I feel like life's back in balance now. After the many long and emo posts XD
Have to thank nehneh! and siewyi love for being there (: HANG IN THERE! BOTH OF YOU :D
Was talking to nehneh about my previous post and I said something I personally liked alot. LOL. I said "There's only so much a giver can give and when the taker doesn't even want to take, its even more pointless to give." So takers & givers. Givers, remember to give because that's what we're made to do. Takers, remember to take because that's what you all are made to do.
Talked to Siewyi about my previous previous post. About not being able to love again. I believe I've found out what it is. I dont have an empty heart, no. Its not empty, it's just not full or ready to be filled just as yet.
Anyway, I've sorted out my thoughts about someone. I dont think its because I cant love again but more of like I dont want a relationship screwing up my mental bliss at the moment and my whole get-my-life-back-together stunt. So, no falling for anyone :D We can hang as friends.
I know this are kind of serious emotiona to feel just before exams but I think its helped me focus rather than dwelling on the unknown. I know who has been there for me and who's tried to make it harder for me. Plus point, EDWARD SCISSORHANDS IS IN MY POSSESSION (: So after exams, there's gonna be some movie marathoning. :D
Oh, and friday is going to be AWESOME :D
So yes, I feel like life's back in balance.
I'm gonna give myself more time. Time to put me first in my life. Time to love myself a little more. Time to let my old wounds heal completely. Time to start giving myself more credit. Time to give myself a little bit more praise and applause.
Because I think everyone needs to learn it at some point. Learn how to for once, not put others as more important than themselves. For a while, let the world revolve around Marianne. At least, let Marianne's world revolve around Marianne (: