{ Dreamer }

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
It was always you.

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Hello world (: Amazed that I'm blogging at this time? HAHA. It's my off day today! :D

BUT I feel wayyyy busier than ever, somehow. Met up with Fiona and Jia Wen at JE and off we went to Orchard to meet Lanze. Sat at starbucks for a while and then went to Wisma's Food Republic where we watched Lanze eat and then had interesting conversations that was horribly bad for the baby at the next table. HAHA.

Then we walked to Orchard mrt where we met with Fiona's friend Vannessa and then walked to Far East and went shopping! I bought new leggings and a new laptop case (: Spend money again! ): Now, I really wanna get my Everlast palms!

Then we had a walk through Holland and foundot there was no 67 ): JIA WEN IS A LIAR XD But yeah, we made our way home too, anyways (: HAHA.

That's about it. Guess what? I do miss work XD AMAZING RIGHT. haha (:

The Cliks - Whenever
I sailed this boat
I made you home
I played my cards
and Lost hard

I've been seeing double
in a world of trouble
I've been waiting patient
Won't you listen,
wont you listen

I bathed in salt
with open scars
I bled for fear
so many tears

I've been sitting silent
Even more defiant
I've been seeking council
won't you listen,
won't you listen

All my love is for you dear
Whenever, whenever you want it
All my soul is for you dear
Whenever, whenever you want it

Amazing lyrics (:

& back to work tomorrow(:

RT RT RT RT RT RT! :D
Cindy, dont steal my Galen XD Sweeeeeeeet.

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Cindy, dont miss me tomorrow (: See you on tuesday okay! :D You will survive!

Today wasn't that bad a day. These are the reasons why:
1) I get to see alot of the cashier 20 fella. The one who did his business in the girls' toilet and didnt even know! XD
2) Galen, my que controller is such a nice nice guy! I took sweet from him and then wanted to return him and he said "You take the whole things lah (:" AWWW, sweet dude :D
3) I get to do PACKING after so long. Nicholas decided to be a nice guy today although he was uber tired and let me pack things while he does scanning XD
4) Stephanie is freaking funny luh XD
"I very straight one hor"
"I very crooked meh?"
"YA, VERY." XD

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,
5) A SMILE FROM RT (: Surprise surprise. :D
LOL, forget the embarrassment I felt luh. I was made to look for price tag today since I'm not the one scanning so I went hunting and couldnt find the promoter so I asked another promoter and she's like "RT! RT!" HAHA, I really got a shock can. Then out came RT from nowhere HAHA. And RT smiled when RT saw me :D HAHA, DAMN CUTE. Forget the embarrassment. I bet RT doesn't mind so I dont mind either (: It made my day okay, seriously. I acted super normal can. AND I went back to the cashier and smiled to myself for the next hour till Nicholas ask me "You mad ah? Or the promoter bully you?" HAHAHAH. Just one smile made my day (: Easy peasy :D

Well, congratulations to ALONSO for winning the F1 in Singapore (: But I still prefer Lewis Hamilton! :D HAH, Hammie rocks! (: He's so freaking friendly and nice luh (:

Tegan and Sara - Love Type Thing
My shirt tucked out
And your hands tucked in
When dark things come calling
They want you to hear
Sweet humming underground sleepless and tired
A love type thing
A sure type thing

Keep your ears wide open
For the sound of the door
If they want you, they'll take you
And that is for sure
Sweet humming underground sleepless and sore
A love type thing
A sure type thing

Oh it's a love type thing
A sure type thing

RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT RT made my day today & I'm still high about it XD

& "San ge dou yi yang jia qian" :D

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Another day of work. Stephanie is freaking funny luh.
"Look into my eyes."
"Yo falling in love with me right?"
XD

Worked with a sunburnt Nicholas today XD Stupid fella go play basketball before work -.- Then keep complaining about his hands and legs dying. GET A LIFE DUDE.

Anyways, i concluded the foodcourt's food isn't nice to eat. HAHA. And I have a nice partner who is willing to work night shift so I can work morning shift so I can go for class chalet's BBQ :D

I was just super sian and a little tired and also kind of up and down on the moods. ): It's PMS.

Galen is a nice guy too (: He's my que controller who is so cute as to ask us if we want customers with trolley LOADS of stuff XD He's funny lah.

The ride back home was filled with laughter half of the way.
"No drinkng is allowed in the stations and trains"
AHAHAH, that was damn funny luh! spilled lemon barley on myself ):

I think I've scared RT away XD I dont know. HAHA.

LOL. Okay, let me correct everyone who's asked. I'M NOT ATTACHED!!!!
I'm just in love :D HAHAH. With a new band. Music is amazing! I love l-o-v-e music! (:

Cry me a river (:

Nobody else will :D

Oh Yeah =)

Freaking nice luh (: OH my, the cliks are making me high in the night! XD

Okay, time to go people. Watching F1 now (: TATA.

& I bathed in salt with open scars, I bled for fear so many tears

Amazing lyrics (:

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Today was pretty much the same. We have cute customers and we have horrible ones!

Horrible ones just pissed all 6 of us off. Seriously.

Anyways, at least lunch wasnt that boring anymore. Went back to shop after work and they laughed at my EZ Link card ): But Stephanie is a nice friend (: Sheshowed me her IC and it made me feel better :D Nice friend!! :D She seriously still reminds me of PY!

The white shirt one was looking at us the whole time okay! Weird. HAHA.

& no RT today. I really dont know if I'm happy or sad HAHA. So embarrassing! ):

The Cliks - Misery
I saw you praying
on the doorstep of pain
I saw you praying
to a god you can't name

Oh they said you were lovely
but all I see is ugly

I saw you fall down
and not get up again
I saw you fall down,
Saw you fall down my friend

I saw you walking
down these sheltered blue halls
(I saw you walk, I saw you walk, I saw you walk)
kicking and screaming
only I heard your calls
(I saw you walk, I saw you walk, I saw you walk)

Oh they said you were crazy
and I'd have to agree

You should've fallen
Should've fallen with me
'Cuz you know baby,
How I love company
'Cuz you know baby

How I love, how I crave
How I love, How I crave
Oooh...

You should've fallen
Should've fallen with me
'Cuz you know baby,
How I love company

& there are so many of them, I'm so afraid.

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Hello (:

First day of real work at Expo wasnt too bad (: With hyper and xiao bai lian (Nicholas) to keep me entertained XD Fighting for customers just made it even more fun. Stephanie reminds me of PY somehow XD Everytime she lifts the cloth at the counter, I'll gasp and she'll smack me on the butt with paper because she says she feels like she's lifting my skirt :D HAHAHAH! Cute right. Yea, first day and there's rumours of me and my partner already -.- I think he's cute but he's alright luh. So chinese speakig ):

In the morning I was really happy because of RT. When we went home I got really sad because of RT. I told everyone the picture was the last straw ): I never would see RT again. Yet there RT was in front of me. RT, Ricky Tan, Reuben Tatcher. LOL. So embarrassing ): How how how? ): RAHHH. I'm gonna act normal okayyy. I will survive. HAAHA. I dont understand okay, I keep metin RT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Anyways, there's someone whom I'm seriously in love with (: LUCAS SILVEIRA!! That's LS for you. He's the lead singer of the band 'The Cliks' and they are freakingly awesome!! (: Love them! Helps me take my mind off RT :D HAHA. Oh man, so embarrassing!!! ): ): ):

Okay, here's a video I promised to a few peeps :D Its Te Cliks singing Justin Timberlake's Cry me a river and a small small part of Beyonce's Irreplacable. SUPER NICE.

Superbly nice lah!! :D Okay, FYI Lucas Silveira was born a girl but he went through gender reassignment operations and so she's a he now (: Transgender. But yeah, amazing voice!

LS (: He's not handsome, more of charming.

Tattoos and an electrc guitar :D

The Cliks (: Tranny LS XD

Typical rockstars but individual in every right (:

Coolios yeah? :D The Cliks are just ecstatically amazing! (:

& she's got me lovedstoned, I think she knows.

I'm staying away because I dont wanna fall.

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HELLO PEOPLE, I'M HERE TO ANNOUNCE I'VE OFFICIALLY FOUND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE BESIDES JASON MRAZ! XD

LS, I LOVE YOU! HAHAH!

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Well, there's only one reason I would blog when is not even halway through the day yet. I've been doing quite a bit of thinking and I guess I feel like I have to get things out.

I slept early last night (: Like 12am XD But yea, that's considered early. I knocked out I guess, really tired from al the shifting of stupid bins LOL. Yea, so I woke up, played my guitar and watched Grey's Anatomy. And I must say I;m so freaking happy I got to catch this episode because I think it's the season finale! (: It's freaking sad luh. Izzy and Danny case. Made me cry my eyeballs out, seriously.

I dreamt again last night. What's wrong huh. I keep dreaming these few days XD Ayways, this time was pretty funny. I dreamt that I was at home and there's this irritating african american dude outside my door and he keeps ringing my bell. Guess who it was? THE NIKE DUDE FROM EXPO! ahahah! I can literaly laugh in my dream luh. Anyway, he was irritating in my dream cos he kept pestering me to let him change the lightbulb of the lights outside my door! HAHA, so werd right? And there's this mysterious little girl wo sat in a corner and watched as I spoke to the guy. And when we were done with talkig she just turned around and went into the lift. CREEPY. LOL. Weird dreams. 2 days back, I dreamt I was learning some erotic dance from Leisha Hailey! HAHAHA. How weird can my dreams get I wonder.

Anyways, so I continued plaig my guitar till now (: HAHA, I'm gonna master your call by today! (:

So here's an interesting video and its also has meaningful lyrics (:

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles that are made in China?
Feel the bright prosaic malls
Through the corridors that go on and on and on

I was blind - didn't see
What was here in me
I was lost - insecure
Felt like the road was way too long, yeah

Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that we're feeling again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again

Will those feet in modern times
Understand this righteous anger
Recognise this world's addiction
Understand this world's affliction?

I was blind - didn't see
What was here in me
I was lost - insecure
I felt like the road was way too long, yeah

Cause love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise and love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm singing again, again, again, again, again, again

Cause love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Love is noise, love is pain
Love is these blues that I'm feeling again
Come on, come on, ah come on, ah come on
Now come on, now come on, now come on
Now come on

Will those feet in modern times
Walk on soles made in China?
Will those feet in modern times
See the bright prosaic malls?
Will those feet in modern times
Forgive me all my sins
Love is noise
Come on

& love is noise, love is pain. Most of the time, we ourselves dont really know what love really is.

What was love to you when you said you loved me? Because now, it feels like you never did.

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Hello world.

I'm half dead right about now but still playing my guitar.

Yesterday the twins finally celebrated our 'birthday' (: HAHA, makan-ed at Westmall then went to Peninsula Plaza to get my guitar stuff then off we went to Esplanade rooftop where we talked about life. LIFE. It always seems to be the topic at Espanade's rooftop. Anyways, we then went off to Marina Square and walked around, sat down for a drink and went off home.

Dinner was with mom and dad at Raffles City then we went off to Esplanade again to see the skyline at night. Its nice (: Its just so much came back. Oh wells. Yeah, then we walked quite a bit before coming home.

Today was a funny day. Let's just say, I dont understand Robinsons at all ): But oh wells. 12 days, persevere! We had 3 hours of hard labour then 3 hours of pure talk and then another hour of madness before going home.

My parents are really fickle minded ): I'm sorry I lost my temper, I just felt so pissed when there's a 'plan' and they keep changing it. RAH.

My hand hurts ): And I'm kind of feeling heavy. In the sense that everyone seems to be demanding a little piece of me and I feel like I dont have enough to give. You know what I mean? Oh well.

This next vid is just something that seems relavant. Look up the lyrics okay! HAHA, or maybe I'll post it. Yeah, but its a song by Gnarls Barkley called 'Crazy' and I think Shawn Colvin did a splendid rendition of it! (: Watch her fingers on the guitar frets okay, seriously! Kick ass luh.

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Possibly

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you,
who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to
Lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Possibly

& the best part of the song was the part 'Even your emotons have an echo in so much space'. Beautifully written, beautifully sang (:

This last part was demanded,
HAHA, I LOVE CINDYTAN XD and and girl, I'll wrap XT up and give XT to you on your birthday XD

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Hello people (: I went MIA for one day.

Yesterday was a fun day with my family. We went all over Singapore doing nothing but eating and crapping. We also went to Terminal three and I kind of decided its a nice hangout place.

Oh yes, before I forget. Friday night I went to Jurong Point for dinner with HM, Sam & Jem. It was pretty fun (: We've not met up for such a long time already!! HAHA. So yea we're all busy with our own lives. I'm just waiting for Jem to get married XD

I've been trying to learn how to play 'Hey there Delilah' on guitar and I think I kind of got it (: The first part anyways. I'm gonna learn sunny came home ASAP. I seriously need to learn it! Anyways, every other free time I have, I'm rocking out to UH HUH HER.

Secondhand Serenade - Your call
Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

HAHA, sudden craze (: Anuyways, tomorrow's my last day of freedom before mayhem and chaos starts and I'm going out with twin :D I must admit I dont really feel like going out, I wanna stay home and just play my guitar till my fingers bleed but I owe him one for ditching him on our 'birthday' so oh wells. Let's have a cheap lunch! (:

Yeahh, the four of us :D

& here in my heart there's a picture of us, together forever. Unfaded and unbroken.
Forever more, you'll be here in my heart

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Let us be dreamy.

Watching Grey's Anatomy was pretty funny! Mcdreamy, Mcsteamy, Mcdog & Mcvet -.-Sacrifices we make.

I remember everytime people asked what I dreamt for in life. I tell them freedom. A life where money doesnt lord over freedom. A life where I can do anything, anywhere,at anytime I want. A carefree life. A life where I dont worry about where I am to sleep,when I'm gonna eat. Whatever comes, comes. An impromptu life (: Love it. DREAMS.I'm never gonna achieve that now or anytime near now so I create my own stories.My own adventures in my mind, in my writing and in my drawings. I love it but people keep telling me to wake up. Stop dreaming, stop living in my own world. With so many limitations in life already, why shouldn't we dream? Why shouldn't we come up withour own little daily adventures just to make life a little more interesting? Well, I'm defying it. I've created so many adventures of my own already, Im not stopping now.

Breaking stereotypes, being unpredictable and going in a totally unexpected direction in life. My three main things that help me reate my own adventures. I'm proud to say, my life is not a wee bit boring (: Love it.

Well, dream people. Danny in GA said that many times, when we look back at the thingswe do in life and dont regret but are thankful for it and these things are those that break the rules. And he ended it off with "Life's too short to play by the rules." You have no ideahow true that is :D

The mind is an amazing thing (: I'm kind of happy with the mind I have. HAHA, a little overly abstract but who cares right? :D

Anyways, today has been a pretty great day (: Went to sentosa for tanning :D Mr Sun was nice today! No paradise though. Where's pikachu? LOL.

THEN WE WENT TO HMV IN HEEREN TO COLLECT MY UH HUH HER ALBUM!!!!! Finally luh! I was screaming XD HAHA.

Yeahhhh (: I'll sleep listening to them today!

Uh Huh Her - Dreamer
You've seen the worst of me now
I'm all alone see
You lost me somehow
And what we're fighting for is peace
Are you still in love with me,
Or someone else?

Well are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh)

I've seen the worst of you too
I let it go see
Because I have to
And when I'm falling on my knees
You'll take my hand in yours
What will be, we'll be

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love

What's the matter with our ways
I'm missing something,
not to blame
But don't you worry,
this will pass
It's only cause my mind's
been spinning
No control,
I've lost my head
All of this is just beginning
Not enough,
it's never enough
I'll only want to keep on dreaming

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh)

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh)

& now you know how I felt. Let it go, you say.

It isn't easy when you love the person as much as I loved you

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Alright, decided to delete that last post I wrote. I shall not emo. I shall not. HAHA, I'll be happy meh :D

I really wanna tank my dearest love of my life SIEWYI! Darling, I really really think you're the best thing that happened in my life (: I love you woman and I'm missing you super super ALOT! I seriously appreciate it today okay! You're like the main person I can rant to and like talk shit to XD I SOOOOOO LOVE YOU WOMAN! (:

Thanks to Cindy too! (: HAHA, tomorrow ahhhh! I told mr sun to come out bright bright!

I wont say I'm feeling completely alright now but wayyy better than that shity feeling I was having just now. I really dont know why. Must be the dream!

I dreamt again last night. It was a mixture of things. Yishun mrt, holding hands, guitars, sunny comes home, py, staying over on sunday. Stuff like that. Mixture indeed. Its a pretty random dream but I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I skipped dinner ): I didnt feel like eating. Sorry grandma! Happy birthday! (: Yeahh, it was pretty idiotic. I just didnt feel like eating anything at all although it was good food at clementi! ): Now they're gonna call me anorexic even more! I'm not okay! I just dont feel like eating dinner today ): NOT IN THE MOOD.

I am seriously MAD about Sunny came home okay! Seriously, its like an infectious, addictive song. I'm going to draw and write afte this because I really need to get this shitty feeling out of my system by tonight!

MY UH HUH HER ALBUM IS OUT PEOPLE! I'M SO GONNA COLLECT IT TOMORROW!!! WOOHOOO! AND SPEND THE LAST BIT OF MY MONEY XD I'M BROKE. I WANT MY PAY! HAHAHAHA XD

I've got facebook now. I only created it to view other people's profile okay! LOL.

Wan, make up your mind! HAHAH, seriously. Fight it out man.

The people from China are back! NEHNEH!!! I've missed her super much! And HANNKENN! LOL. (: Love you guys, you know I do :D

Oh, and I realised, thinking about what I did with RICKY TAN still makes me happy XD How dumb am I? I miss pikachu ): HAHA.

AND someone just reminded me! I know why I'm feeling this way already (: And it helps alot. I know why I'm feeling idiotic. HAHA, the date, the dream and the whoe thing. Oh wells. Lucky number 7.

& I only want to keep on dreaming

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I'm feeling happy (:

Just met WAN after millions of years. Okay, about a few months but yea. She's always been my singing-hang out-weird buddy! Not to mention our english rivalry.

Anyways, we met at JE and went off to Vivo. All the way there we talked and talked. We've both changed so so much XD & I think it's great because we've sort of evolved into the same group still! I miss her loads, seriously. It's superbly nice to meet up with her. We went to Vivo and went window shopping cos all the clothes were either too straight or too expensive XD We ended up spending a huge amount of time in starbucks just chilling and relaxing (chillax -.-) and talking about the stuff we all love talking about.

OH MAN, I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR'S PRIDE! NEVER KNEW SINGAPORE HAD ONE!!

It was a great day (: We have got to meet up again soon! I want my everlast palms!

Dude, your new hairstyle rocks! Let it stay this way man (:

This one's my favourite picture :D

Anyways, the next vid is of Shawn Colvin who was featured in the L word when they were on the cruise where Dana was one of the panelists. So I fell in love with her voice! HAHA. Superb (: So this song's been in my head for like forever since monday!

& days go by, I dont know why. I'm walking on a wire.

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Today has been a pretty interesting day (:

Started off with me waiting around at bus stops for HM outside JJC. LOL. At least I got to meet Jeremiah, Yong Hong and Jasmine! :D Miss them loads luh! Glad t see them again! (: I also realised I have a list of people I never wanna see or come into contact with ever again XD Dont blame me, its not my fault they were all assholes to me.

Ended up going back to Hillgrove to wtch them play netball and got to shoot a little (: Realised I really do miss those netballing days where all we wanted to do was play netball. HAHA. Better times (:

Went back to NP and saw Dave! Chinese food called me. HAHA, the guitar area was freaking noisy with some woman screaming and being retarded so we decided to escape to the seats outside convention centre where we were kindly approached by some these 2 women who were spreading their Christian knowledge. LOL. Luckily I got the english one. Anyways, uned guitars and then talked XD Nice talk though (: I realised, we're such opposites!! HAHA.

Life, that's what we talked about. I create my own adventures! XD That was funny luh seriously. I mean, drawing ad writing. What's wrong with that? HAHA, and we wondered about how different things would be if things weren't how they went. INTERESTING!

And someone's gender acknowledgement has been confused! XD

Fiona just sent me a sms from CHINA!! haha, hometown of RT XD. Anyway, she's so cute. Say she miss me and kenn miss me too! WHOOO! So sweet (: I miss them both too! LOL. *hearts!*

& as I search for nice Uh Huh Her live stuff, I chance upon the first few vids I saw of Secondhand Serenade that made me fall in love with him for a while (: So here they are XD

The last one's a new one (:

& I may have failed but I have loved you from the start.

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Dear you,

It's been a long time. Blame it on me for not having the guts to say it to you straight but its more of because I'm making a wild guess. And also because I know I dont have any right, but I just felt like I had to do this somehow. It's taken a pretty long time for me to get to where I am now with the whole you and I thing but I'm glad I got here. I guess it was something important just like what it is to you. I've said it before but I'll say it again. I'm here for you, as a friend. And I know I'm seriously the last person on this earth you'd turn to but remember that I'm a good listening ear if you ever find yourself in a situation where you cant find anyone. I guess all I'm saying is that I hope you're happy and taking care of yourself.

Ignore this if what I'm assuming is wrong but I'm pretty sure I'm right. Still, you're strong. You know you are. You'll get through this and you'll survive any obstacle thrown your way. Because if you dont, then you're not you.

I've said this to many and so I say to you:
NOTE: YOU ARE LOVED (:

& this one's specially for you (:

When it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile because that's what everyone loves about you, truly (:

& the thing about this is that I dont even know if you'll read this or worse still, your reaction to this. Anyways, take care (:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY!

HAHA, so today was pretty much alright (: Spent alot of time at Bugis. A bit too much time if you ask me XD Went to Seafood Harvest for lunch then went for the training which turned out to be -.- I aint a social butterfly! Or maybe I am XD

Still high abou what I did. LOL. RT shifted again ):

She was staring at me when I looked back and our eyes met. She carried bread, was dressed in some sort of chef's uniform. Tall, dark, good looking and a chef! HAHA. Shhhhhhh!

Anyways, went to Parkway Parade at night and went to Isetan and no, did not meet RT ): HAhAHAHA in my dreams (:

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to beJust like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
(you) You don't really want to stay, no
(but you) But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Katy Perry somehow manages to capture things well even though I started out not even liking her. She's growing on me (: In a good way. She sings of relevant stuff!

& I'll dream of chefs tonight, or maybe just one :D

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Everyone's telling me I'm weird today. I have weird taste in music.

And my mom sort of hinted that she knows. Oh wells. HAHA, she said I'm being experimental but what does she know? She didnt experience what I did, she didnt feel what I felt.

I tell her I'm unique.

I realised I didnt say anything about meeting James and EC today XD EC passed me my birthday pressie and its HORRIBLY CREATIVE AND NICE!!! Thanks loadssss dude! HAHA, it's like a doll keychain made from strings! Damn nice luh (:

Uh Huh Her - Dreamer
You've seen the worst of me now
I'm all alone see
You lost me somehow
And what we're fighting for is peace
Are you still in love with me,
Or someone else?

Well are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh)

I've seen the worst of you too
I let it go see
Because I have to
And when I'm falling on my knees
You'll take my hand in yours
What will be, we'll be

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love

What's the matter with our ways
I'm missing something,
not to blame
But don't you worry,
this will pass
It's only cause my mind's
been spinning
No control,
I've lost my head
All of this is just beginning
Not enough,
it's never enough
I'll only want to keep on dreaming

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh)

Cause are you such a dreamer?
Put yourself in my shoes
Careful what you wish for love
(oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh, oooh)

Sends a clear enough message XD Support love, in all forms.

And you dont need me, I realised. Bring it back to that day when I realised I meant nothing to you. Why do I bother? So seriously, you're wasting my time.

& 'pai qi lai man shuai de mah (:'

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Guess what? I'm still high over what I did. I still cant believe I'd approach someone I dont even know in person. Oh wells. HAHA. I am still high ):

And you know what? I did dream of RT. OMG. Thats so dumb. It's something about me and RT and some other girl. Cant really remember. BUT HAHAHAHA! Its funny!

Tracy Bonham - Whether you fall

Whether it's the sunshine whether it's the rain

Doesn't make a difference 'til you complain

Whether it's the water coming in from the roof

Does it piss you off that you're not water proof?

Whether you fall means nothing at all

It's whether you get up it's whether you get up

And you hate the silence as it fills up the room

And there's not much to say to your blushing groom

Maybe all eyes are on you as you finish the race

And the world sees you struggling for last place

Whether you fall means nothing at all

It's whether you get up whether you get up

& the weirdest thing is, I feel kind of empty now.

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HELLO PEOPLE OF THE WORLD, I'M HIGH (: SO PARDON THE CAPSSSS XD

Today's day started off with meeting Cindy then off to Centrepoint Robinsons where we did NOT buy any lingerie but instead bought my mother's pressie then went to HEEREN to buy EC's pressie. Then I think she got pissed with me for being fickle mided XD Sorry woman!! I'm nice, I sms to say 'Thanks'!

AHAHAHA, I love it. I love it I love it I love it! LOLS. Ohhh Emmm Geeee, I'm so not gonna get sleep tonight. :D

Okay, it sucks to be high at night. HAHA, it doesnt matter. I'm high. I spoke 6 sentences straight in chinese! Let's see.
1) Do you remember me?
2) I'm Cindy's friend!
3) So you're not working at Robinsons anymore?
4) Working till what time?
5) Can I ask you a question?
6) Can I take a picture with you?
OH!!! 7) BYEBYE!

XD XD XD I'm proud of myself. I can speak chinese!! & this is the first time I did something brave HAHAHAH

Dont ask, dont tell :D She has brown eyes, high cheek bones and horrendously small feet!

& its such a coincidence (:

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Long lives the fear

we'll be forgotten

It's a sad sad world we're in

to not believe something

And we'll stop the world from falling

just to stay alive

And I say don't ask me why

do I disbelieve, tell me

Everyone is telling us

something's wrong with us

Everyone is saying

we're lost somehow

I wanna know

Do you believe in something

Everyone seems to have lost themselves

I just need a sign

that we have found one voice

Cause it's a mad mad world I see

to end up with nothing

So we fight for what is right

with no compromise

And I say please ask me why

I believe in living, tell me

Everyone is telling us

something's wrong with us

Everyone is sayingwe're lost somehow (oh)

I wanna know

Do you believe in something

Everyone seems to have lost themselves

I'm reminded how I told mysef to not expect anything. Everyone was telling us there's something wrong with us.

& I hope you feel better knowing that you're not alone (: I'm here.

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Okay, I figured out this place on youtube where this dude was giving out a link to dowload new Uh Huh Her songs! So right now, I'm maaaad and damn freaking high about UH HUH HER songs!! WOOHOOO!

So here's a few videos of them and how ARGHHHH AMAZING they are (:

Enjoy (: Cos I will :D HAHAHA!

& I realised that I'm having more and more female voices in my songs! HAHA, shows somethng huh! GIRLPOWER!! (:

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I dont know what's going on in your life and I'm in no position to ask.
But I get the feeling you're kind of sad so I'm using the same words you told me.
Cheer up girl (:
And I know I'd probably be the last person you turn to but still, I'm here for you if you ever need someone and cant find anyone. I'm still your friend you know that :D
So cheer up because you're strong and you'll pull through whatever difficulties or obstacles (:

Love,
Marianne Chan (:

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WARNING : LONG POST IN A LONG WHILE XD

Today has been a great great day. So much has been done in just one day (:
And yes, I'm speaking metaphorically and not literally.

I woke up today and decided to on the tv where I watched mtv. Then I continued to Grey's Anatomy which I recommend to everyone to watch because it is just a freakinglyawesome show that shows reality in so many ways. Plus, it always makes me cry watching it. I've a soft spot for life.

Thinking about life, we learn new things everyday. I remember Jenny once said to Moiraaka Max that we spend our whole lives trying to find out who we really are, when in the endno one really knows. How true. What makes a person? Her looks? Her personality? Her experiences? Her life? The things she did and the things she didnt do? Who are we then to judge others and expect not to be judged by others? Who arewe to think we have the right to tell someone that the way they live their lives are wrong when all they are doing is loving the ones they want to love. Who are we? What makes uswho we are at this point in our lives? What pushes us to think things up, what causesus to feel things? So many questions. Questions that in the end beget more questions.

I then turned on the laptop and got way out of hand watching vid after vid. Its not aboutjust watchig the vid. But its about learning from the vid. The underlying lessons it teaches the audience. Today I learnt that sometimes we need to take a step back and look at what we have instead of counting our losses and we'd realise that we have morethan what we need. I also learnt that many times we do things that hurt others so muchmore than we imagined we would. Or sometimes we do things to hurt others without even knowing it. This is such an apt sentence to what I'm feeling right now. The epitome of hurt.

Word of the day: FREE
Why you might ask. Why free? Because its a word I realised I only used during a short butsignificant period in my life. I only used this word because at that time I felt that way. I said the word to myself. FREE. What does free mean? Wouldn't encapsulising the meaning of thatin itself a sort of binding already? Ironically, I used this word during a period of time where I was the most binded. The most chained to something, something I chained myself to. So how often do you use the word free? And if so then, how free can one be?

So if I said I wanna be a writer would anyone believe me? Would I succeed? HAHA, ambitions (: Just a decision. Poems or novels?

Anyways, on to lighter stuff (: In case my dearest classmates dont read their HOTmail anymore, 1B01'S CHALET HAS FINALLY BEEN BOOKED :D 1st to 3rd October at Costa Sands Resort Pasir Ris. I really hope everyone will turn up, at least for bbq night because the 3 organisers put in alot of effort to get everything done properly!

And dont ask me why that song. Its just infectious (:

Anna Nalick - Breathe 2am

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,

"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,

I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"

Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes

Like they have any right at all to criticize,

Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button, girl.

So cradle your head in your hands

And breathe... just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss

"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,

"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."

Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,

But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,

Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.

No one can find the rewind button, boys,

So cradle your head in your hands,

And breathe... just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,

You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out

And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again

If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song

If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,

Threatening the life it belongs to

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd

Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud

And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,

And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table

No one can find the rewind button now

Sing it if you understand.

and breathe, just breathe

woah breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe.

& sometimes wejust forget to breathe. It's not the complex things but the simplest things.

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