happy (: School's making me pretty happy! I wanna complain though. I just moved my butt and I was accused of waking someone up. Like hello, so I cant move my ass just cos you're sleeping -.- LAZY ASS.

Oh, stayed back in that class till like 5.45pm? LOL. Just discussing stats. How amazing right? Yeah, and I'm like tired of bleeding hahah, I bleed like a waterfall its tiring. ): Thanks to HJ and JW though! (:

So yes, tomorrow should be awesome. Presenting on south africa's festivals! (:

"The curious beauty of South African music is that it uplifts even if it tells a sad tale."

- Nelson Mandela

Agua de Annique - Day after yesterday
Today is the day after yesterday
And yesterday didn't go so well
My love came down and assured me:
Sit down I have something to tell

When I met you my eyes hurt
That is how beautiful you are
I don't suppose I could feel this way
If I'd still have you by my side
By my side

I did not anticipate your candour
Even though I didn't know you too well

They say one door closed is another door open
But this door is leading me straight to hell

When I met you my eyes hurt
That is how beautiful you are
I don't suppose I could feel this way
If I'd still have you by my side
By my side

I'm just broken up
I'm caving in
That is how tired I am

I don't suppose I could feel this way

& that's how beautiful you are (:

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Okay, I'm high. Why am I high? BIG NEWS PEOPLE! I'm high on a guy!

He plays the double bass (like hello how sexy is that?) and he also plays the electric guitar! HAHA, I swear I was watching only him okay. As he played his different instruments. The way he was so into his music. The way he was so intensely enjoying playing his instrument. The way his body moved with the music. Made me think for a bit. Anyway, anyone know him? LOL.

Anyways, tomorrow's the day. The fun fair. Hope it'll be fun! But definitely gonna be damn exhausted after tomorrow. I want holidays!

So yes. I'm still thinking about the dude XD Guess what? He was still running around after the concert. HAHA, so I got MORE eyecandy. Come on someone, tell me you know him XD

& in a sea of people; there was only you (:

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