Well, today really tried me. I was looking for a reason to be happy at work. I took the first bus without PY and without you. You got to office looking good dunno why also. New shirt. Mmhmm. Nice. As always. Then you somehow manage to totally and I mean TOTALLY ignore me. So I decided yes, today is the day I'm gonna ignore you totally. And I did. Only until the time where we walked past each other and you give me that 'Oh man' smile of your's.
Anyways, I DIDNT KNOW GOOD FRIENDS DONT BOTHER TO SAY BYE BYE TO ONE ANOTHER! Idiot. Perhaps you were too wrapped up with playing around with the other girls that you forgot your ex. How thoughtful. I know I shouldn't be bothered anymore. But I am. Well, this week should go by fast anyway. I'm on half day tomorrow. I overheard you're on halfday on friday so yayness :] Then after that would be 2 more weeks of work for me before I go tanning like everyday! Yea man. hahahaha! Okay, joking. But time for me to relax.
Today I was tried alot of times because I was feeling super duper ultra drained in every single way. Physically tired, emotionally tired and mentally tired. Sucks. Then I realised my RI bonus, I missed out a whole year and had to do the WHOLE thing all over again. Shit lah. So I black faced. I really felt like a failure okay. REALLY.
Well, one thing good. I had my hp with me and all my songs :) WOOTS. I veeted. So I'm no longer porcupined. I dont poke anymore not that it matters cos you wont be anywhere that close to me.
Another thing to be proud of myself. Remember I told you I eat alot more when I'm sad or angry? Well, yea. You probably dont even recall such a conversation. Anyway, yea. I eat more when I'm sad and depressed. I binged! ALOT this whole week. And the last. I eat ALOT okay seriously. More than my brother. And he's in the army. MAN. BUT BUT BUT BUT you know what? I'm still 45kg! hahahha! WOOTS. I love my metabolism rate luh! It's like I can be a pig and no fats are churned out. Now I can binge without worrying.
SHOPPING TOMORROW! I CANT WAIT! Although it's with my mom but nevermind. I dont care. I'm dragging her to wherever I wanna go. LOL. Get 2 more skinnys, maybe another skirt and definitely a sweater. What's te right word for it? Starts with a C. I forgot the name for it. Shit. hahaha! I'm hungry. Right now. After eating 2 kit kat bars.
I emo-ed and poured out all my feelings for you to hui mui last night. LOL. So embarrassing. I was close to tears. Oh well. I JUST GOT INVITED TO S28'S CLASS OUTING! OMG I SO LOVE THEM SO NICE RIGHT. i'M NOT EVEN IN THE CLASS ANYMORE BUT THEY STILL INCLUDE ME IN EVERYTHING! I sooooooooooooooo love them and miss them like crazy!
First act I wake to find the hope, To see you simply staring back at me. But still there's only emptiness calling, To break the dream I once believed. Now I'm scared that this reality, Is much too heavy for me.
I'm too weak to be strong, I can't be the only one. Holding on till the day you find me.
So meet me at the end of the world, I'm waiting. Meet me at the end of the world, Please save me. This could be the place where we start, The rest of our lives. Meet me at the end, The end of the world. Meet me... at the end... of the world.
You found the place I hide within, Like you see right through my skin, And my heart To see I'm hoplessly wishing. You can forgive all my mistakes, Take them back and just erase all the, Wrong and let our future get brighter.
I'm too weak to be strong, I can't be the only one. Holding on till the day you find me.
So meet me at the end of the world, I'm waiting. Meet me at the end of the world, Please save me. This could be the place where we start, The rest of our lives. Meet me at the end, The end of the world. Meet me... at the end... of the world.
Till these shadows disappear, I still wait to find you here. Still I'm haunted from the moment I feared... Oh Never forget what it's like, To surrender in your eyes. Holding on till the day you find me.
So meet me at the end of the world, I'm waiting. Meet me at the end of the world, Please save me. This could be the place where we start, The rest of our lives.
Meet me at the end of the world, I'm waiting. Meet me at the end of the world, Please save me. This could be the place where we start, The rest of our lives. Meet me at the end, The end of the world. Meet me... at the end... of the world
Let me go will you? I think I'm the best actress on earth. I act so oblivious to what you're doing when I take notice of every step you make. Everyday is just another play to act out. Different scenes, same actors and same plot. Everyday I act like I'm fine and enjoying life after the break up but yet inside it hurts. You've been fine, I've been bleeding. And I keep having this scene where I see you with some other girl in the office. Is my brain going mad or what. I still have the feeling that you left me for another. But I refuse to believe you're such a lowdown person cos I told my twin you're the 5%. And I really believed.