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It was always you.
It was always you.
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{ Thursday, July 31, 2008 }
Didnt think I'd be blogging again today but I felt like I had alot to say after intpsy.
I think what was brought up was such a SMALL fraction of how everyone is feeling. I say so because when I looked around the room, there was still so much in people's expression but noting said. It's just idiotic. & I know how hard it is to express how one is feeling. I've done that alot myself. Keeping everything inside, not telling the person I'm pissed with her or jealous or whatever. That resulted in me getting scolded for not expressing myself. Now I really know how it feels to know that someone isn't happy with you but doesn't wanna tell you what. That's the whole point. It's really sad lah the way it is.
Anyway, I guess only 4 guys in class really listen to what the girls have to say. Lanze, Dave, Tim and Elton. HAHA. These 4 guys have probably listened to the problems of at least one of the girls if not all. LOL. So yea, whoever reads this (most prob only tim) THANKS LOADS! (:
Hmmm, and the thing about different cliques well, I'm one who have experienced first hand the LOVE from other groups of friends although I'm not that close to them. But they've still been there for me so there's no need to worry I guess. :D
On to lighter things, TIMMAY IS A PERV. What parang behind his zipper! Tsk tsk! Dirty boy. HAHA. And I am not SOON KWEH! & & & NEW PRATA: SPRATA!! HAHAHAHHA. RAHHHH, I've got more workload now. Elton, Nisha and I hae been chosen or sabo-ed to be HMS whatevers -.- ARGHHHH!!!! SITUATIONS! Today wasn't a bad day. I didnt really eat lunch because I didnt feel like it. Today, we had table cloth. Yesterday , we had Lord Vader. What will it be tomorrow? AWWWWW, tomorrow's friday!
I'm really really worried about next sem because somehow it just doesnt feel like it's gonna be okay. But still we will persevere and survive!We have to.
Oh, this morning was really sweet! Lanze was arranging my birthday party and Timmay couldn't go on thursday so we decided on friday instead because Lanze said Timmay was sad that he couldn't go. SO SWEEEET LAHHH. Thanks guys (: But now, Elton might not be able to make it on Friday ): Both of them arelike the 2 guys I'm closest to in class! How to choose between them?! I wont be able to lahhh. I'd want BOTH of them to be there with me! ): ): ): Dont ever make me choose between Elton and Timmay okay. RAHHH.
Well, I wont be putting any song lyrics because the previous one still holds true! It's all because of you. So, for song lyrics scroll down to previous post! XD
& now I've already tried staying away. I'm not doing anything besides staying away. But you're always so close, you're always there. When I dont wanna talk to you, you talk to me. When I'm resisting talking to you, you talk to me. I'm trying to run away but things are pushing me towards you and I cant run even if I want to! Stop being such a sweetheart will you? Stop being so freaking sweet. And cute, you said it was cute. WHY. Last night online was really really nice (: I'm having a dumb yeaning for something I can never have ): Yet, there's so much I wanna say to you. So many thanks for being on the side of me. For listening & for caring & making me laugh in the wee hours of the morning and all day long :D
I think what was brought up was such a SMALL fraction of how everyone is feeling. I say so because when I looked around the room, there was still so much in people's expression but noting said. It's just idiotic. & I know how hard it is to express how one is feeling. I've done that alot myself. Keeping everything inside, not telling the person I'm pissed with her or jealous or whatever. That resulted in me getting scolded for not expressing myself. Now I really know how it feels to know that someone isn't happy with you but doesn't wanna tell you what. That's the whole point. It's really sad lah the way it is.
Anyway, I guess only 4 guys in class really listen to what the girls have to say. Lanze, Dave, Tim and Elton. HAHA. These 4 guys have probably listened to the problems of at least one of the girls if not all. LOL. So yea, whoever reads this (most prob only tim) THANKS LOADS! (:
Hmmm, and the thing about different cliques well, I'm one who have experienced first hand the LOVE from other groups of friends although I'm not that close to them. But they've still been there for me so there's no need to worry I guess. :D
On to lighter things, TIMMAY IS A PERV. What parang behind his zipper! Tsk tsk! Dirty boy. HAHA. And I am not SOON KWEH! & & & NEW PRATA: SPRATA!! HAHAHAHHA. RAHHHH, I've got more workload now. Elton, Nisha and I hae been chosen or sabo-ed to be HMS whatevers -.- ARGHHHH!!!! SITUATIONS! Today wasn't a bad day. I didnt really eat lunch because I didnt feel like it. Today, we had table cloth. Yesterday , we had Lord Vader. What will it be tomorrow? AWWWWW, tomorrow's friday!
I'm really really worried about next sem because somehow it just doesnt feel like it's gonna be okay. But still we will persevere and survive!We have to.
Oh, this morning was really sweet! Lanze was arranging my birthday party and Timmay couldn't go on thursday so we decided on friday instead because Lanze said Timmay was sad that he couldn't go. SO SWEEEET LAHHH. Thanks guys (: But now, Elton might not be able to make it on Friday ): Both of them arelike the 2 guys I'm closest to in class! How to choose between them?! I wont be able to lahhh. I'd want BOTH of them to be there with me! ): ): ): Dont ever make me choose between Elton and Timmay okay. RAHHH.
Well, I wont be putting any song lyrics because the previous one still holds true! It's all because of you. So, for song lyrics scroll down to previous post! XD
& now I've already tried staying away. I'm not doing anything besides staying away. But you're always so close, you're always there. When I dont wanna talk to you, you talk to me. When I'm resisting talking to you, you talk to me. I'm trying to run away but things are pushing me towards you and I cant run even if I want to! Stop being such a sweetheart will you? Stop being so freaking sweet. And cute, you said it was cute. WHY. Last night online was really really nice (: I'm having a dumb yeaning for something I can never have ): Yet, there's so much I wanna say to you. So many thanks for being on the side of me. For listening & for caring & making me laugh in the wee hours of the morning and all day long :D
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Last night online was mad. I was trying so hard to resist but you just had to do what you do. It's like so frustrating. I wanna give you up but you keep pulling me back in ): I dont like the way it feels because it's just not good luh. I dont know what to do also although I'm like not doing anything -.- ARGH!!! This is frustrating. RAHHH & cute. Why did you have to say that? It's just so idioting. Wanting something you know you cant have. ): hahahah. Whatever.
Guess what? This always happens to Marianne Chan. HAHA, it isn't the first time isn't it. Its not gonna work girl, give it up!! I went to sleep smiling, I woke smiling. Because of you but still...RAHHHHH.
& how true is it huh. All because of you): I'M GONNA GET DIABETES SOON! RAHHHH.
Guess what? This always happens to Marianne Chan. HAHA, it isn't the first time isn't it. Its not gonna work girl, give it up!! I went to sleep smiling, I woke smiling. Because of you but still...RAHHHHH.
Ne-Yo - All Because of You( changed she to he XD)
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction,
I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…Never get enough,
He’s the sweetest drug
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it
And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because…Never get enough,
He’s the sweetest drug
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you
Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
He’s the sweetest drug, He’s the sweetest drug
& how true is it huh. All because of you): I'M GONNA GET DIABETES SOON! RAHHHH.
{ fin }
{ Wednesday, July 30, 2008 }
I've learnt I guess to accept it (: Let it go and just live with it.
Today wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. ITABS was really boring!! >.<>
Lunch was yummy. I realised I have not eaten laksa for the freaking longest time!
Wricomm was alright although mostly, I was stoning and thinking about stuff in this weird brain of mine. Tinky Winky is a perv. Like seriously!
Went to collect my guitar!! (: Went to convention centre for jamming. Dang, I await the day I'll play like that. For now, I'll sing.
Jem ask me meet him and Sam tomorrow. Hmmmm, dont know if I should. There's so much to think about.
Oh yes, saw Pikachu yesterday with specs. Somehow, pikachu doesnt wow me anymore. Damn you, diabetes.
Stayed far from diabetes today. Probably the least I've talken to diabetes in a day. I'm really gonna try to not fall anymore. It's really not helping me right now. So I realised the only way is to minimise interaction with diabetes and maybe, just maybe, it'll all go away.
Rach, thanks alot (: I know you girls are there for me :D Its just I dont want to give up on it till I know it's completely out of the whole thing XD No worries, I'll smile, smile, sile and you can be sweet, sweet, sweet and replace diabetes!
Neh dear, thanks for everything (: Love you loads darling!!
& it hurts but I know its what I have to do. I dont need this in my life right now. I have to, dont want to, I've got to set you free. It isn't my choice but its all just so pointless & it's tearing me apart inside. Leave it where it is and never let it blossom. Let it wither and die. I fear everyday because of you. Yet, it is because of you that I smile everyday and enjoy everyday. Please dont take my sunshine away. That's what you get when you let your heart win. My heart just looks for misery all the time doesn't it? Heart, stop acting out on your own. You cant lose what you never have.
Today wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. ITABS was really boring!! >.<>
Lunch was yummy. I realised I have not eaten laksa for the freaking longest time!
Wricomm was alright although mostly, I was stoning and thinking about stuff in this weird brain of mine. Tinky Winky is a perv. Like seriously!
Went to collect my guitar!! (: Went to convention centre for jamming. Dang, I await the day I'll play like that. For now, I'll sing.
Jem ask me meet him and Sam tomorrow. Hmmmm, dont know if I should. There's so much to think about.
Oh yes, saw Pikachu yesterday with specs. Somehow, pikachu doesnt wow me anymore. Damn you, diabetes.
Stayed far from diabetes today. Probably the least I've talken to diabetes in a day. I'm really gonna try to not fall anymore. It's really not helping me right now. So I realised the only way is to minimise interaction with diabetes and maybe, just maybe, it'll all go away.
Rach, thanks alot (: I know you girls are there for me :D Its just I dont want to give up on it till I know it's completely out of the whole thing XD No worries, I'll smile, smile, sile and you can be sweet, sweet, sweet and replace diabetes!
Neh dear, thanks for everything (: Love you loads darling!!
& it hurts but I know its what I have to do. I dont need this in my life right now. I have to, dont want to, I've got to set you free. It isn't my choice but its all just so pointless & it's tearing me apart inside. Leave it where it is and never let it blossom. Let it wither and die. I fear everyday because of you. Yet, it is because of you that I smile everyday and enjoy everyday. Please dont take my sunshine away. That's what you get when you let your heart win. My heart just looks for misery all the time doesn't it? Heart, stop acting out on your own. You cant lose what you never have.
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{ Tuesday, July 29, 2008 }
So today is a __________ day.
I just feel like relieved that presentaions are over for now. I did not wear a nightgown to school and Tim's a perv.
I think Rachel is such a sweet girl (: No wonder I'm diabetic XD Thanks girl :) And also thanks to HJ and nehneh! (: You guys are LOVE :D
Went to Adam FoodCourt where daddy always brings us to eat Nasi Lemak. Damn delicious but I ended up eating 2 satay and drinking sugar cane with lime. Dont ask me why I wasnt eating. Just didnt feel like it.
Someone didnt tell me that I was supposed to get off so I had to take back to school, take one bus then change to another when I could've just got off and took the bus. Oh well, not his fault. FORGIVEN.
So another impromptu poem since I'm in the freaking mood.
I just feel like relieved that presentaions are over for now. I did not wear a nightgown to school and Tim's a perv.
I think Rachel is such a sweet girl (: No wonder I'm diabetic XD Thanks girl :) And also thanks to HJ and nehneh! (: You guys are LOVE :D
Went to Adam FoodCourt where daddy always brings us to eat Nasi Lemak. Damn delicious but I ended up eating 2 satay and drinking sugar cane with lime. Dont ask me why I wasnt eating. Just didnt feel like it.
Someone didnt tell me that I was supposed to get off so I had to take back to school, take one bus then change to another when I could've just got off and took the bus. Oh well, not his fault. FORGIVEN.
So another impromptu poem since I'm in the freaking mood.
Twas, she saw it all so clear.
The thought that had once been so blur.
A question sparking off her thought,
Reminding her of how hard she fought.
Fought to somehow stay alive,
Fought so hard just to survive.
Yet she's sinking further down,
She's knows she's probably gonna drown.
Thus to her buoy she clings so tight,
Clinging on with all her might.
She feels the need to get closer,
The need she tends to fill with anger.
She waits for the void in her heart to be filled,
Knowing somehow, it never will.
All she's ever known is falling,
So to you she comes calling.
Turn away from all these blues,
Hurting her without a clue.
She knows that she is not alone,
but she knows she's on her own.
& I keep telling myself I'll be fine when I know its all a lie. I just wanted more time with you.
{ fin }
{ Monday, July 28, 2008 }
One sad thing of the earth, no guitar today ):
Happiness starts now!
Collecting my MAESTRO guitar on WEDNESDAY! School has been pretty much the same insulting crappy thingy that it always is but I think today is HEH PEE day because somehow I just feel heh pee.
Timmay hasa new name. LALA THE TELETUBBY because he has one strand of hair sticking out from his head today! HAHAHA. It was superbly funny okay! And he was uper happy to catch the rugby ball so that he could pass it to Cindy. LOL. FUNNY is the word.
Cindy's the one being insulted now. Being called kiddo and stuff. Dirty! HAHAHAH.
I think I should learn to carry my wallet and handphone with me EVERYWHERE I go. So that Mr Seah or Ms Tan wont take my things and hide it in some place. HMPH! BETRAY MY TRUST! KNEEL DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND BEG FOR FORGIVENESS OR ELSE I BURN YOUR MOTHER! hahahaha OMG.
Well, its dumb cos Elton and Tim found this poster online that says "NO RESPECT!" hahahahah! Inside joke. LOL. "No respect for your group leader!" HA-HA-HA! And Elton Seah is so afraid that I'll SEE his stupid famres video so he keeps turning his lappy away from me! RETARDED DUMB DUMB! I'm looking at my group mates not you vid!! RAHHHH! I aint a PEEP-er!
Intpsy was funny too! Timmay did a GREAT STUPENDOUS job of making Cindy smile (: Well done dooooood! nehneh has found my weak point! SHHHHH! hahahah. Was sitting beside Jia Wen but had to switch places with Timmay because he wanted to play REVERSI (and lose) with Jia Wen XD Ended up sitting beside Mr Seah -.- I was falling asleep during lecture and he'll go "FIRE!" and I'm supposed to wake up and start screaming! -.- I think saying "COCKRAOCH!" would work better, seriously. Elton Seah Rong Cheng's eyes are rotting because he see wrong things! TSK TSK! "Your favourite colour some more!" XD Damn funny. His hirt is dirty okay! White shirt that has yellow stains on the shoulder part. EEEEYER! hahahaha. I DO NOT HAVE A 1980s WALLET! HMPH! >.<
So today has been pretty FUN :D Feels good when you let things go.
SIEWYI! I LOVE YOU (:
This heart, it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours.
Happiness starts now!
Collecting my MAESTRO guitar on WEDNESDAY! School has been pretty much the same insulting crappy thingy that it always is but I think today is HEH PEE day because somehow I just feel heh pee.
Timmay hasa new name. LALA THE TELETUBBY because he has one strand of hair sticking out from his head today! HAHAHA. It was superbly funny okay! And he was uper happy to catch the rugby ball so that he could pass it to Cindy. LOL. FUNNY is the word.
Cindy's the one being insulted now. Being called kiddo and stuff. Dirty! HAHAHAH.
I think I should learn to carry my wallet and handphone with me EVERYWHERE I go. So that Mr Seah or Ms Tan wont take my things and hide it in some place. HMPH! BETRAY MY TRUST! KNEEL DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND BEG FOR FORGIVENESS OR ELSE I BURN YOUR MOTHER! hahahaha OMG.
Well, its dumb cos Elton and Tim found this poster online that says "NO RESPECT!" hahahahah! Inside joke. LOL. "No respect for your group leader!" HA-HA-HA! And Elton Seah is so afraid that I'll SEE his stupid famres video so he keeps turning his lappy away from me! RETARDED DUMB DUMB! I'm looking at my group mates not you vid!! RAHHHH! I aint a PEEP-er!
Intpsy was funny too! Timmay did a GREAT STUPENDOUS job of making Cindy smile (: Well done dooooood! nehneh has found my weak point! SHHHHH! hahahah. Was sitting beside Jia Wen but had to switch places with Timmay because he wanted to play REVERSI (and lose) with Jia Wen XD Ended up sitting beside Mr Seah -.- I was falling asleep during lecture and he'll go "FIRE!" and I'm supposed to wake up and start screaming! -.- I think saying "COCKRAOCH!" would work better, seriously. Elton Seah Rong Cheng's eyes are rotting because he see wrong things! TSK TSK! "Your favourite colour some more!" XD Damn funny. His hirt is dirty okay! White shirt that has yellow stains on the shoulder part. EEEEYER! hahahaha. I DO NOT HAVE A 1980s WALLET! HMPH! >.<
So today has been pretty FUN :D Feels good when you let things go.
SIEWYI! I LOVE YOU (:
This heart, it beats, beats for only you. My heart is yours.
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Lonestar - Amazed
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
Ive never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
Im so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby Im amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
Im so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby Im amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
Im so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby Im amazed by you.
I really am (: STUNNED & loving it :D Just one night where I feel so much for you and somehow it feels mutual but I'd never know, would I? So from the distance I put between us, I'll watch and smile from afar (: I've fallen, I'm sure.
Thanks to Lanze, I stayed up till 3am but I'm glad I did. Never really talked to him like that before (: Talk again soon! Anyways, I've done the famres vid :D Proud of it! Last night was great I guess (: Things like that are so inevitable you know what I mean. & I awake this morning with a freaking clear mind so I realised what I've been pathtically doing and I have decided to let it go! :D The world is your's for the taking once again.
TOMORROW :D
{ fin }
{ Saturday, July 26, 2008 }
You know you're screwed when you miss someone this bad -.- LOL. NOOOOOOOO! I MUST NOT SUCCUMB! But you know what? I think I've already fallen way too deep. No, I dont want to but I cant help it.
Anyways, today's parents forum was kind of interesting. Boring too. Went to guitar fair! Come to me you maestro guitar! XD So yes, I'll have a gitar to learn so maybe JR wont insult me non stop! HMPH!
So erm, went down to NOVENA today. God gave us mountains w=so we could learn how to climb (: Obstacles put in our way to make us stronger and better people! I really cant really think of much to blog right about now. It's just pointless so I'll put songs (:
Like seriously, stop it. LOL. Everyone knows about it! RAHHHH. I dont like it I dont like it I dont like it! GO AWAY! hahas ): I've fallen in too deep? I dont know. IM SCREWED!
SIEWYI!!! MY DEAREST, LOVE OF MY FREAKING LIFE! Next sunday!!! WOOHOOO :D Love you loads, babe (: School will never relace you!!! In my big fat oily heart! XD
People, I'm really D-E-A-D! hahaha, please hide it for me. My birthday's coming XD I'm being random and I love ___________________________________________________. No words to explain luh. BYEBYEPEEPS!
Anyways, today's parents forum was kind of interesting. Boring too. Went to guitar fair! Come to me you maestro guitar! XD So yes, I'll have a gitar to learn so maybe JR wont insult me non stop! HMPH!
So erm, went down to NOVENA today. God gave us mountains w=so we could learn how to climb (: Obstacles put in our way to make us stronger and better people! I really cant really think of much to blog right about now. It's just pointless so I'll put songs (:
Paramore - Lovesick Melody
You say the sweetest things and I
Can't keep my heart from singing along to the sound of your song
My stupid feet keep moving to this 4/4 beat, I'm in time with you
Whoa, to this 4/4 beat I would die for you (die for you)
(Someone stop this)
I've gone to far to come back from here, but you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me
Won't someone stop this song, so I won't sing along
Someone stop this song, so I won't sing..
I never let love in so I could keep my heart from hurting
The longer that I live with this idea, the more I sink into this 4/4 beat
I'm in time with you
Whoa, to this 4/4 beat I would die for you (stop this song)
I've gone to far to come back from here, but you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me
I've come to far to get over you, and you don't have a clue
You don't know what you do to me
Can't someone stop this song, so I won't sing along
Someone stop this song, so I won't sing
Your lovesick melody is gonna get the best of me tonight
But you won't get to me if I don't sing
It creeps in like a spider
Can't be killed, although I try and try to
Well, don't you see I'm falling?
Don't wanna love you, but I do
(Lovesick melody)
Can someone stop this song, so I won't sing along?
(Lovesick melody)
Can someone stop this song, so I won't sing?
Your lovesick melody is gonna get the best of me tonight
But you won't get to me, no
You won't get to me 'cause I won't sing
SIEWYI!!! MY DEAREST, LOVE OF MY FREAKING LIFE! Next sunday!!! WOOHOOO :D Love you loads, babe (: School will never relace you!!! In my big fat oily heart! XD
People, I'm really D-E-A-D! hahaha, please hide it for me. My birthday's coming XD I'm being random and I love ___________________________________________________. No words to explain luh. BYEBYEPEEPS!
{ fin }
{ Friday, July 25, 2008 }
Let me start by thanking God once again (: My dad's okay and given a clear bill :D Cancr aint gonna get him! What a relief. We can all put our minds at ease now.
Today has been a pretty okay day. We went to school for ISSUES & LMS. The wind was freaking strong lah!! So we had to do our issues presentation and got told off because we took super long to present! HMPH! I think PP is super fussy! Anyways, I'm glad that everything's over for our IS modules. At least we can relax for the rest of the classes since its been presentations non stop! RAH.
Took 196 after school to get to NUH but got lost somewhere and realised I was heading towards town at Outram Park XD Thankfully, Khairul Hakim called and walked me thorugh the whole thing cos I was freaking out about the whole thing because I had absolutely no idea whereI was!! LOLS. In the end my parents had to fetch me from Buona Vista.
AND WHAT A TURN OF EVENTS!
We were supposed to go home and have dinner at SUNSHINE PLACE but then we were kind of near westmall so we decided to eat there. Ate dinner where daddy met his old old friend! HAHA, how nice right. HAHAS. Then walked through the interchange to the carpark and guess who I saw in blue blue shirt with his friends? ELTON SEAH RONG CHENG! LOL. Funny uh. Then his friends keep staring!! Like WTH. lol. So he said its because his friend was giving me a retarded smile XD RIGHT! I bet he told them about my ***** face and made them laugh. HMPH! EEEEEEEEVIL! But yea, it was such a coincidence lah! LOL.
Snippet of a song (:
Every day's another first
Another chance for me
To fall in love with you
And I do:
Did you know when you're around
My heart won't it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Oh.. when you're with me
I stop seeing
Any way to fail how do I explain
I try to tell you what I'm feeling
But how do I when all words pale
I dream in colours that could only be colours of you and me :D
Today has been a pretty okay day. We went to school for ISSUES & LMS. The wind was freaking strong lah!! So we had to do our issues presentation and got told off because we took super long to present! HMPH! I think PP is super fussy! Anyways, I'm glad that everything's over for our IS modules. At least we can relax for the rest of the classes since its been presentations non stop! RAH.
Took 196 after school to get to NUH but got lost somewhere and realised I was heading towards town at Outram Park XD Thankfully, Khairul Hakim called and walked me thorugh the whole thing cos I was freaking out about the whole thing because I had absolutely no idea whereI was!! LOLS. In the end my parents had to fetch me from Buona Vista.
AND WHAT A TURN OF EVENTS!
We were supposed to go home and have dinner at SUNSHINE PLACE but then we were kind of near westmall so we decided to eat there. Ate dinner where daddy met his old old friend! HAHA, how nice right. HAHAS. Then walked through the interchange to the carpark and guess who I saw in blue blue shirt with his friends? ELTON SEAH RONG CHENG! LOL. Funny uh. Then his friends keep staring!! Like WTH. lol. So he said its because his friend was giving me a retarded smile XD RIGHT! I bet he told them about my ***** face and made them laugh. HMPH! EEEEEEEEVIL! But yea, it was such a coincidence lah! LOL.
Snippet of a song (:
Every day's another first
Another chance for me
To fall in love with you
And I do:
Did you know when you're around
My heart won't it can't slow down
It beats so hard it makes it hard
To catch my breath, to catch my breath
Oh.. when you're with me
I stop seeing
Any way to fail how do I explain
I try to tell you what I'm feeling
But how do I when all words pale
I dream in colours that could only be colours of you and me :D
{ fin }
{ Thursday, July 24, 2008 }
Things she feels, she never shows.
Thoughts hidden from the ones she knows.
She's trying so hard all alone,
Knowing that it's all unknown.
It's falling apart in front of her,
She knows somehow she's going under.
It's obvious what has become,
Although still dark and shady to some.
She's near the part where she despairs,
The part where she no longer cares.
Giving up is what she'll do,
If she onlyhad the courage to.
Still, she's hanging on so tight.
She sinks to the nadir in the darkest nights.
All she's known just keeps on changing,
Shifting themselves, rearranging.
Shadowy facades, they decieve.
Happiness is what she wishes to recieve.
To experience that bliss she once knew,
That bliss that sent her to the front of the que.
You're the one she looks forward to.
The one she thinks of as a beau.
Someone to put a smile on her face,
To brighten up her every day.
She feels secure with you around,
Something she wishes to tell you about.
Yet she hides these emotions,
For she knows it's only motions.
Thus, she's pulling away from you.
Pushing away from all that 's true.
She's afraid of what's to come,
Afraid that she'd hurt someone.
Still, you are all that she sees,
The sight of you, her eyes to please.
Her joy, her happiness,
She embraces.
& you'll never know. When we're hungry, love will keep us alive.
{ fin }
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Yesterday was a day of mixed feelings!
The day started off with Tim and Elton being horrendously late for ITABS. We wanted to meet at 8am but they came at almost 9.30am!! HAHA, late comers. TSK TSK! Anyways, we presented 2nd and I just felt pretty sucky because I felt like I screwed up. I mean, I dont even know what the hell I was presenting so I dont think I made any sense at all ):
Lunch was alright. It was a different setting for a change I guess. As in for the first time during lunch I was surrounded by fioNEH!, Desmond, Joel and Lanze instead of the usual Cindy, Elton and Tim. LOLS. It was pretty fun I guess. I didnt eat a wole piece of chicken because I dont know why but I didnt feel like eating. Written Comm was weird. Chatted wit Elton online then did eportfolio and fell asleep for like what? 5 minutes? LOL. Then went straight back to eportfolio-ing.
After school we all went to the library to CHIT CHAT! HAHA, it was freaking funny bcause its a library and we were talking as though we were in some open space. Then we all started playing LEGO STAR WARS!! And please, its freaking fun lahhh!!! HAHAHAH! It's super funny okay. I can beak into bolts and nuts when I die! And the characters can like bitch slap each other XD
We were so happily playing we forgot that we had to go for the HMS thingy! Then we went for that which was -.- Then we had DINNER which was fun fun fun! Went home with Hann Kenn :D Was really tired but talked to Khairul.
KHAIRUL HAKIM!! It's okay, let it go. I know how you're feeling now. I'm here for you when you need me okay? (: Just think PRATA PRATA PRATA!
Pictures! (:
The day started off with Tim and Elton being horrendously late for ITABS. We wanted to meet at 8am but they came at almost 9.30am!! HAHA, late comers. TSK TSK! Anyways, we presented 2nd and I just felt pretty sucky because I felt like I screwed up. I mean, I dont even know what the hell I was presenting so I dont think I made any sense at all ):
Lunch was alright. It was a different setting for a change I guess. As in for the first time during lunch I was surrounded by fioNEH!, Desmond, Joel and Lanze instead of the usual Cindy, Elton and Tim. LOLS. It was pretty fun I guess. I didnt eat a wole piece of chicken because I dont know why but I didnt feel like eating. Written Comm was weird. Chatted wit Elton online then did eportfolio and fell asleep for like what? 5 minutes? LOL. Then went straight back to eportfolio-ing.
After school we all went to the library to CHIT CHAT! HAHA, it was freaking funny bcause its a library and we were talking as though we were in some open space. Then we all started playing LEGO STAR WARS!! And please, its freaking fun lahhh!!! HAHAHAH! It's super funny okay. I can beak into bolts and nuts when I die! And the characters can like bitch slap each other XD
We were so happily playing we forgot that we had to go for the HMS thingy! Then we went for that which was -.- Then we had DINNER which was fun fun fun! Went home with Hann Kenn :D Was really tired but talked to Khairul.
KHAIRUL HAKIM!! It's okay, let it go. I know how you're feeling now. I'm here for you when you need me okay? (: Just think PRATA PRATA PRATA!
Pictures! (:
Mr Seah says that this is illogical because there's a grey dot on his face!
Someone didnt let me take photo of his food!
But I still did! Oily elongated rice! XD
Cheese & Mushroom prata! And the wallet is NOT a super old 80's wallet!
So that was my day. (: Pretty exciting huh. LOLS. Loving each day :D
You, stop being so sweet and nice! I really dont like the way I'm feeling okay. I want to stay away but you keep on reeling me in! Just let me stay away from you, please. I do not want to be reeled in. Seriously. Yet, it's you that make me smile all day long =/ You're irresistable, somehow.
{ fin }
{ Tuesday, July 22, 2008 }
Facades! Nothing says more than that word (:
Today started off damn horrendously! I was in a weird mood, feeling weird. But as the day went on it got better and better :D Presenting for Family Relationships made me happy in a way because she said my part was good and
alright! (: WOOOHOOO! Then we went for lunch and then went to Ruth's house for filming.
RUTH'S DAD CAN SERIOUSLY ACT!! I GIVE HIM THE GOLDEN HORSE AWARD OR OSCAR AWARD! WOOTS! WAY TO GO UNCLE! YOU ARE MY IDOL!! HAHAHA. We had super alot of fun luh! Laughing at Timmay's tummy. And we found out that I have a girly face and they can never make me look like a boy! HAHA! We really tried hard okay!! Had loads of fun and brought Tim to boring old Lot 1 where we walked up and down and went off XD
Yes, I'm now some funny face kid! Elton Seah said he'll sms me pointers on how to be an adult and I thought he was kidding but seriously!! When he got off the freaing bus he smsed me pointer number one! And it went up to pointer number 3 where he concluded that it'd take me a few more years to learn his pointers -.- I didnt know people go to gym so free one lah! Can sms and teach people how to be an adult. RAHHH! I aint a kid. And, Timothy Choong, I know you read this. STOP BULLYING ME JUST TO SATISFY ELTON'S DESIRE!! Stop bullying me or die! ARGH!!
JR IS NOT THE NEW LOVE OF MY LIFE!! Although he is a nice guy but NOOOOOOOO! I dont even know him. This is madness! RAHRAH. I am so open to options okay! Go listen to Peaches - I, U, She HAHAHAH! OMG, shhhhhh! SILENCE IS GOLDEN! XD
Corrine May - On the side of me
I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me
I'm not too proud of some things I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to beon the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you
I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to beon the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me
'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you
Yeah you choose to beon the side of me
on the side of me
Yes, you did (: It's just such a meaningful song. You're the only one who stuck up for me! :D That's how you got me.
DONTHITME!
{ fin }
{ Monday, July 21, 2008 }
Today has been a pretty fun (: Especially at canteen four :D
I FREAKING LIKE TIMMAY'S MOOKS SWEATER OKAY! I'M SO GONNA GET IT WHEN I'VE SAVED ENOUGH MONEY!
Guitar wasn't too bad. I tried! Dearest Danny didnt come today!! ): It's such a small group. Paired with Jin Rong today and WTH!! HAHA, he's like ELTON NO #2!! ARGH!!! He treats me like some retarded girl who needs an hour to learn one note!! RAHHHH! Die! Die! And no, he's not my boyfriend!! ARGH!!! But yea, he's a nice fella too luh. HAHA. He's positive. "Keep telling yourself you suck at it and you'll really suck at it." Wise words ahh.
Went home and took 184 with Weisheng! Another nice guy ahh. HAHA, we chat o the bus and he is so irritating! "Eh, he not bad what." DONT TRY TO PLAY MATCHMAKER! HMPH! LOLS. He's nice because he waited with me for 67 to come! He lives in a freaing jungle!! AAHAHA.
So that's my day today. Pretty eventful ad we made Ruth cry! ): LOLS. Not on purpose ahhh. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRL! :D
So that's my day today. Aint as bad as I thought it'd be. Let's hope everyday gets better and better.
Now, some entertainment for all of you people!
Me and mooks go well together!
Tim's NutriSoy expires on my birthday!
Lego Starwars!
Happy Timmay!
Emo Lanze
Ruth, Sarali and Timmay's lappy!
Joel
Elton Seah If he looks blur, it's cos he moved -.-
Cindy!
And all the good guys of the world (: I realise I have options!
There's a light in your eyes, did you leave that light burning for me?
{ fin }