I was feeling freaking happy with high level of achievement and all but it seems short-lived. I freaking dont havespace to breathe. Okay, I'm just letting out steam because in real fact I love poly life right now. Its just I feel the pressure okay. Its like I dont have the time to do anything else besides work.
These few days I've been working on the freaking video. I finally completed it today with Nisha's help and she said "Idont even care if we get a C now because I know we did our best." That was like so nice of her to say that. But yeah, guess what? I thought I could rest. Joel rested today. I thought I could rest but no. I have to think about other projects. Other FRIGGIN projects. It gets tiring when you dont even get5 mins to rest.
I went tanning with dearest SIEWYI and guess what? I'm busy smsing about projects. I went out with Wan and I'm smsing about projects. I'm at home with my family and I'm smsing about projects. I'm at home and I'm DOING the project. I went to watch TWILIGHT with Khai and I'm smsing about projects.
You cannot run away from this thing we call PROJECTS.
Okay, I guess I'm feeling okay now (:
LOL. I just felt like I had to compensate for not being around the next few days. But I believe I've done my part. And now I can fly off with nothing holding me back.
Here's what I wanna do. I wanna play my guitar till my finger bleed. I wanna sing songs without falling asleep. I wanna watch movies after movies. I wanna roam the streets and meet people. I wanna draw whatever I want whenever I want to. I wanna say what I wanna say. I wanna write poems. I wanna write my own novel. I wanna just lie on the beach and tan. I wanna just be with friends. I wanna read a book and be so freaking amazed.
That's what I wanna do.
So here it is. My family doesnt understand. Why I stay awake all night doing the vid when I can leave it for someone else to do. They dont understand why I play the guitar when I have work to do. They dont understand why I draw when I dont let anyone see my drawings. They dont understand why I write poems without letting anyone read them. Most of all, they dont understand this yearning in my heart. This thought that maybe one day they would come to accept. Maybe one day, they'll understand.
Okay, enough. I'm going to be hehpee. :D HAHA, guess what? I have TWILIGHT ORIGINAL SOUNDTRACK! and and and apparently Galen wants to give me CD! WHOOO, James Morrison's latest album I think (: YAYNESS (:
I'm going off tomorrow. To all my loved ones; I love you (:
SIEWYI MY LOVE, I'm gonna miss you like mad. I'll try to find those cows for you XD LOVE YOU! WOMAN, dont worry so much about it alright. No one's perfect anyway and we all have our flaws (: Take care of yourself. And to you, I wis you'd say bye or something but yeah. Doesnt matter anymore.