My very last bit of effort to console myself is gone. Disappeared. Vanished. I'm so done. I'm so exhausted. I'm so dumb to do what I did. It just sucks. I just want to stop but I dont know how to. Perhaps ripping my brains out should do it. Well, congratulations to you. You just killed me. Every last part of me. There's nothing there anymore. Absolutely nothing. I'm falling sick again. WTF. Maybe I'll contract some deadly disease and die. Shit. Holidays, dont come. I dont wanna stay at home and die ): I want school. I want to be away from home. I want to runaway to some other place. Where no one knows me then maybe I can start a new life and leave everything I ever knew behind. I wish. I really wish. No sleep for me tonight.