I dont know. I'm pissed. Not because of wat you all think it is. I just dont understand. Forget it. I thought things were alight. If no one's gonna tell me what's happening then forget it. I'm just gonna fade away because I really dont know what I'm doing wrong unless you tell me. I dont care about the whole thing of pulling an pushing. She's not something we can do that to. I just wanna know that' all. As in if it's me tell me. Like just tell me. You're not the only ones who feel fearful and tired. I dont know how to act around you anymore. I feel like everything I'm doing is wrong. I thought things wouldget better but it doesnt seem to be. And guess what? You have great friends around you to share your troubles. I have those too but still, too many times have I been left alone. Because they all just leave one by one. ALL. So whatever. I'm jst really tired. I really dont knowwhat to do anyway so maybe its good to do nothing. Maybe that wouldhelp huh.