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{ Dreamer }
Definition:

1. a person who dreams.

2. a person who lives in a world of fantasy; one who is impractical and unrealistic.

3. a person whose ideas or projects are considered audacious or highly speculative; visionary.
{ Marianne }

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
It was always you.

{ Past. }

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{ Tuesday, February 19, 2008 }

To that hl on the tag board. Shut the hell up cos you dont know a thing about me asshole. You're a coward. I dare you to put your real name up on the tagboard.

So it's a peaceful breakup. Really peaceful. You even called me this morning. Which scared the shit out of me. I didnt hurt last night. I really didnt. But I awoke this morning to a whole different scenario. I'd be lying if I said it doesnt hurt. because this morning sucks. I gonna get lunch and drink. And to think I thought it was okay and that it didnt hurt that bad. Well, I was wrong I guess. Cos right now the emptiness got emptier. There's memories of us everywhere. And that doesnt help. I'm lost. I really lost. Songs then. For music's the only thing I'm living on now.

Anna Nalick - You wont see me cry
The lights are on as a dawn breaks,
I haven't slept at all,
my watch stopped a week ago that's when I got the call.
He said ‘I'm sorry you've got to believe me'
He could have been the one.
The devils been knocking at my door he keeps me on the run.

I'm alright I'm alright don't worry I'll be fine.
I'm alright I'm alright; I do it all the time.
So you won't see me cry

I saw your face in a down town crowd.
I've seen you everywhere.
Sometimes in the strangest places.
I can't help stop and stare,
this might sound crazy,
but you're mind me of someone I did love.
Excuse me it's my mistake I think I've said enough.

I'm alright I'm alright don't worry I'll be fine.
I'm alright I'm alright, I do it all the time.
So you won't see me cry

I won't scream and I won't call you,
never know howfar I've fallen,
I won't loose my faith,
I know I still believe in something.
You won't see me pound the walls or curse the gods above.
Because I still believe in angels and I still believe in love.

And these times when shared mark some kind of ending.
The scarecrow in our backyard is laughing in the wind.
I'm stuck again trying to depend on lonely days gone by.

You won't see me
I'm alright I'm alright don't worry I'll be fine.
I'm alright I'm alright, I do it all the time.
So you won't see me cry.

Backstreet Boys - In Pieces
So I lay awake another hour
Just like the one before
The shadows play a game with my head
I can't take this anymore
I hear the sound Of my own breathing
It makes me miss you more

Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
When the damage has all been done
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me as I bleed
Just leave me here in pieces
In pieces

I can't take the chance
Of running into
You running into me So lock the door
And close the window
I just wanna see
Until the day
Inside my future
When I'll be on my feet

Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
When the damage has all been done
I don't wanna be somewhere
Where you can watch me as I bleed
Just leave me here in pieces

In pieces

If you want you can find me
On the dark side of the sun
Babe I don't wanna see what we've become
The damage has all been done

Wake me up when it's over
After the ending
Wake me up when it's over
When the damage has all been done
The damage is done I don't wanna be somewhere
I don't wanna be somewhere Where you can watch me as I bleed
Leave me here in pieces
Just leave me in pieces
Just leave me in pieces
Just wake me up when it's over (in pieces)
Just wake me up when it's over

A tired song keeps playing on a quiet radio. And I wont tell no one your name. Cos I want you and I feel you crawling underneath my skin. Like a hunger, like a burning. You can have what's left of me. And I close my eyes my only for a moment and the moment's gone. Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind. There's only so many tears that you can cry before it drains the light right from your eyes. We built it up to watch it fall like we meant nothing at all. I gave and gave the best of me but couldn't give you what you need. No matter how I try, I cant hate you anymore. You're not the person that you used to be. The one I want who wanted me. So I'm letting go of everything we were. Doesn't mean it doesnt hurt. Sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through your hands. I lie alone thinking how could this ever happen? Is it real? Am I dreaming? And when your heart's been burnt how can someone learn to get over their fears. You told me I should be strong, oh I'm trying. Feel I cant go on. You left me here on my own without a reason for living, chance of forgiving. A time to make it okay. You've been fine, I've been bleeding.

Anyways, thanks for loving me. And thanks for everything. It's great to know that we'll be great friends still :) I'll just have to learn to love you as a friend. And give me time to feel the emotions fully. To hurt to the max first. haha. But yea, it's amazing how life turns out. I'm happy. For you and for me. So, thanks loads. What a ride this has been :D


{ fin }