I was talking on the phone to SIEWYI (lol) about you and stuff and how I didnt reply your sms and everything. So I was really thinking that this is probably where we start losing contact. BUT once I'm off the phone with her I receive a message from you. Saying that you suddenly feel like talking to me. LOL. Guess it's good to know that while I'm thinking of you, you were thinking of me too (: At least it shows I actually made an impact on your life in one way or another. So I told you to give me a minute. I wasn't sure why. I could call you straight away but I told you to give me a minute XD
And I grabbed my house phone and erm...lay in bed, typed your number in and didnt press dial. LOL. Yea, I lay there in bed staring at your number then I decided to press dial. LOL. And OMG the freaking phone started to ring and you picked up. All I said was "Hey." and you knew cos that's how I answer phones. Hey. Then you asked the random-est question on earth. "Never go out today ah?" haha. Yea, random indeed. And I told you what I did the whole day. And you freaking asked me why I play netball. -.-''' Its the only sport I truly love. DUH.
Then you go on to say "You're hiding in your room right? Your parents dunno you're on the phone right?" LOL. Yup. You guessed it right. haha. Then you put me on hold cos you got a 2nd line, like you always do. Then you added your good friend in who kept asking me why I was stealing you from her. I just laughed. Like why would I be stealing from her when you just dumped me not long ago? So she says you've got 2 people you like in mind. True or not? I dont know. Let me guess JW is one of them? HAHA.
Then your friend puts down and we go on to talk about laptops, school and when I'm going back to Maybank. Which happens to be TODAY. And you say you're taking the day off today because you're going to buy your laptop. Which totally sucks because I wanted to see you but hey, whatever. We'll meet again some day. LOL. "Sad right?" "No." "Dissappointed?" "No." "I got nothing to say." HAHA. Yes, I act so well. We both know I still love you. But yea, you cant help but surprise me everytime. Can you be predictable for once? Make my life easier? Because right now I feel like I'm on a yoyo. Like you throw me away, sort of letting me free and then you just pull me right back in again. Make up your mind?
Yea, but it was nice talking to you on the phone illegally in the middle of the night again. Haha. Well, can you believe it. Such a long entry on one phonecall that probably lasted an hour only. XD
I and I am to blame, I sit here in shame. I threw you away again.
And I, I send you my best. I try to lay this to rest, When you were my everything.
Shades of Grey, And please fade away. And oh what if I sit in vain.
Hey, and I'll look away, Pretend I'm okay. I'm back on the road again.
And please, could it be true, That I still love you, And my loves unworthy.
Shades of Grey, And please fade away. And oh what if I sit in vain.
Are you listening to my words? And I saw your smile pass me by, And landed far from me. And what does that mean?
Shades of Grey, And please fade away. Oh what if I sit in vain.
I and I ran away, For I was afraid. Afraid you'd be everything.
Encompasses what I feel so well =/ What if I still love you but my love's unworthy?