Haha, I read your blog. I gave in. Somehow it seems like I'm blocking it out (: Which is GREAT for now. Because I'm refusing to drop into depression and refusing to allow you to affect any part of the progress I've made.
I'm stronger than I thought I'd be.
KS asked me out for a movie last night. Hmmmmm, and I agreed to go. Like I say, I'd rather be out there doing something rather than being at home. So yes, I'm watching step up 2 TONIGHT. At Lot 1. HAHA. KS is gonna buy the tickets and we're gonna watch. Should be fun.
I cannot wait for school to start. I really cant. Because I'd like to feel like I'm actually doing something useful again. Mmmhmm, I guess for the past 1 plus plus month I've been wasting away. Wallowing in self pity and stuff. I feel alive again and I was high last night I couldn't sleep for hours XD I like my life now. I've found the right person to put at the centre of my life and I think with him I wont go wrong. GOD helps (: HAHA. I love him cos he's always listening to my crap, always there to help me in times of need. So yes, I wanna go back to the days where the only place I'd wanna hang out is church. Church and netball!!
So yea, tonight should be awkward. LOL. I mean, its not like we know each other for the longest time. I've only met him twice. Okay, then we sms-ed like 100 times. And no, he starts the conversations not me. I just reply to his msgs. And he's the one who ends them too. But yes, without fail since he got my number I recieve a msg from him every morning saying goodmorning and asking if I'm awake already or not and then we continue until late at night when he suddenly doesnt reply. Interesting huh. Too bad. I'VE GOT NO SPACE!
I'm accepting it and learning to live with it. Eaither that or I'm just blocking everything out. Like I said. I'm numb. I really am. I dont feel anything. I only feel hungry. CONSTANTLY hungry. HAHA. I'm back to eating like a hell load of things. but yea, like I said. High on demand. Another straightforward approach. I tell him "You can try but I wont guarantee anything." HAHA. Already said I dont have space. Not now anyway.
So here you are now, nowhere to turn It’s just the same old yesterday You made a promise to yourself That you were never gonna be this way And the only thing that you’ve ever known is to run So you keep on drivin’ faster into the sun
But everybody needs somebody sometimes Yeah everybody needs somebody sometimes
You don’t have to find your own way out You’ve got a voice let it be heard Just when it feels you’re on a dead-end road There’s always somewhere left to turn So don’t give up now you’re so close to a brand new day Yes you are And if you just can’t bare to be alone then I’ll stay
‘Cause everybody needs somebody sometimes Yeah everybody needs somebody sometimes
Well maybe I’ve been too caught up To see what you’ve been goin’ through All that I can say is I’m here now
And everybody needs somebody sometimes You know they do Everybody needs somebody sometimes Everybody needs somebody sometimes Everybody needs somebody sometimes Everybody needs somebody sometimes
Just a song that gave me ALOT of encouragement when I listen to it (: Dont give up now, you're so close to a brand new day! (: How nice is that?! Everybody needs somebody sometimes.
All in all, we all need each other at one point of time or another. I love my friends (: Think I have the best-est friends in the world. To all friends, I love you!