OMG. PLAYED NETBALL AGAIN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MILLIONS OF YEARS! I wasn't properly attired. What with a sleeveless shirt and my skinnys plus slippers. Yet, netball seduced me and I couldn't resist. I slipped off my slippers and started running around on the court barefooted. Thus resulting in 3 freaking blisters on the sole of my feet. Pray I'll be able to walk tomorrow. LOL. The most take leave lah right. HAHA. No, I shall go to work and have fun with or without YOU. Hmph.
Seduction of netball. LOL. Playing netball against freaking tall guys are not fun. Especially guys with the height of Mr James Tan. Yes, netball with him is torturous. Happy birthday though. We had fun and went for dinner together (: All of us. Perhaps it brought back fond memories. But yea, he's not the one I'm stuck on anymore. Because throughout all I thought of was you. You always wanted to watch me play netball. You never had the chance to and now I bet you dont even care. Remember you once said to me "Baby, I want you to be mine forever. Will you?" And I told you the perfect answer. "I'll be your's for as long as you want me." False I guess. Since I'm still your's after you no longer want me.
Maybe it's true what they say. It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. At least I loved. And I lost. Perhaps what I'm doing is focusing too much on the loss and ignoring the love. But then again, it is the love that reminds me more of the lost. Oh wells. This sucks as always. I drank quite a bit today. One of the guys could tell that I can hold my liqour quite well huh. LOL. I drank a bacardi and joined the guys for some heinekin beer. I wouldn't have minded another glass but they finished it all =/ Pictures another day. I'm tired and my legs are killing me. 3 freaking blisters XD Perhaps things turned out pretty differently. I know. It just didnt feel right to leave without telling you how I feel so I'm writing notes for a few people to give to them on my last day of work, you included of course. Since you're the first temp staff I got to know now that SIEWYI'S no longer there =\ So, I'm leaving your note to be the last. Because right now, I cant find the right words to say. But I know what I want to say.
Simply just, "Please, don't leave."
If it's okay I'll leave the bed light on And place your water glass where it belongs And if alright I'll lie awake at night Pretending i'm curled up at your side
See i'm circling these patterns Living out of memories I'm still a long way from accepting it That there's just no you and me
But if i still believe you love me Maybe i'll survive So i tell myself you're coming home Like you've done a million times And if it's alright I'll still be loving you 'cause i can't break it to my heart
Is it just me Did i commit a crime I won't believe that loving you Is just a waste of time Or was it in my head I'm reading into things that you never said
'cause i still don't have the answers To why we couldn't work it out I wanna think it's something that i did So i can turn it back around
But if i still believe you love me Maybe i'll survive So i tell myself you're coming home Like you've done a million times And if it's alright I'll still be loving you 'cause i can't break it to my heart
And nothing will come between us I wanna convince myself we're perfect in Every single way as long as i can keep The truth away from my heart Oh 'cause i can't break it to my heart
'cause i still don't have all the answers To why we couldn't work it out I wanna think it's something that i did So i can turn it back around
But if i still believe you love me Maybe i'll survive So i tell myself you're coming home Like you've done a million times And if it's alright I'll still be loving you 'cause i can't break it to my heart
Give me time, perhaps I might just forget you one day.