Today it ends and it sucks to say but I made it end. I wont explain anymore. I'll disappear from your life. Just like that. I know what I say now wouldn't make a difference, but still I'll say I'm sorry.
I have work to do, I know I have work to do. Its no just work, it's overdue work. Work that I should have done million years ago but I just delayed. How do I work now?
I thought I found purpose in life but I didnt.
I should have stuck to that gut feeling I had but no use regretting now.
I'm at a lost I guess. I want to focus but I dont know what on. I want to runaway from home and roam the streets all night. I want to forget about school and just stay home all day. I want to write and draw and play my freaking guitar.
I'm tired but I know there's more to come. The questioning, the judgements but dont judge me. I'm sick of being judged.
Drinks anyone? It's been so long since I've drank. So yes, let's go for a drink. Let's visit pubs nd hang out. Let's go out an keep busy so I wont have to think. So I wont have to feel guilt. I feel selfish. I feel assholic. I feel like shit.
I have to do my work. But Ireally dont see how I'm gonna do it.
Courage makes a fool out of all of us.
Time to be independent, to rely on myself once again. I'm an outlier. I'm not alone, I'm just on my own.
SIEWYI! WEDNESDAY PLEASE!!
And thanks woman for being there and talking to me and listening to me rant about stuff.
And nehneh! who always keeps a listening ear near.