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It was always you.
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{ Wednesday, April 30, 2008 }
I'm feeling extremely exhausted. I sleep everywhere. On the bus, in the car, in front of my lappy. EVERYWHERE.
Excel has taken the life out of me. Why? Because Ms Nellie has suceeded in sucking my blood using Excel homework. Well done.
Saw YanRu today (: She looks prettier now!! HAHA. Anyways, we went to SIM for lunch again today. The malay food was super shiok and damn spicy. Elton keep laughing at me when I gulped down the whole bottle of water. Stop bullying me you 17 year old!
Guess what? Out of no where pops out 2 new darlings for me. Fiona and JiaWen (: HAHA. Fiona says I have a cute face because of my teeth XD So cute right? OMG. They both broke my heart today ): MEND IT!
I changed my msn nickname to 'Meet me at the end of the world' in class today and everyone freaking bombarded me, asking me where the end of the world was. Well, go get the song. Blake Lewis - End of the World. It's about a one sided love sort of thing where the guy feels that there's no hope unless the world ends and they meet in some other world or something. And that's where he's gonna be waiting for her. How freaking sweet is that.
Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. SIMEI, HERE WE COME!! (: I cant wait for next guitar lesson. I'm tired of bee song.
Never forget what it's like to surrender in your eyes,
holding on till the day you find me.
Meet me at the end of the world,
I'm waiting.
Meet me at the end of the world,
please save me.
This could be the place where we start
the rest of our lives.
You'll always be a part of me. Baby, I'm exhausted. SUPER exhausted, so stop adding load.
Excel has taken the life out of me. Why? Because Ms Nellie has suceeded in sucking my blood using Excel homework. Well done.
Saw YanRu today (: She looks prettier now!! HAHA. Anyways, we went to SIM for lunch again today. The malay food was super shiok and damn spicy. Elton keep laughing at me when I gulped down the whole bottle of water. Stop bullying me you 17 year old!
Guess what? Out of no where pops out 2 new darlings for me. Fiona and JiaWen (: HAHA. Fiona says I have a cute face because of my teeth XD So cute right? OMG. They both broke my heart today ): MEND IT!
I changed my msn nickname to 'Meet me at the end of the world' in class today and everyone freaking bombarded me, asking me where the end of the world was. Well, go get the song. Blake Lewis - End of the World. It's about a one sided love sort of thing where the guy feels that there's no hope unless the world ends and they meet in some other world or something. And that's where he's gonna be waiting for her. How freaking sweet is that.
Tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. SIMEI, HERE WE COME!! (: I cant wait for next guitar lesson. I'm tired of bee song.
Never forget what it's like to surrender in your eyes,
holding on till the day you find me.
Meet me at the end of the world,
I'm waiting.
Meet me at the end of the world,
please save me.
This could be the place where we start
the rest of our lives.
You'll always be a part of me. Baby, I'm exhausted. SUPER exhausted, so stop adding load.
{ fin }
{ Tuesday, April 29, 2008 }
I've decided to take a break from Exceling. I've been excel-ing during lunch and I cant take it anymore XD Trust that everyone hates Excel now.
Anyways, school's been great really. I never fail to learn something new each and every day. My guitar lesson was pretty amazing! I went with Caryn and Xueqi and we got to know ALOT more people. AND AND AND, weisheng! Stop picking on me!!!! lol. We learnt to play some kiddy bee chinese song. WOAH. I can play!!! hahahah. Rocks man.I so love guitar-ing. KHAIRUL HAKIM, WE GO JAM ONE DAY!
Last night dinner was scary, after dinner was shocking. Dinner at Bukit Timah Market, the next table was not a nice table at all. Anyways, after dinner got back home by the time I got everything done it was almost 10 plus and then I logged on to msn. I was shocked. Really shocked. LOL. Honest, I believed we'd never talk again. HAHAHAH! But yea. Thanks (:
My dearest SIEWYI, we will survive!! Love you girl! I'm quite high now for no reason. Must be Excel messing with my brain. I've been interacting with Faith. She's cool! (: Nice nice girl.
Pikachu is completely missing from my life right now. Doesn't really matter. Thursday we gotta go down to SIMEI to help out. YAY! Get to meet real people. I'm looking forward man. So perhaps life will get better soon. It's about time I bury myself in books already. MUGGERS UNITE!
Oh yes, I felt so far from God these few months and I really felt so foreign to him on Sunday. I'm sorry Lord, I'll be back. PROMISE. I dont like feeling so far from him. He's my pillar of strength after all.
Oh yes, Joel said I asked Cindy a random question today. LOL. I asked her in the middle of Family Relations class "Have you ever wondered, if you died who would attend your funeral?" It wasn't random. It was a life and death thing we should all ponder about. (: And if it's not making sense, get the song Fragile by Sting.
If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
It's you. So what? It doesn't matter anymore.
Anyways, school's been great really. I never fail to learn something new each and every day. My guitar lesson was pretty amazing! I went with Caryn and Xueqi and we got to know ALOT more people. AND AND AND, weisheng! Stop picking on me!!!! lol. We learnt to play some kiddy bee chinese song. WOAH. I can play!!! hahahah. Rocks man.I so love guitar-ing. KHAIRUL HAKIM, WE GO JAM ONE DAY!
Last night dinner was scary, after dinner was shocking. Dinner at Bukit Timah Market, the next table was not a nice table at all. Anyways, after dinner got back home by the time I got everything done it was almost 10 plus and then I logged on to msn. I was shocked. Really shocked. LOL. Honest, I believed we'd never talk again. HAHAHAH! But yea. Thanks (:
My dearest SIEWYI, we will survive!! Love you girl! I'm quite high now for no reason. Must be Excel messing with my brain. I've been interacting with Faith. She's cool! (: Nice nice girl.
Pikachu is completely missing from my life right now. Doesn't really matter. Thursday we gotta go down to SIMEI to help out. YAY! Get to meet real people. I'm looking forward man. So perhaps life will get better soon. It's about time I bury myself in books already. MUGGERS UNITE!
Oh yes, I felt so far from God these few months and I really felt so foreign to him on Sunday. I'm sorry Lord, I'll be back. PROMISE. I dont like feeling so far from him. He's my pillar of strength after all.
Oh yes, Joel said I asked Cindy a random question today. LOL. I asked her in the middle of Family Relations class "Have you ever wondered, if you died who would attend your funeral?" It wasn't random. It was a life and death thing we should all ponder about. (: And if it's not making sense, get the song Fragile by Sting.
If blood will flow when fresh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are
It's you. So what? It doesn't matter anymore.
{ fin }
{ Monday, April 28, 2008 }
THANKS (: IT DID MEAN ALOT TO ME. GIVE ME TIME, I'LL GET OVER IT.
{ fin }
{ Sunday, April 27, 2008 }
I fear what tomorrow will bring, literally. I fear what every monday would bring from now on.
Last night was overly emotional with my dearest jupiterean. I cried darling, I did cry. The songs just broke me down.
Night time brings no solace. Day time's as dark as night. I tend to forget what deep thinkers we both are.
If only you could see the tears in
The world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
I cant believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Coz I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Time will never change the things
You told me
And after all were meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Everything we had, is no longer there. I saw your smile pass me by and landed far from me. What does that mean?
Last night was overly emotional with my dearest jupiterean. I cried darling, I did cry. The songs just broke me down.
Night time brings no solace. Day time's as dark as night. I tend to forget what deep thinkers we both are.
If only you could see the tears in
The world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come to realise
You're a loss I can't replace
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Walking down the streets of Nothingville
Where our love was young and free
I cant believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Coz I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Time will never change the things
You told me
And after all were meant to be
Love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see
Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you leave me
Soleded
Everything we had, is no longer there. I saw your smile pass me by and landed far from me. What does that mean?
{ fin }
{ Saturday, April 26, 2008 }
Why? Why did there have to be that link? She's a nice girl, really. It's just that knowing that she knows you brings back so much of the past. =/ "Oh, she's my colleague."
Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
I'm sorry, I apologise. I really never wanted to feel this way.
Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
no one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if for only one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?
I'm sorry, I apologise. I really never wanted to feel this way.
{ fin }
{ }
Jupiterean, be strong. I know you're hurting cos I am to but we have to be strong (: I love you loads girl!
Baby, I'm lost without you. I'm not gonna lie. How am I gonna be strong without you? Need you by my side.
Baby, I'm lost without you. I'm not gonna lie. How am I gonna be strong without you? Need you by my side.
{ fin }
{ Friday, April 25, 2008 }
I dont know much, but I know I love you. And that could be all that I need to know.
Hurting.
Hurting.
{ fin }
{ }
Another bad night.
The wheather was cold last night. Ice cold. When was the last time I felt that way inside?
I hugged a different photo to sleep this time. I slept at 4am because I couldn't sleep. I woke at 6am because I just woke up and couldn't sleep anymore.
Its weird. MTV makes me cry. Leona Lewis - Better In Time
I dont know much but I know I love you. And that could be all that I need to know.
The wheather was cold last night. Ice cold. When was the last time I felt that way inside?
I hugged a different photo to sleep this time. I slept at 4am because I couldn't sleep. I woke at 6am because I just woke up and couldn't sleep anymore.
Its weird. MTV makes me cry. Leona Lewis - Better In Time
I dont know much but I know I love you. And that could be all that I need to know.
{ fin }
{ }
You're keeping me awake again. How was I to know I'd miss you so? And I really do. I really do.
Why do we like to hurt so much? That's what you get when you let oyur heart win.
Why do we like to hurt so much? That's what you get when you let oyur heart win.
{ fin }
{ Thursday, April 24, 2008 }
I dont get it. I still feel you just beside me everywhere I go. I wasn't meant to love like this. Not without you.
{ fin }
{ }
No pikachu again. This is getting sad.
I am Mr Tan Yew Kong's rep for the semester. "CLAP!" He still is scary to me.
I need to stop binging. You have no idea how much money I spend on food alone.
Workload's getting heavier. Wait till it's in full swing.
I developed MORE photos. Ouch, there goes my heart again. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm sticking to the no reading rule. REALLY.
I'm tired and hungry. To sleep or to eat?
Quote of the day "I dont have problems with lesbians." NOT by me (:
Resist. Never will I. Never.
I am Mr Tan Yew Kong's rep for the semester. "CLAP!" He still is scary to me.
I need to stop binging. You have no idea how much money I spend on food alone.
Workload's getting heavier. Wait till it's in full swing.
I developed MORE photos. Ouch, there goes my heart again. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm sticking to the no reading rule. REALLY.
I'm tired and hungry. To sleep or to eat?
Quote of the day "I dont have problems with lesbians." NOT by me (:
Resist. Never will I. Never.
{ fin }
{ Wednesday, April 23, 2008 }
No pikachu today. SAD. Skipped roteract meeting. Too tired. Exhausted. So many emotions, nowhere to let it all out. Had fun today, hilarious video. SIM for lunch again. My group only. On the bus home I dreamt. Dreamt of happier times. I dont like it.
JUPITER-ean, I love you loads and and and I got idea for 14th May already XD
I think Ms Nellie Chew is so super duper funny!! Pikachu, where are you when I need you the most? LOL. Better meet me tomorrow or else I'll sink. I really wanna thank my dearest SIEWYI!!! Darling, I know what you mean (: It's just that I was getting fatigue! I've decided. I will stop reading it okay? It's better for me. I shall learn to slowly accept that what has once been is not anymore. LOL. Put the past where the past should be. In a tin in a corner of my room. We like to move it, move it!
This is my superb group (: Clockwise top: Me, Timothy, Elton, Azimi and Cindy! HAHA. Yes, that IS gum in Azimi's mouth. And yes, I dont know why I look so happy there. Guess I was having loads of fun working with them. Thanks guys! Our video rocks man! 'Awwww..Marianne is deaf and mute!!!' SO SAD LAH. HAHAHAHHA! TAMEC ROCK ON!
I dont wanna know anymore. I really dont. So I wont read, I really wont. It's time I be more focused (: I promise to visit church before going home tomorrow!
JUPITER-ean, I love you loads and and and I got idea for 14th May already XD
I think Ms Nellie Chew is so super duper funny!! Pikachu, where are you when I need you the most? LOL. Better meet me tomorrow or else I'll sink. I really wanna thank my dearest SIEWYI!!! Darling, I know what you mean (: It's just that I was getting fatigue! I've decided. I will stop reading it okay? It's better for me. I shall learn to slowly accept that what has once been is not anymore. LOL. Put the past where the past should be. In a tin in a corner of my room. We like to move it, move it!
This is my superb group (: Clockwise top: Me, Timothy, Elton, Azimi and Cindy! HAHA. Yes, that IS gum in Azimi's mouth. And yes, I dont know why I look so happy there. Guess I was having loads of fun working with them. Thanks guys! Our video rocks man! 'Awwww..Marianne is deaf and mute!!!' SO SAD LAH. HAHAHAHHA! TAMEC ROCK ON!I dont wanna know anymore. I really dont. So I wont read, I really wont. It's time I be more focused (: I promise to visit church before going home tomorrow!
{ fin }
{ Tuesday, April 22, 2008 }
Alright, this is probably gonna be one of my longer posts in a long while.
Today's been an alright day. Woke up SUPER early to go to school so was really tired. I spent $5.55 at Cheers on fishballs with weird smells, 2 maltesers and 1 heaven and earth gree tea. Went to class and had to do quite a bit.
We then had a 1 hour 20 minute break where Cindy and I joined the guys at the tables at blk 56. Timothy was playing Lego Starwars! HAHA. I was online chatting and we also drew our family trees! (: Anyways, the I msn-ed Elton which was totally retarded cos he was like less than 1m away from me XD Then the guys all started buying the sandwhich from the vending machine. WTH. lol. Then we went off to class with Ms Janice who is SUPER funny!!! Had quite a bit of fun and then, school ended!!
Cindy, me, Timothy, Jun Wei (-.-), Azimi and Wei Jie went off to SIM for lunch! (: And yayness, Wei jie and Azimi are true gentlemen! Help us order our food and everything. Thanks guys! AHAHAH. Then didnt know the guy we were standing beside was SHAWN LEE, my GL. haha. Yea, so we ate and then went home. How nice huh.
Pikachu is a stalker. My pikachu's everywhere. We were at SIM and pikachu was there too! Then we went off to the bus stop before Pikachu and friends and soon after Pikachu appeared at the bus stop. SMILING at me (: HAHAHA. I smiled back. I'm friendly :D It's the 3rd time (?) Pikachu is smiling at me. Mmmmmm. Pikachu has mesmerising smile XD Ash, you're smile. Stop smiling.
Past few days havent been great for me. I mean, the quarrel with my dad and stuff. The holding the photograph while sleeping. Dont know why. WHY DO WE LIKE TO HURT SO MUCH? THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LET YOUR HEART WIN, OHHHH~ hahahahah! Paramore still rocks! First song ever associated huh. (: Amazing. You listen to songs I used to listen.
SIEWYI, your name appears in the middle of nowhere of my past XD Okay, Pikachu (: Pikachu Is damn cute. SIEWYI, dont steal from me.
She left me hangin' by a thread again
I stood there waiting like a fool for her
I never dreamed that I'd be in this place
But here I am all alone
It's not the first time that she's walked away
Changed all our plans within the blink of an eye
And looking back it's always been the same
But I refused to see it all for what it was
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
I wonder if she ever thinks of me
And all the promises she swore to keep
Some nights I lay in bed just burning up
'Cause I know that she's out with someone else
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
I was the one who gave up everything for her
When no one would listen I heard every word, oh
It took me so long to see that maybe I am better off alone
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
God I know this can't go on
All I wanna do is just move on
God I know this can't go on forever
Yeah I know this won't go on forever
God I know this can't go on forever
It's just darkness I'm living in. I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky. I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry. But loving you I thought was greater than them all. Now there's a doorway to my heart without a key. You're the only place my heart has ever been.
Today's been an alright day. Woke up SUPER early to go to school so was really tired. I spent $5.55 at Cheers on fishballs with weird smells, 2 maltesers and 1 heaven and earth gree tea. Went to class and had to do quite a bit.
We then had a 1 hour 20 minute break where Cindy and I joined the guys at the tables at blk 56. Timothy was playing Lego Starwars! HAHA. I was online chatting and we also drew our family trees! (: Anyways, the I msn-ed Elton which was totally retarded cos he was like less than 1m away from me XD Then the guys all started buying the sandwhich from the vending machine. WTH. lol. Then we went off to class with Ms Janice who is SUPER funny!!! Had quite a bit of fun and then, school ended!!
Cindy, me, Timothy, Jun Wei (-.-), Azimi and Wei Jie went off to SIM for lunch! (: And yayness, Wei jie and Azimi are true gentlemen! Help us order our food and everything. Thanks guys! AHAHAH. Then didnt know the guy we were standing beside was SHAWN LEE, my GL. haha. Yea, so we ate and then went home. How nice huh.
Pikachu is a stalker. My pikachu's everywhere. We were at SIM and pikachu was there too! Then we went off to the bus stop before Pikachu and friends and soon after Pikachu appeared at the bus stop. SMILING at me (: HAHAHA. I smiled back. I'm friendly :D It's the 3rd time (?) Pikachu is smiling at me. Mmmmmm. Pikachu has mesmerising smile XD Ash, you're smile. Stop smiling.
Past few days havent been great for me. I mean, the quarrel with my dad and stuff. The holding the photograph while sleeping. Dont know why. WHY DO WE LIKE TO HURT SO MUCH? THAT'S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU LET YOUR HEART WIN, OHHHH~ hahahahah! Paramore still rocks! First song ever associated huh. (: Amazing. You listen to songs I used to listen.
SIEWYI, your name appears in the middle of nowhere of my past XD Okay, Pikachu (: Pikachu Is damn cute. SIEWYI, dont steal from me.
She left me hangin' by a thread again
I stood there waiting like a fool for her
I never dreamed that I'd be in this place
But here I am all alone
It's not the first time that she's walked away
Changed all our plans within the blink of an eye
And looking back it's always been the same
But I refused to see it all for what it was
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
I wonder if she ever thinks of me
And all the promises she swore to keep
Some nights I lay in bed just burning up
'Cause I know that she's out with someone else
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
I was the one who gave up everything for her
When no one would listen I heard every word, oh
It took me so long to see that maybe I am better off alone
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
Has anybody ever felt this way
Has anybody been ripped apart
Anybody give everything to the one they love
Am I the only one left behind
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
God I know this can't go on forever
God I know this can't go on
All I wanna do is just move on
God I know this can't go on forever
Yeah I know this won't go on forever
God I know this can't go on forever
It's just darkness I'm living in. I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky. I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry. But loving you I thought was greater than them all. Now there's a doorway to my heart without a key. You're the only place my heart has ever been.
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{ Monday, April 21, 2008 }
Last night, worst night. I quarreled with my dad. I dont know why. I was just so pissed off that I'm so stifled by everything.
I blasted my music, I wrote 4 pages of my notebook and went to sleep holding the photographs in my hands. I looked at it a million times before I drifted to sleep.
The pain, unbearable. The tears, unstoppable. The sleep, disturbed.
Ash, I wish you could take away the pain but I know too well you cant.
I blasted my music, I wrote 4 pages of my notebook and went to sleep holding the photographs in my hands. I looked at it a million times before I drifted to sleep.
The pain, unbearable. The tears, unstoppable. The sleep, disturbed.
Ash, I wish you could take away the pain but I know too well you cant.
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{ Sunday, April 20, 2008 }
There's no going back now. I'm not blaming anyone. It happens. I've accepted it long ago. It's fine.
If I should die before I wake, It’s cause you took my breath away. Losing you is like living in a world with no air.
Someone, you might be. I just need to know.
If I should die before I wake, It’s cause you took my breath away. Losing you is like living in a world with no air.
Someone, you might be. I just need to know.
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{ Saturday, April 19, 2008 }
Today, I woke up to the sms of my dearest SIEWYI at 6.25am!!! And I was like OMG because I'm late. So I rush rush rush and kind kind kind HM's father fetched us there! Thanks Uncle! (: Anyways, we reached and we went off to eat PRATA!! YUMMY okays. Cheese and mushroom prata. Super nice!!!! PLUS egg prata. My stomach was bursting after that.
THEN we proceeded to the toilet to *ahem* clear some stock and then we were comfortable and went off to see the RUGBY match!! WOOHOOO! I saw Ahtaf (Is that how the name is spelled?) hahahah! And we talked! HAven seen him in years. Okay, MONTHS. Then saw JJ RUGBY team. WOOTS. LOL. So we watched, we screamed. And Winston, who happens to be the only reason why I woke up soooooo early in the morning just to watch him play (LOL), got a laceration beside the eye and had to be sent in an ambulance to SGH!!! HAHAHA. Poor guy got 16 stitches! OUCH!
BUT guess what? WE WON!!!!!!! So after that print photos, uy clothes (!!!!) and then went home to my lovely home. And spent hours clearing my room till now. I'm super tired. And my brain wont stop working and my heart feels ________________________ dunno how to describe.
And in case you dont notice how retarded I look, here's one that explains all.
Losing you is like living in a world with no air. You seem happy, and that's great. I just miss you, that's all.
THEN we proceeded to the toilet to *ahem* clear some stock and then we were comfortable and went off to see the RUGBY match!! WOOHOOO! I saw Ahtaf (Is that how the name is spelled?) hahahah! And we talked! HAven seen him in years. Okay, MONTHS. Then saw JJ RUGBY team. WOOTS. LOL. So we watched, we screamed. And Winston, who happens to be the only reason why I woke up soooooo early in the morning just to watch him play (LOL), got a laceration beside the eye and had to be sent in an ambulance to SGH!!! HAHAHA. Poor guy got 16 stitches! OUCH!
BUT guess what? WE WON!!!!!!! So after that print photos, uy clothes (!!!!) and then went home to my lovely home. And spent hours clearing my room till now. I'm super tired. And my brain wont stop working and my heart feels ________________________ dunno how to describe.
And in case you dont notice how retarded I look, here's one that explains all.Losing you is like living in a world with no air. You seem happy, and that's great. I just miss you, that's all.
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{ Friday, April 18, 2008 }
LOL. Today was fun (:
Home's not a home anymore. I come home expecting warmth. All I get is coldness.
I bought my textbooks today. I like. They're thick and heavy and full of knowledge.
Home's not a home anymore. I come home expecting warmth. All I get is coldness.
I bought my textbooks today. I like. They're thick and heavy and full of knowledge.
pluto + jupiter = noisy library
Why isn't someone in the same class as me? I'm soooo sad. Didnt see someone at all today. ):
"HI MARIANNE CHAN MAH LI CHAN.marianne rocks!!!! Shes the hottest alien alive XDWHAT!? I SHALL MAKE HER THE HOTTEST ALIEN DEAD AHAHAHAHHAHSIEWYI DOES NOT EXIST I DO NOT MIX WITH LOWLY EARTHLINGS THY HONOUR. :p :p :p :p WE ARE GETTING FAR TOO RETARDED AND LIBRARY'S SO NOT THE PLACE FOR US OKAY. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHYEA MAN I SO AGREE MAN!!!! i KEEP CALLING YOU MAN XD WHY HUH? ARE YOU ALIEN MAN?YES I AM AN ALIEN WITH LIL BROTHER WOOOOOOOOOO *WHISTLE WHISTLE* STOP DROOLING YOU. WANNA SEEE HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.LOL. I DO NOT TAKE INTERESTED IN LITTLE BROTHERS. I PREFER SISTERS XDNO WONDER YOU TOUCHED-ED MY BOOBS HAHAHHA. RETARDED WOMAN. ARE YOU TIRED?! WHY YOU SO FIERCE. youre typing in caps hahahahha.who's the one who started using caps first hmmmmm?why are we typing? have we lost our alien language already hahahahhaha. my fingers not tired so i shall continue typing and you shall continue reading and we shall continue maintainier ng this retarded thing andhahahha youre gonna meet huimui all the best to you ah.better clean your ears dry got alot of things shes gonna tell youand im gonna laugh until my backside drop ahahahahhaa. shit, my eyes abit tired already ah. long day hahahhaa.okay, what am i doing? self contentment talking to myself. okay. bye myself. " What 2 aliens do when they're bored.
Do you expect me, To live alone with just me? 'Cause my world revolves around you, I'ts so hard for me to breathe.
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This shall be my only entry today.
I'm feeling better now (: HAHA. Had to vent out frustrations. OMG. Tomorrow I'll make more friends. AGAIN. lol. Not that I mind. Just that it's stressful.
Friday should be fun. Saturday too. Get to see my dearest jupiter-ean! FINE.
I LOVE YOU, SIEWYI!!
I want an 'I love you' back! LOL.
Let's hope I get to see SOMEONE tomorrow. OMG!! IS module! We might be in the same class! Fingers crossed (: YAYNESS. Good for my eyesight :D Woah, then I will really LOOOOOOVE fridays! XD Smile Smile Smile and hope for the best!
I'm a good girl, I've done my homework! Which happens to be blogging for my ITABS lecturer to read. Ms Nellie Chew. She's damn funny!
Off to lala land now. I'm learning anger management later on today. HAHA. How apt. If the world finds me too noisy, let me know. I'll shut up.
I'm feeling better now (: HAHA. Had to vent out frustrations. OMG. Tomorrow I'll make more friends. AGAIN. lol. Not that I mind. Just that it's stressful.
Friday should be fun. Saturday too. Get to see my dearest jupiter-ean! FINE.
I LOVE YOU, SIEWYI!!
I want an 'I love you' back! LOL.
Let's hope I get to see SOMEONE tomorrow. OMG!! IS module! We might be in the same class! Fingers crossed (: YAYNESS. Good for my eyesight :D Woah, then I will really LOOOOOOVE fridays! XD Smile Smile Smile and hope for the best!
I'm a good girl, I've done my homework! Which happens to be blogging for my ITABS lecturer to read. Ms Nellie Chew. She's damn funny!
Off to lala land now. I'm learning anger management later on today. HAHA. How apt. If the world finds me too noisy, let me know. I'll shut up.
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{ Thursday, April 17, 2008 }
Never thought I'd have to blog twice today. It was all a great day and everything until after dinner.
I dont know what's wrong. Why they have to kick up such a big fuss over nothing! Cant I live the way I way I want to? It's not like I rebel agaonst them I hang out with bad friends and I start smoking, tatooing and drinking and not coming home at all. Neither do I go out all day long with friends without their permission. In fact I hardly HARDLY ever go out anymore.
So why is it I cant have private time. Some time to myself. Why cant they just leave me alone. Let me do what I want. Let me learn from my mistakes once in a while. I cant always be sheltered. I cant always be under their control. I need some sort of freedom. Like WTH. Yesterday had telematch. So decided to just wear FBT to school and they ALL make noise about how I'm wearing so freaking casual to school. HELLO!! Almost every freaking person in poly is wearing tee shirts, shorts and slippers. What's wrong man.
I'm super pissed and not talking to my parents because I know if I talk to them I'd probably scream at them. I dont want any conflict with them. Not today. I'm tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Parents, please leave me alone.
You're freaking me out. You are. It feels super wrong. No lunch with you tmr! I refuse. I do not date younger guys.
Sunshine smile, where are you when I need you? I better see you in school tomorrow! I'd like to think you're causing my leaking nose.
I dont know what's wrong. Why they have to kick up such a big fuss over nothing! Cant I live the way I way I want to? It's not like I rebel agaonst them I hang out with bad friends and I start smoking, tatooing and drinking and not coming home at all. Neither do I go out all day long with friends without their permission. In fact I hardly HARDLY ever go out anymore.
So why is it I cant have private time. Some time to myself. Why cant they just leave me alone. Let me do what I want. Let me learn from my mistakes once in a while. I cant always be sheltered. I cant always be under their control. I need some sort of freedom. Like WTH. Yesterday had telematch. So decided to just wear FBT to school and they ALL make noise about how I'm wearing so freaking casual to school. HELLO!! Almost every freaking person in poly is wearing tee shirts, shorts and slippers. What's wrong man.
I'm super pissed and not talking to my parents because I know if I talk to them I'd probably scream at them. I dont want any conflict with them. Not today. I'm tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Parents, please leave me alone.
You're freaking me out. You are. It feels super wrong. No lunch with you tmr! I refuse. I do not date younger guys.
Sunshine smile, where are you when I need you? I better see you in school tomorrow! I'd like to think you're causing my leaking nose.
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NO SCHOOL TODAY! But still went back to school early in the morning just to load the softwares into my lappy. So finally I have Microsoft word, powerpoint and all that jazz. After that we went home (: OH yes, saw Nicole and Dorothy in school XD "MARIANNE!" I was like hmmmm? HAHA! 5 hour break huh! WOAH.
So went home then went off to Causeway Point for Jack's place. YUMMY! Eat already then shop around.
OH MAN, have I really started looking like one? I mean, I dont know. All the stares -.- HAHA. Interesting.
Tuesday huh. I dont know if it's a good idea because somehow it just feels weird. But I really made it clear but he still insists so whatever luh. It still doesnt feel right though. Hmph.
Didnt see someone today ): SADLY!! hahahah. I'm feeling weird again. LOL.
She's taking her time making up
the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smile
and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying, "Mamma never loved her much"
And, "Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
"But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
She's saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
She can't remember a time when she felt needed
If love was red then she was colourblind
All her friends they've been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined
She's saying, "Love is like a barren place,
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don't have a map for
"So baby's gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
(hold on... hold on...)
Mamma never loved her much
And Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
Just saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
She, may be the face I cant forget (:
So went home then went off to Causeway Point for Jack's place. YUMMY! Eat already then shop around.
OH MAN, have I really started looking like one? I mean, I dont know. All the stares -.- HAHA. Interesting.
Tuesday huh. I dont know if it's a good idea because somehow it just feels weird. But I really made it clear but he still insists so whatever luh. It still doesnt feel right though. Hmph.
Didnt see someone today ): SADLY!! hahahah. I'm feeling weird again. LOL.
She's taking her time making up
the reasons
To justify all the hurt inside
Guess she knows from the smile
and the look in their eyes
Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one
They're saying, "Mamma never loved her much"
And, "Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
"But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
She's saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
She can't remember a time when she felt needed
If love was red then she was colourblind
All her friends they've been tried for treason
And crimes that were never defined
She's saying, "Love is like a barren place,
And reaching out for human faith is
Is like a journey I just don't have a map for
"So baby's gonna take a dive and
Push the shift to overdrive
Send a signal that she's hanging
All her hopes on the stars
What a pleasant dream
Just saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
(hold on... hold on...)
Mamma never loved her much
And Daddy never keeps in touch
That's why she shies away from human affection
But somewhere in a private place
She packs her bags for outer space
And now she's waiting for the right kind of pilot to come
And she'll say to him
Just saying
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
I would fly to the moon & back if you'll be...
If you'll be my baby
Got a ticket for a world where we belong
So would you be my baby?
She, may be the face I cant forget (:
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{ Wednesday, April 16, 2008 }
HMS LE HO BO, LE ZAI BO, LE STEADY BO?! HAHAHAHAH! Soooooo proud of ourselves! We're the smallest group yet we come out so victorious! I'm amazed (:
Today has been a tiring day! But also satisfying. Winning wasn't everything. It was the spirit. The spirit of HMS, undying and ever prevailing! We were amazing in so many different ways! HAHA. SOMEONE said I'm hot today (: HAHAHAH! Bet he didnt mean it but still, felt good.
Today has been a tiring day! But also satisfying. Winning wasn't everything. It was the spirit. The spirit of HMS, undying and ever prevailing! We were amazing in so many different ways! HAHA. SOMEONE said I'm hot today (: HAHAHAH! Bet he didnt mean it but still, felt good.
We had to do powerpoint presentation of ourselves today during our 4HOUR class. Not too bad. Azimi wanna join our group! HAHA. Popular man! So yea, school's fun. I get the feeling I'm so gonna love my course! Good choice at last, Marianne! (:
Saw someone today. I'm sure someone saw me too. In the whole crowd, someone stood out. Someone has a nice smile, someone has nice hair. BUT someone's not for me. Or people will kill me. BZSE, why? I had hoped someone was in PCS. Then again, someone will never take PCS XD Someone, I'm waiting. Since day 1 man. LOL. Hmmmmmmm...
Okay, I'm really drained so I'm gonna put up photos from orientation (:
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{ Tuesday, April 15, 2008 }
Met my classmates today! They're not too bad. I like them all so far. Ruth is super sweet looking!! HAHA. Cindy's my age! WOOTS. Sarali's really nice and funny. Shabana's really cute. LOL. So today's class wasn't too bad. After class we went to the toilet XD And then went off to CCA open house. I put my name down for Roteract, HI club, STRINGS(!!!) and red cross (: They ask me to join cheer leading but I dont think I can be that perky.
We then went off to find the place to load all my softwares XD Ended up getting the privilledge card thingy, spinning the wheel and getting a pencil -.-''' HAHA. GREEN pencil. So we then found the right place but had to que liike super duper uber long so didnt go in the end. Decided to load it up tomorrow. BUT wth, it takes 2 freaking hours. So means, I go to class without the freaking softwares tomorrow. SHIT!
Anyways, after that I fly to JJC! HAHA. It's great to meet S28 again (: I love them loads still. AND I met SIEWYI!!!! HAHA! We run to each other screaming and hugging! HAHAHA. We're cute. So I'm going to let pictures do the talking (:
Hmmm, is that it? Photos being printed just so that I'll remember forever (: Memories are important to me!
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{ Monday, April 14, 2008 }
WOOTS! First day of school is over! Guess what? I think I'm in the RIGHT course for me man. Themore they talk about going for overseas trips or helping in volunteer organisations and stuff I just know its the right course and I'm gonna have a blast!
School isn't all that bad. Besides the fact that the lecture theatre's tables really suck!! HAHA. Made a few new friends today! Not too bad hmmmmm. LOL. I'm happy. I get to end early tomorrow, sign up for the ccas I wanna sign up for and then wooohooo! Back to JJC I go (: I miss everyone there. I really do. LOL. YH!!! You're soooo 'cute'! hahah.
Anyways, I wont say anymore. I really wont. I want to stop but I cant for now. Soon I'll tire out and stop but for now I'll keep on reading. I dont understand a freaking thing and that's great somehow. LOL. Guess I'm ready to move on now. I think. I'm prepared for it. But I just wanna know you're alive and kicking and studying hard.
I'm off to print notes XD
School isn't all that bad. Besides the fact that the lecture theatre's tables really suck!! HAHA. Made a few new friends today! Not too bad hmmmmm. LOL. I'm happy. I get to end early tomorrow, sign up for the ccas I wanna sign up for and then wooohooo! Back to JJC I go (: I miss everyone there. I really do. LOL. YH!!! You're soooo 'cute'! hahah.
Anyways, I wont say anymore. I really wont. I want to stop but I cant for now. Soon I'll tire out and stop but for now I'll keep on reading. I dont understand a freaking thing and that's great somehow. LOL. Guess I'm ready to move on now. I think. I'm prepared for it. But I just wanna know you're alive and kicking and studying hard.
I'm off to print notes XD
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{ Sunday, April 13, 2008 }
I'm feeling like an idiot right about now. It really sucks. I dont know what I'm feeling. I just unnecessarily told huimui off. I'm very sorry girl. I might have sounded harsh I'm really sorry. It's frustrating when you feel like how I'm feeling which I dont really know how to describe. I'm tired but I cant sleep. I feel like I'm falling apart just when my life's about to be normal. But no, I'm not falling apart and no, I'm not gonna give up just yet.
HUAT AH!!
School tomorrow's gonna be great. I know it will be. It has to be. And on tuesday, I can go back and visit my fellow JJCians! (: My dearest S28!! Found pics on Nicole's blog.
Espoir OI!
HUAT AH!!{ fin }
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School starts tomorrow! I'm looking forward. It seems that yesterday was quite an interesting day. I conferenced with SIEWYI and Kenn. Pardon me for dying at the last minute of the phonecall because I was just feeling that heavy thing weighing down on me again. It really sucks when you cant put a finger on what you're feeling. It really doesnt feel good. All I can say is I'm feeling weird. I dunno what I'm feeling but I'm just feeling something that's not feeling very good. I really wish it would just go away. REALLY. Because its not exactly good to feel this way a day before school.
Anyways, it was good finally talking to jupiter-ean again. LOL. We still got the same level of humour!! (: I was hoping I could put up pics by today but yea, last night was a disaster and so the sending failed =/ Photos will be up NEXT TIME. I dont have much to blog about. Besides the fact that I'm really bored and I'm feling a little high from I dont know what. My mood for blogging just died!!!! HAHAHAHAH! Anyways, thanks to SIEWYI for calling to see if I'm alive. I am darling thanks lots!! SUPER BIG THANKS TO KHAIRUL HAKIM!!! So sweet. Call me up just to say have fun at school tomorrow (: Thanks man.
I'd like to help. Tell you I'm here if you ever need a listening ear. Just as the friends we would be if we never got together. I'd be willing to listen to your complains as a friend. I dont mind. But I know its impossible. It seems like the only thing I can do to help is to stay out of your life. And that's exactly what I'm doing. Until we're okay with being friends once again (: I'm sure it'll come. And I'm already ready for it! I guess God has his plans and we shouldn't doubt him. Not for even a millisecond. Trust in him alright? I just want you to know if you ever need me, I'm just a phonecall or an sms away (:
Anyways, it was good finally talking to jupiter-ean again. LOL. We still got the same level of humour!! (: I was hoping I could put up pics by today but yea, last night was a disaster and so the sending failed =/ Photos will be up NEXT TIME. I dont have much to blog about. Besides the fact that I'm really bored and I'm feling a little high from I dont know what. My mood for blogging just died!!!! HAHAHAHAH! Anyways, thanks to SIEWYI for calling to see if I'm alive. I am darling thanks lots!! SUPER BIG THANKS TO KHAIRUL HAKIM!!! So sweet. Call me up just to say have fun at school tomorrow (: Thanks man.
I'd like to help. Tell you I'm here if you ever need a listening ear. Just as the friends we would be if we never got together. I'd be willing to listen to your complains as a friend. I dont mind. But I know its impossible. It seems like the only thing I can do to help is to stay out of your life. And that's exactly what I'm doing. Until we're okay with being friends once again (: I'm sure it'll come. And I'm already ready for it! I guess God has his plans and we shouldn't doubt him. Not for even a millisecond. Trust in him alright? I just want you to know if you ever need me, I'm just a phonecall or an sms away (:
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{ Saturday, April 12, 2008 }
ESPOIR OI! HAHA. I'm back!! Yes, I'm back (:
Was kind of worried I wouldn't enjoy it but I did in the end! Thanks to Jiayi and Weiling! And Kenn also lah XD Anyways, details tonight or something. Because I gotta go church soon. All I can say is, I cant wait for things to start now (:
Kenn's in the same class as me! YAY!!! HAHA. At least someone I know! So, ELPIS HUAT AH! I'm not making sense hahahah. Okay. Elpis is my orientation house name. Espoir is my group name. Our leader is Shawn Lee who now has a million blisters on his leg XD And also nicole, dorothy and geetha!! All our GLs. They're the best! Buy ice cream for us some more. HAHA.
I'll put up our fashion show works (: And the other photos when I meet Nicole online!
Everyone say I look so Artsy -.- I AM!
I'm not the oldest there thank god. LOL. I'm feeling a little weird now. Dont know why. HAHA. I'll be fine. I guess. As always, the brain tends to overwork. It's not my problem anymore.
HAHA, our white board. Dont we make fashion statements? (: Espoir, I like.
I know my jupiterean misses me like mad! Your plutosian is back!! HAHAHA. Jupiter has been missed too (: I'm back from earth and earthlings have made me lose my voice!
We all are what we are in our own demise.
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{ Tuesday, April 8, 2008 }
Goodbye people! Miss me for these 3 days where I'll disappear into the craziness that is HMS FOC. LOL. Okay, let me enlighten you people. School of Humanities Freshman Orientation Camp (:
I'm super excited about it. XD And guess what?! I'M IN GREEN HOUSE!!! Elpis? Something like that lah. So I have to wear green!! No problem man. No problem at all. hahahahah! My leader's name is Shawn. Shawn. Sounds familiar hmmmm? Shawny!!! I miss my Xue Ying XD Yes, Shawn Lee Xue Ying of PJC. Dont ask me why a girl's called Shawn. HAHA. Okay, if by some miracle she reads this, she'll chop my head off. Man, I miss her. She'll be like "Shun Fang, you idiot." LOL. Anyways, so yea! I tell you I'm gonna be the HIGH-est person in camp tomorrow -.-
So yea. My new life really is starting now. I'm not saying that the old will be forgotten. It'll just be kept away in a box or a tin or something to make space for the new. But the old will always be remembered (: FOR SURE.
So goodbye earthlings! The pluto-sian is gonna disappear for 3 days to bring the Pluto spirit to fellow earthlings! And my dearest jupiter-ian, DONT MISS ME! I know you will. The black hole will be there for you (: HAHAHAHAH!
Goodbye (: Starting afresh!
I'm super excited about it. XD And guess what?! I'M IN GREEN HOUSE!!! Elpis? Something like that lah. So I have to wear green!! No problem man. No problem at all. hahahahah! My leader's name is Shawn. Shawn. Sounds familiar hmmmm? Shawny!!! I miss my Xue Ying XD Yes, Shawn Lee Xue Ying of PJC. Dont ask me why a girl's called Shawn. HAHA. Okay, if by some miracle she reads this, she'll chop my head off. Man, I miss her. She'll be like "Shun Fang, you idiot." LOL. Anyways, so yea! I tell you I'm gonna be the HIGH-est person in camp tomorrow -.-
So yea. My new life really is starting now. I'm not saying that the old will be forgotten. It'll just be kept away in a box or a tin or something to make space for the new. But the old will always be remembered (: FOR SURE.
So goodbye earthlings! The pluto-sian is gonna disappear for 3 days to bring the Pluto spirit to fellow earthlings! And my dearest jupiter-ian, DONT MISS ME! I know you will. The black hole will be there for you (: HAHAHAHAH!
Goodbye (: Starting afresh!
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{ Monday, April 7, 2008 }
Oh no. This is super bad. Like really bad. I dont wanna give you the wrong impression. I'm not interested. SERIOUSLY. I dont want to go to your house to watch dvds I can watch dvds in my own house. I dont want to ask for company for lunch on saturdays. As friends I dont mind. But not in the way you want it to be. Thanks for the free ticket but I can pay for my own. Stop doing me favours please because I cant be who you want me to be or give you what you want. I'm sorry. I'm only hoping you'll understand through actions =/ I'M REALLY NOT INTERESTED.
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I'm sure I'm suffering from Insomnia now. Insomnia: inability to obtain sufficient sleep, esp. when chronic; difficulty in falling or staying asleep; sleeplessness. Taken from www.dictionary.com. hahaha! Yea, I am.
Last night I was watching tv till 2.30am. I turned the tv off because I know if I carried on watching my parents will come out and KILL me. hahhaha! So I went to my room, put on some music and tried to sleep. By 3am I decided I probably wont be sleeping today so I got up and wrote. Yes, the notebook. Haha. So guess what? I wrote 4 pages of the notebook. 4 pages. And I felt better but only to realise that I wrote for about 2 hours. LOL. And it was about 5am so I decided to lie down. And thankfully taken to lala land.
6am my alarm rang. My freaking alarm rang. I turned it off and was happily drifting off to sleep again when I had to recieve an sms so I got up to read it. Guess who. KS. WTH. Telling me he dozed off last night. DUH. He always sleeps before me now that I'm suffering from insomnia XD Anyways, so he was surprised I'm awake and asked if I wanted to go back to sleep. Funny part was, I didnt feel tired. So I told him forget it cos I couldn't fall asleep again. So today I'm surviving on an hour's sleep.
I had cadbury chocolates for breakfast today! lol. And Yakult for drinks. Life is simple and good. My mind's the one that makes it bad. An hour. Just an hour. I hope SIEWYI doesnt contract insomnia from me. hahahaha. I know I said I'd disappear from today onwards. Its just that there's so much I wanna say but I know saying it will only complicate things so I wont say a thing. I want a book. So I can read. Think I've done enough writing this early morning. HAHA. 2 hours of writing can be super strenious okay.
Someone said I've lost my vibe. Which is probably true. I have lost myvibe havent I? LOL. Sadly. I'll find some new psychotic vibe once I start school. I promise. For now, I need to start sleeping normally again. If not I'll probably die in school. HAHA. It's true.
If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it's one that you can keep,
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
This song is damn nice. Sung by a woman called Tracy Chapman who by the way sounds like a man! HAHA. Heartbreaking.
Maybe, maybe not. NOTEBOOK'S ALMOST FILLED UP IF THIS CONTINUES =/
Last night I was watching tv till 2.30am. I turned the tv off because I know if I carried on watching my parents will come out and KILL me. hahhaha! So I went to my room, put on some music and tried to sleep. By 3am I decided I probably wont be sleeping today so I got up and wrote. Yes, the notebook. Haha. So guess what? I wrote 4 pages of the notebook. 4 pages. And I felt better but only to realise that I wrote for about 2 hours. LOL. And it was about 5am so I decided to lie down. And thankfully taken to lala land.
6am my alarm rang. My freaking alarm rang. I turned it off and was happily drifting off to sleep again when I had to recieve an sms so I got up to read it. Guess who. KS. WTH. Telling me he dozed off last night. DUH. He always sleeps before me now that I'm suffering from insomnia XD Anyways, so he was surprised I'm awake and asked if I wanted to go back to sleep. Funny part was, I didnt feel tired. So I told him forget it cos I couldn't fall asleep again. So today I'm surviving on an hour's sleep.
I had cadbury chocolates for breakfast today! lol. And Yakult for drinks. Life is simple and good. My mind's the one that makes it bad. An hour. Just an hour. I hope SIEWYI doesnt contract insomnia from me. hahahaha. I know I said I'd disappear from today onwards. Its just that there's so much I wanna say but I know saying it will only complicate things so I wont say a thing. I want a book. So I can read. Think I've done enough writing this early morning. HAHA. 2 hours of writing can be super strenious okay.
Someone said I've lost my vibe. Which is probably true. I have lost myvibe havent I? LOL. Sadly. I'll find some new psychotic vibe once I start school. I promise. For now, I need to start sleeping normally again. If not I'll probably die in school. HAHA. It's true.
If you wait for me then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it's one that you can keep,
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
This song is damn nice. Sung by a woman called Tracy Chapman who by the way sounds like a man! HAHA. Heartbreaking.
Maybe, maybe not. NOTEBOOK'S ALMOST FILLED UP IF THIS CONTINUES =/
{ fin }
{ Sunday, April 6, 2008 }
I'm feeling excited. For several reasons.
First reason (probably the lamest!)
I'm going to the library tomorrow!! To borrow another book so that I can read and read non stop till I finish it before wednesday (: I love reading. Forgot how much I loved it when I started working.
Second reason
WEDNESDAY is camp. Orientation camp with my fellow HMS mates. I'm gonna meet like millions of new people and they are all going to not like me XD Yes, it is a fear I have. That people wont like me =/ WHY WHY WHY. Okay, anyways yea. I'm excited. AND I realised I'm not the oldest person there. There are people who are a yr older than me I think (: YAYNESS.
Third reason
SATURDAY. We are going to vivo on saturday. Whoever can make it anyways. Supposed to be just me and KS but too bad. I managed to pull about 5 people and counting to go along with me. HAAHAHA. Think its gonna be damn fun cos its gonna be more shopping and more time out of the house! My mom's surely not gonna be happy but nevermind. I need to enjoy life before school starts proper. Which is like what? NEXT NEXT FREAKING WEEK!
So today was a pretty stay home day for me. LOL. Because I woke with a SUPER crazily stupid ache in my head and was sneezing like 5 times per minute. HAHAHA. But I'm okay now thanks for all the concern. Except for some fella who said its my fault for not taking care of myself. EXCUSE ME, people do fall sick naturally okay? What more, I think it's a freak illness cos I'm totally fine now. Man, I want that book now. NOW. Cos I'm really bored. Its not easy smsing 3 Js at one go but I'm managing. So I'm gonna disappear for a week. Monday to friday I think. Then maybe I'll come back on Sunday just before my school starts (: Psycho!! Come to me!! LOL. Neither high nor low now. NEUTRAL which is good for now.
I'm going back to suffering from low self esteem. LOL. Convince me that I'm nice cos I dont feel that way. HAHA. Pre school anxiety. Yes, I dont like loneliness and I'm afraid poly people wont like me and I'll end up ALONE in poly then I'll have to go around being a loner with no friends at all!! OMG, that's a super scary thought okay? XD I will make friends!
Oh these feet carry me far.
Oh my body. Oh so tired.
Mouth is dry. Hardly speak.
Holy spirit rise in me.
Here I swear, forever is just a minute to me.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone when I die.
Have my body. Have my mind.
Have my coat. Take my time.
Theses I borrow. Borrow so far.
Turn to dust. Fall apart.
Here I swear, forever is just a minute to me.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone and understand.
'Cause all men die.
'Cause all men die.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone since I'm gonna die
I'll take everything in this life
I'll join everyone 'cause all men die.
First reason (probably the lamest!)
I'm going to the library tomorrow!! To borrow another book so that I can read and read non stop till I finish it before wednesday (: I love reading. Forgot how much I loved it when I started working.
Second reason
WEDNESDAY is camp. Orientation camp with my fellow HMS mates. I'm gonna meet like millions of new people and they are all going to not like me XD Yes, it is a fear I have. That people wont like me =/ WHY WHY WHY. Okay, anyways yea. I'm excited. AND I realised I'm not the oldest person there. There are people who are a yr older than me I think (: YAYNESS.
Third reason
SATURDAY. We are going to vivo on saturday. Whoever can make it anyways. Supposed to be just me and KS but too bad. I managed to pull about 5 people and counting to go along with me. HAAHAHA. Think its gonna be damn fun cos its gonna be more shopping and more time out of the house! My mom's surely not gonna be happy but nevermind. I need to enjoy life before school starts proper. Which is like what? NEXT NEXT FREAKING WEEK!
So today was a pretty stay home day for me. LOL. Because I woke with a SUPER crazily stupid ache in my head and was sneezing like 5 times per minute. HAHAHA. But I'm okay now thanks for all the concern. Except for some fella who said its my fault for not taking care of myself. EXCUSE ME, people do fall sick naturally okay? What more, I think it's a freak illness cos I'm totally fine now. Man, I want that book now. NOW. Cos I'm really bored. Its not easy smsing 3 Js at one go but I'm managing. So I'm gonna disappear for a week. Monday to friday I think. Then maybe I'll come back on Sunday just before my school starts (: Psycho!! Come to me!! LOL. Neither high nor low now. NEUTRAL which is good for now.
I'm going back to suffering from low self esteem. LOL. Convince me that I'm nice cos I dont feel that way. HAHA. Pre school anxiety. Yes, I dont like loneliness and I'm afraid poly people wont like me and I'll end up ALONE in poly then I'll have to go around being a loner with no friends at all!! OMG, that's a super scary thought okay? XD I will make friends!
Oh these feet carry me far.
Oh my body. Oh so tired.
Mouth is dry. Hardly speak.
Holy spirit rise in me.
Here I swear, forever is just a minute to me.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone when I die.
Have my body. Have my mind.
Have my coat. Take my time.
Theses I borrow. Borrow so far.
Turn to dust. Fall apart.
Here I swear, forever is just a minute to me.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone and understand.
'Cause all men die.
'Cause all men die.
I'll take everything in this life.
I'll join everyone since I'm gonna die
I'll take everything in this life
I'll join everyone 'cause all men die.
Embracing my inevitable fate (: No time to lose! Because we all like to move it, move it XD
{ fin }
{ Saturday, April 5, 2008 }
Wow, third post of the day. YAY to marianne. I feel like shit inside. I dont know why. Dont ask me why because why has now become a question I cannot answer and no longer ask. Why is a question that begets more questions. Its a vicious cycle. I've got alot to say but no words to express. KS, I really dont want to lead him on. I'm only hanging out with him because I dont want to be at home and he happens to be the one person who keeps asking me out. I'm trying super hard not to give him the wrong impression. I'm becoming an insomniac. I dont sleep much anymore. Then at times I feel super exhausted even if I didnt do anything at all. I've seen my timetable (: Not too bad. My first day of school starts at 11am! HAHA. I can sleep late.
Emotionally I still feel unstable. Pierre Cardin is having freaking sales. I know I'm random.
Anyways, just a song that seemed to be able to make me cry when Brooke White sang it on AI.
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene
He talks about you in his sleep
And there's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can
Well, I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene
Well, you could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
The notebook's still the same. I'd give it to you if I we'd ever meet again (: I'm moving on I know I am.
Emotionally I still feel unstable. Pierre Cardin is having freaking sales. I know I'm random.
Anyways, just a song that seemed to be able to make me cry when Brooke White sang it on AI.
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can
Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene
He talks about you in his sleep
And there's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can
Well, I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene
Well, you could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
The notebook's still the same. I'd give it to you if I we'd ever meet again (: I'm moving on I know I am.
{ fin }
{ }
I didnt go in the end, dont ask me why. I wish it was me but I know somehow its not. But its okay. Because in so many ways, you deserve much better than me (:
Hold my thoughts
I'm at an impasse
Past the place I stopped before
The sweeper's sweeping fragments
Of my head out the door
And the ice it burns upon my forehead
The calmness starts to scream
Must I always hold the upright
When my soul longs to dream
Is it too much to find an answer
Is it too much to hold you close
Is it too much to find a reason
Is it too much to free my soul
From self control
I can't get it any better
I always end up killing time
Time for love and time for living
Time to find what's really mine
And I know you're always waiting for me
You take me far away
And I know you're holding me
And it's better now . . .
And it's better now . . .
And it's better now . . .
Hold my thoughts
I'm at an impasse
Past the place I stopped before
The sweeper's sweeping fragments
Of my head out the door
And the ice it burns upon my forehead
The calmness starts to scream
Must I always hold the upright
When my soul longs to dream
Is it too much to find an answer
Is it too much to hold you close
Is it too much to find a reason
Is it too much to free my soul
From self control
I can't get it any better
I always end up killing time
Time for love and time for living
Time to find what's really mine
And I know you're always waiting for me
You take me far away
And I know you're holding me
And it's better now . . .
And it's better now . . .
And it's better now . . .
{ fin }
{ }
Well, back from the netball gathering. Wouldn't say it's another failed attempt at gathering people together but wasn't exactly a success. 7 Of us turned up. Me, HM, Michelle, shi Jie, KS, Boonlong and Michael. 5 of us were pretty early. 2 of them were late!! Its okay, forgiven (:
So we went to pastamania and ate. Had baked rice. KS was not only the latest but we all had to wait for him to go buy movie tickets and something else from TS vision before he came back. Our food all cold already LUH! HAHA. Nevermind. It's alright. So we ate and had fun. Problem was it didnt seem like much of a gathering because yes, we were eating together at the same table at the same time but it was sad. Me and HM engaged in conversation. Shi Jie and Michelle talked to each other. KS and Boonlong talked to each other and then Michael was left alone! I mean yea, on and off KS and Boonlong would join me and HM. But somehow it still felt like alot of walls were built. People hardly interacted. TALK PEOPLE!
Worse still, everyone went seperate ways after that. KS went off to watch movie with Boonlong. I honestly didnt mind watching with them but yea, no one else was going. So was I to watch a movie with 2 guys? HMMMM. Its not like I know them that well you know. So Shi Jie and Michelle went home. Understandable. They played a good game and was probably half dead already. So me and HM go off to interchange to talk. Or listen, in my case. HAHA. Sorry, I know I was really spaced out. I was just hit by a wave of emptiness that's all. Like I said in the previous post. I know I'm gonna have these roller coaster sort of thing. Ups and downs. Sudden hits of depression and emptiness. I know. But somehow there's no way to prepare myself for it.
So HM went off home. I honestly didnt feel like going home at all today. BUT there was nothing for me to do. Was I to hang out on the streets by myself? No way. So I obediently went home to the black face mother of mine XD Anyways, doesnt really matter. KS sms me to ask where I was. Too bad. He was one train away from me. HAHA. No chance of sending me home. TOO BAD. Haha, and he wanted to ask me to go starbucks to chill with him tomorrow. What's up with people and starbucks huh?! LOL. But then TOO BAD again. I've got polympics tomorrow.
As to the story of how I came to join the polympics. My lovely mother of mine put my name down in church without discussing with me. Thus being the kind kind daughter that I am, I obediently agree to grace this event with my presence XD An event where 99% of the people I probably dont know and are most probably 80% younger than me and I have to run around singapore tomorrow -.- Sounds like fun? NOT. But I think I can make it fun for myself. Take it as an opportunity to know more people from different aspects of life. OR you could take it all as a learning process in the famous words of JTYH. lol.
I'd put up pictures if I had good ones. The ones we took hastily were all blurry. BAD! So no photos! Tomorrow's gonna be a really interesting day for me. I guess. Meeting new people and travelling around singapore with them should be fun. HAHA. And well, I dont know what I'm gonna wear yet but whatever. OMG. Stupid fella. KS wanna pinch me. Violent eh!!!! Mad man. One day he wanna eat my bones next day he wanna pinch me. This is scary and disturbing at the same time ok? LOL.
So Winston wants me to go for his rugby match and support him. One question. Will HB be there? Next question. Do I honestly still care if she's there? Not really so done. I told him I'll keep next next saturday free. Just for his rugby match. What a nice friend I am. HAHAHAHA! Then if its in the morning then maybe can ask jem, sam and the whole gang if they wanna hang. LOL. Instant rhyme!! HEH. Yea, its been so long anyways. Like what? 4th march 2006? lol. Hmmmm, plus the new gang might be going starbucks together right? Find a day!!! Like next next friday night or something XD WOAH. Busy busy busy!
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While lookin' through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lyin' in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend...
I won't think about you
When I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
Sudden wave of emptiness.
"Global warming! Save the earth! Save YOURSELF!!"
So we went to pastamania and ate. Had baked rice. KS was not only the latest but we all had to wait for him to go buy movie tickets and something else from TS vision before he came back. Our food all cold already LUH! HAHA. Nevermind. It's alright. So we ate and had fun. Problem was it didnt seem like much of a gathering because yes, we were eating together at the same table at the same time but it was sad. Me and HM engaged in conversation. Shi Jie and Michelle talked to each other. KS and Boonlong talked to each other and then Michael was left alone! I mean yea, on and off KS and Boonlong would join me and HM. But somehow it still felt like alot of walls were built. People hardly interacted. TALK PEOPLE!
Worse still, everyone went seperate ways after that. KS went off to watch movie with Boonlong. I honestly didnt mind watching with them but yea, no one else was going. So was I to watch a movie with 2 guys? HMMMM. Its not like I know them that well you know. So Shi Jie and Michelle went home. Understandable. They played a good game and was probably half dead already. So me and HM go off to interchange to talk. Or listen, in my case. HAHA. Sorry, I know I was really spaced out. I was just hit by a wave of emptiness that's all. Like I said in the previous post. I know I'm gonna have these roller coaster sort of thing. Ups and downs. Sudden hits of depression and emptiness. I know. But somehow there's no way to prepare myself for it.
So HM went off home. I honestly didnt feel like going home at all today. BUT there was nothing for me to do. Was I to hang out on the streets by myself? No way. So I obediently went home to the black face mother of mine XD Anyways, doesnt really matter. KS sms me to ask where I was. Too bad. He was one train away from me. HAHA. No chance of sending me home. TOO BAD. Haha, and he wanted to ask me to go starbucks to chill with him tomorrow. What's up with people and starbucks huh?! LOL. But then TOO BAD again. I've got polympics tomorrow.
As to the story of how I came to join the polympics. My lovely mother of mine put my name down in church without discussing with me. Thus being the kind kind daughter that I am, I obediently agree to grace this event with my presence XD An event where 99% of the people I probably dont know and are most probably 80% younger than me and I have to run around singapore tomorrow -.- Sounds like fun? NOT. But I think I can make it fun for myself. Take it as an opportunity to know more people from different aspects of life. OR you could take it all as a learning process in the famous words of JTYH. lol.
I'd put up pictures if I had good ones. The ones we took hastily were all blurry. BAD! So no photos! Tomorrow's gonna be a really interesting day for me. I guess. Meeting new people and travelling around singapore with them should be fun. HAHA. And well, I dont know what I'm gonna wear yet but whatever. OMG. Stupid fella. KS wanna pinch me. Violent eh!!!! Mad man. One day he wanna eat my bones next day he wanna pinch me. This is scary and disturbing at the same time ok? LOL.
So Winston wants me to go for his rugby match and support him. One question. Will HB be there? Next question. Do I honestly still care if she's there? Not really so done. I told him I'll keep next next saturday free. Just for his rugby match. What a nice friend I am. HAHAHAHA! Then if its in the morning then maybe can ask jem, sam and the whole gang if they wanna hang. LOL. Instant rhyme!! HEH. Yea, its been so long anyways. Like what? 4th march 2006? lol. Hmmmm, plus the new gang might be going starbucks together right? Find a day!!! Like next next friday night or something XD WOAH. Busy busy busy!
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
While lookin' through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The bed I'm lyin' in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend...
I won't think about you
When I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
Sudden wave of emptiness.
"Global warming! Save the earth! Save YOURSELF!!"
{ fin }